Sorry........... problems with my compu

 

No I don't think that is just to commecial their storie, I mean we need to remeber that and so but now it has turn into somenthing different

The problem is ( and you know that too) is that you're fascinated by what the dictator did, and you don't find Hitler did somenthing as bad as people say

No, is not like hat but yes I do have a certain fascinatin by dictator and I hate the way Jews are now but I don't think that Hitler didi somenthing good and I'm not a antisemist ( and cut it here cuz this time Ian is really going to ban this)

He shouldn't read here, there is nothing interesting besides.......

you're really confuse, what do you want?

You mean what I want now or what I want?

What do you want........

I want to leave all this, go to a cold place, learn a new languaje, be round by intellectuals, see the starts everynight and ............have a true life

This might sound to you stupid or what but I also wanna suffer, but suffer a lot lot ........ I wanna go to Palestina or Iran or a place like that and doesn't really matter If I'm someone heats me or treats me bad.............. I want to value thing and have thing to value also

I want to be a revolutionary, fight for a cause........

I want to go to the Opera .......

I want to stop depending on you......... I wish you'll be real .....

I wish people would stop telling I'm weird ( I know there a few who read this)..

I would not ask for help cuz problably you wouldn't help me but I would like you to stop those noisy comments at least in a place whee I can read.......

I know Bussy and Ti look for everything to be ok, so If for some reason you don't like my comments or you think they are not appropiate just tell me instead of erasing them........

And have clear that is not that I don't want help or somenthing like that, is just that you mght not believe me but you know a lo more about me than ,my parents and friends do.............

And I really want to get out of here and learn the thing by my own so it wouldn't help much If they know........

And the psicologist ........... I don'0t know If he's colsulting me or I'm colsunlting him................

 

I have a low profile and ou can see that confuse me a bit sometimes

And above all I want to stop talking with Nat ( who seems sometimes smarter than I am) and talk with someone real......

cute isn't it?

Nat stop............. you're really unnice sometimes..........

Is just because you're really stupid sometimes.................. do you think that really is going to work? I mean think about that....... besides you seems to be like a social apart but you really aren't you have friends, you have neighbords you talk to people you have dreams , hopes and all that..........

Nat shut up...... you're just here cuz I didn't have anyone else to talk with and my "social circle" wasn't satifiying me.................. The media is not either and what you see i only what I want to show you or I want to believe cuz we both have clear that you're not real ............

And I can't believe I'm writing this......................

And the only reason why I continious with this is because I'm not stupid enough - or brave enough- for stop with this in a radicall way ( even tho we have thought about that many times) and for get the thing I want I have to continious with all this, because at this point the people that is around me will decide whether is good for me o go or not, and how I am at this moment for them, I am perfect