they said arse on south park? :o :P

The pain in my heart right now

Thats what i want to do but im a coward...i think, well i dont want to do it i`d rather someone else do it for me because i know what im like im a twat because i`ll start crying and say sorry and i shouldnt...he doesnt even deserve to hear my voice

no! you're not like that, you still care for him but he doesnt deserve your luv or attention anymore.. he is just an idiot.. im gonna hire albie to stalk him and put him to sleep with the fishes :mellow:

Thats what i want to do but im a coward...i think, well i dont want to do it i`d rather someone else do it for me because i know what im like im a twat because i`ll start crying and say sorry and i shouldnt...he doesnt even deserve to hear my voice

 

sorry hun i didn't see this post. can you get your mum or one of your best friends to do it for you? i mean there's nothing to say after this you two can't be mates, but atm it reaaaaally doesn't sound like it's working out well for you atm in this situation...

my mum doesnt want anything to do with him, neither do my best mates i dont blame them really

 

Could you talk to him?...Oh my god that was a stupid qestion im sorry :embarrased:

me??? :stunned: i'm sorry hun but i really don't think that's a good idea, cos i don't know him, how about fifi? would she do it for you?

they said arse on south park?

nope, but that would be cool :charming:

Yeah sorry for asking, i dont know shes gone out for the night :/ Just say your my mate from college....ok im just thinking stupid things now

i'm really sorry kirst but i REALLY don't think i should do it :/ *hugs* are you sure there's no one who knows him who you can ask to do it for you?

Yeah i know hun its ok....well iv tryed but they really dont want to speak to him

you could always divert his calls when he calls you, that way you won't have to speak to him. you wouldn't be tempted to answer the phone would you? :/

I say no but then i answer lol im such a twat lol...what should i say i think i can phone him

hun why don't you leave it for tonight at least? give yourself some space from him and some time to rest and then decide tomorrow decide what you're going to do, a good night's sleep might help :)

Yah your right maybe i should just leave it...i mean yeah it is killing me inside and its making me worse everyday, i dont want a repeat of sunday night(i did do something and yeah i dunno if i should say anymore)

we're here for ya hun if you wanna talk :kiss: but seriously i wud just leave everything tonight and see how you feel tomorrow. if nothing else at least you've had a bit of space from him :)

Yeah your right, theres like a tiny part of me that thinks he will come back but i have to get rid of that compleatly, i think thats the thing thats worring me so much. A bit of space may do it all good and yeah i'll see how i feel tomorrow, my friend Suzanne might phone him for me because she said she'd love to have a go at him lol but i mean all i want to know is that will he treat me with respect and as a friend and be nice to me. If not he can piss off :idea2:

Oh yeah and i keep thinking about them two together, the other night while i was trying to speak to him she was trying to do something and it was sickening, i didnt need to hear that and again that killed all my feelings inside, it just compleatly crushed me

exactly! he can go and get stuffed and i would let suzanne do her stuff if i were you! sounds like he needs a bollocking to by honest :P :kiss:

Oh yeah and i keep thinking about them two together, the other night while i was trying to speak to him she was trying to do something and it was sickening, i didnt need to hear that and again that killed all my feelings inside, it just compleatly crushed me

 

what do u mean she was trying to do something? but honestly kirst you know he's only there cos of the kid, he doesn't really love her, there was a reason why they broke up the first time round :) namely cos she is a stoopid biatch who needs a slap quite frankly

:lol: Yeah i might let her have a go at him, i wish there was something...anything that could make him as depressed as i am so he can come down to my level. hes so selfish and he doesnt give a shit about i feel, i know how horrible he can be obviously when we were together he was sooo nice but now hes just changed.

 

He used to wear my necklace and the other day he told me he only wore it in front of me and not in weymouth, that means he lyed to me because he said he wore it all the time :cry:

Oh yeah and i keep thinking about them two together, the other night while i was trying to speak to him she was trying to do something and it was sickening, i didnt need to hear that and again that killed all my feelings inside, it just compleatly crushed me

 

what do u mean she was trying to do something? but honestly kirst you know he's only there cos of the kid, he doesn't really love her, there was a reason why they broke up the first time round :) namely cos she is a stoopid biatch who needs a slap quite frankly

 

I dont know but it was something rude...Yeah and i know hes only there because of the kid...I wish someone would just tell him!!!!!!! im sorry but im really frustrated i just wish he would fucking wake up

I wish someone would help me out...i mean yeah people are helping me but i need someone here and all my friends just hate him, he might be confused

 

I really dunno im confused myself :cry:

aaaw hun you have to stop torturing yourself, no good will come of it *hugs*

I wish i couldnt torture myself but i cant help it...i always thing its my fault because he dumped me for her.....i cant belive his feelings have changed over night like that. Its seriously fucking me up and i dont care how stupid i look right now

 

I cant stop crying

aw hun, i really do feel for you, you don't deserve this, but seriously you have to try and take your mind off this no matter how hard it seems, cos otherwise you're gonna drive yourself nuts :(