Here's the deal:

I have 2 groups of friends at school and they're both really different from each other. One is my day group, I sit with them every day and talk about random stuff and yeah...sometimes I go to them for advice concerning serious issues...that's great. But I've only been in the gang for a year and I still don't feel comfortable enough speaking my truth. I tend to be really extreme with my thoughts and I think maybe if I showed them my true feelings they'd be impressed...and not in a good way.

The other group is older, I've been hanging out with them since like the first year, they're all boys and I'm the only girl. I can be the bitch that I truly feel I am without having to worry about what they might think about me, I laugh my ass of with the boys. I don't know if I was meant to be surrounded by men but the real me comes out when I'm with them.

sorry if i'm misunderstanding something here...but can't you hang out with both groups? or is that the problem, that you have to choose one group

i know how you feel... when i was in school i got on better with my male mates and was always self consious around my female friends because its quite hard for girls to like girls and not be segregated because you possibly act and say thing that they wouldnt. I would then just agree and go along with how they were just so i could still hang out with them. I started to open up and get my views out more and just figured that people can take it or leave it....but im sure youll find they are a similar wavelength to yourself.

 

I would say just say what you think, cause you cant please every body no matter how hard you try. Im at uni and live with girls that in school i know i wouldnt have mixed with but we respect each other because we dont all think the same and we argue over each of our views...but thats true friendship...being able to be who you are, taking off the mask.

 

If they cant take the way you really are, then that will be their loss.