Ceber

I have something to write about that I need advice on. I don't feel like I can tell anyone I know - I'm embarrassed. I was in love with someone for five years and I'm sure he was the love of my life. He broke up with me while he was shopping for an engagement ring over a year ago. I am trying desperately to move on but I just can't seem to. I have dated a lot of people in the meantime, but nobody compares at all. I want to call him up all the time and would love for us to get back together, but I'm sure it's to no avail. I just saw him last week for the first time since the breakup. He called me to give me back some stuff. It was fun...we were casual and caught up on each other's lives. But I was too proud to admit any of my feelings. I am so scared to tell him how I feel because I am 99% sure he'll feel like his decision to leave was the right one. I'm so afraid of getting hurt again. But then again, what do I have to lose? I just don't want to go through life wondering if he was IT...