de_marko

sorry guys and im greatfull for all advices... the thing is that i lost the love of my life and my mind have not yet accepted that she and i are separated and it hurts.. If a woman that you love´tells you that she is better without you and she does want to live alone how would you feel... i feel like shit inside, sorry perhaps im pathetic but i cant help it, i know i have to move on but god it hurts... im only hoping one day we can met again and be happy like we used to... perhaps she is testing me still... one good thing is that her family likes me and they think its possible we met again... cheers..

Bad news... i went to the airt port with a frind who was driving me there.. i had a plan, that the girl in the informations center would call up in the speeakers her name so she can go to the info center.. but when she arrived she went to fast in the alivator, and me and my friend takling throu the mobiles because i did not want them to see me.. but she leaft in the alivators aand i had no chance so they called her name in the speakers many times... and the girl in the info center asked me : what is this all about, i show her the roses and say *love* so she say ok can called caled her name.. but she was in the car allready, so we went driving behind them to our home and there i gave her the roses and the letter, she was not so happy but she was ok.. i told her that this was not how i planned it and told her about the air port and all the personal was asking me when is she comming?? anyway she said that she was going to read it and we could met later. between the hours i was so nervous so is tarted to sing at home and ´drinking and then a friend called me and invited me to have some drinks about 23.00 i went to her place and we talkt, she was still cold against me in the phone.. but we met and i asked her how she was doing and wondering how the tripp was she said fine and she asked me and i say well i was onlu walking the days of thinking of you but i told her the not much happaned her so lets talk about you.. and after we i asked the question if she had thought about us? she said she i have, ok good i say and did you read the letter? she said yes. i was ok then you know how sorry i feel for a the stupid things iv done and how much i regret.. and that i love her much that i belive in us but then she say im sorry but i dont feel like that i want to live alone i did have fun myself and i want to saty at that way so i went sad and tryed to tell her how sorry i was and how can you get so cruel against me and so cold after 3 years together and wearing rings and all.... how can u be so cold, she did not even say it in a way: give me a hug and say something im sorry my love but this is how i feel and when i started to cry more she went angry and called her mother and she came but she was sad to then i got this anger over all after 3 years and she can even give a man 1 chance!?!? i woúld never throw away something like this before reparing it... so i went angry and we started tos hout at eachother and i say well ok if u want to be like this BEE IT then!!! i im kind of confused about her acting so i was like a destroyed man i feelt like a impotent man with no powers that the love of my life is taken away from my hands,, i was angry and i never feel so unhappy in my life, i cryed like ababy and she cryed to and then i wasnted to leave the house but her and her mom said that i mu be calmed an dmy girl (ex) throw her selfe in to my legs pulling me to not going out the house and then my fammily came and try to calm me down (one thing i never insulted her) that im proud over., i took some calming pills and then they took me to my sisters house,, and today im felling strange.... i shouted that i hated her because she giving it up so easy i feelt like iv been living in a lie... well this is how the story ends.. some say maby she is doing this against her will. and she only needs to stay alone for a while. but i think everything is lost.... many knoght i thought of her i used to say the moon, please moon tell her that i love her.... and this is a little text from my own songs i wrote in a band im in... strangly i wrote it before all this happend but it match..... I ponder in silence healing my wonds what happend to the lovers once we used to be we used to fill the sky every emptiness we could find now there is a distance between the stars you left behind... im feeling dead... if you are home all off you here readers, look at the moon, becasue that it what im going to do now.

im off to the airport.... i hope all the luck is on my side this moment.. peace and out...

well i will never forget you all that suported me and took your time to answer my questions.. i want to thanks all of you Oh Honey, Bananaman, LifeIsForLiving_Amanda, rush_of_blood10, Guy's Gyal, Refridgerator. jo_luv_coldplay, jewl* Thanks.... i will always look at this great forum. wish me luck for saturday and i hope the roses and the letter i wrote her will work... :)

Bananaman throwing the computer out of the window is no problem... im only scared that this will be a expensive price to b honest, i kind of hate this fucking pc lol...... well u all can inmagine... really im mad at myself im the one to blame.... cheers bananaman

yeah i know... i have one question... i did call her firend and talk to her about us 1 time... is this very bad??? second.... Do you think she will leave me because i got angry over this trip she was making or damnit... im so confused right now i dont know what to think... 1 hour ago i talk to a person and he sounded very negative, he said that i must be prepared to if she dopnt love me anymore and that he thinks she wants more time and she is so cold that she does not call you (she called me one time) and dont know if i should ffollow his advice, wtf shall i do!!! i Belive in us strongly and dont belive she will leave me cuse of this.... damnit god send me a sign...

i had 16 days to get a job and to look fresh... lol what a computer can do to you...

im so nervous cuse she is home in 3 days and she does not know im waiting for her with roses and a letter she is going to read from the airport to her home.. i hope she runs to me and say that she miss me and everthing is ok... pray for me...

wich win do you have?

she is comming home in 8 days....

i got some hope... her best friend is on vacation so i decided to call her and hear it myself... She says that i should not worry she is only mad at me, and she is very sure that we are comming back together again. That is what my girl told her best friend same day she fly away..I got hope but she is still cold against me and i miss her.. :shrug:

Please help me, for a few days i was the happyest man in the wolrd but sadly to say my girlfriend and i separated and now she is away in another country for 2 weeks.. All this happend cuse i did not give her the attention she needed im ashame to say that i had my own life in the computers but now i see clearly and i know how much she means to me and how big my love is for her.. She did always cear for me this 3 years suported me and all you can inmagine but the lasts months i did not do things with her cuse of the computer.. All happend 5 days ago when she woke me up telling me that she was going to fly away to spain for 2 weeks and she was so happy about it, but silly me went angry cuse it came up so suddenly but what i did not think about was that if i would have done things with her this would not happend so i made her a choice, me or the flight and she say i wont choose, but after she say it out that she was not happy she loves me but she was not happy staying at home watching me playing games on the pc so i went angry and left her i took some of my stuff and left the house besides that i took of my ring because she feelt that way that she was unhappy i was kind of touched. The same knight i called her to say that we must talk and that im sorry about all and i want to make it up to her but she said that she was confused about our love (most people say that she is very sadly about me leaving her and broke up) and that she was going to take that tripp (it was not a vacation it was a kind of projekt she was joining to show how sweden is and works to this country) well anyhow i had 3 days to tell her how sorry i was for all wrong i done and i told her i could change but she say that she was going to think it over when she was away and so i cry like a little boy because she would not let me touch her or letting me explain it all to her crying ,she said that she did not want to talk about it because it would make it worse because she is flying away, and she was cold agianst me. Now 2 weeks its allot and i never feelt like this and i never feelt so stupid in my life and i cant sleep i cant be calmd what should i do yesterday her girlfriend told my friend that she called her and she said that she missed me and she feelt alone what does this mean that she will come back to me? i try to think positiv and her family tells me the same aswell as mine ,everyone thinks she will come back but im affraid that this will be a lesson for life, i have this 2 weeks now to get a job and look fresh to proof that i can change But it hurts so hard in my heart what shall i do please help me i need any kind of help you all can give me.. i tell u this because i feel close in a way of the music of Coldplay A warning sign explains a little of my story. thanks sadly de_marko :cry:

YEAH! im going to Roskillde!!!!! looking forward to see them in Daylight :) VIVA COLDPLAY! PS: MOSES is a damn good song!!!!!!! ladder to the sun dmanit good aswell!!

i think i read it somewhere,im not sure.. but if they go to finland i will go myself not far from sweden :)

i think they will go to finland, if im not wrong....

Hello! i mean Göta Källaren ;)

Maybe its to late But i have seen Coldplay twice in Sweden and both times where !GREAT! first time was in Göra Källaren and second time in Hovet 23 of november 2002 :D I hope they will come to Sweden again... Another thing, Is there anyone going to Roskilde?? ok cya m8's /we live in a beautiful world.... :-o

:? Hi all... i have seen them 2 times in sweden... First time was in a little club called Göta Källaren 2 times was in Hovet a big concert place im happy so far, hoping to see them in england earls court on 17 of april :) /we live in a beautiful world..

Hello all coldplay fan! indeed this is a good place to be, thanks all for your attention, now i got contact with lewis :-D We live in a Beautiful World....

Hi all coldplay fans!!! my name is marc and i come from sweden... Is there any kind person that knows where to buy a coldplay ticket to the concert in London 17 of april, i would be very glaaaad!!! acutally my birthday is on that day so i would be very greatfull if someone is selling tickets to this speciall day pls e-mail me [email protected] ??! thanks and cya soon in next concert :-D

HI i want 1-2 tickets how much u want for them????? [email protected] pls contact me :o