Malaika

:) Why not now and what do you want to do now ? :) Archeology is nice,how old were you when you wanted to do that?

Thank you Mary :) Dearest Mary :) I am so so so sorry it took me so long to do this, I was sick during the Christmas Holidays and didn't check my mail until the day before yesterday because I stayed home all this time. Thank you so much Mary, you're an Angel, your card is the most beautiful sweetest kindest card I've ever received in my whole life :) Thank you from the bottom of my Heart, I was so touched I cried while reading your card :) I felt as if you were an Angel talking to me from Heaven, your words soothed my Heart and made my Heart smile for ever, I will never forget this Christmas thanks to YOU because you really gave me the LOVE and MAGIC of Christmas :) God bless your Angel's Heart for ever :) One Love :) :) :) Gaël/Malaika <3

I'd like to be a Secret Santa please :) Thanks, One Love.

This is such a great description of what it must feel like to be there and it sounds GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The studio sounds very cosy, they should add teddy bears they are very soothing even just to the eye like little gorillas and cute little jungle animals to go along with the plants :) I can't wait to hear the new album :) One Love.

That's wonderful I wish you success and most importantly happiness in everything and if you love dancing you can always do that as a hobby why not? You need something that gives value to your life according to your conception of what is important in your existence within society or the world but you also need to feel simple joy, it's like air for a balloon :) and then you'll fly higher and higher :) and dancing is a great and fun way to express pure emotions. So good luck, One Love.

I love the quote in your signature it's beautiful :) Maths are great, I used to hate them when I was in high school but now I realize that they are in everything I do because I am a musician and meter is important in Music, I write poetry, it is the same as in Music because the rhythm has to flow like water or it hurts, and I paint and symmetry in my drawings and in my life to be honest, is like oxygen to me, so Maths are great, good choice :) One Love.

The comic was cute :) I know what you mean I felt the same way when I finished school but then with discipline and humour, you know you have to laugh about dilemmas in life it is a great cure for stress, you will be ok. The fact that you want to make an impact on the world is already great and it is a proof that you are forward thinking because you are an idealist and idealists change the world so you see a larger picture. But don't get stressed or depressed if it takes a little bit of time, it is normal and as long as you remain focused and keep a good sense of humor and also it is good even when you are a bit down because you are so smart that you expect things to go fast, to engage in things that simply make your Heart smile like a kid you know, and then it'll give you more patience and you'll be fine :) One Love.

That's wonderful :) Music is the most beautiful language, I am sorry it took me so long to reply to you I was having little issues with how to post my replies correctly with each quotes because it is my first forum but I think I'm ok now :), Your Music is your Heart's language I am also a musician and I thank God everyday for this wonderful gift, because I know that sometimes it is not easy to find the appropriate instrument or even to hear with absolute clarity the Music in your Heart so when you've managed to do so, you deserve applause no matter what :) One Love.

That's wonderful as long as you like chemistry, do you?

Me too, it was horrible, my parents had no good sense, no sensibility and all they cared for was money. It was hell really but what I mean is that when you are young you are yourself and then society or parents make you change if you are not strong enough, so fashioning your Nature from the needs of your Heart to me, enables you to remain true to your inner child and it is how you manage to lead a happy life, otherwise you end up living a life to which society gives values based on stupid notions of material gain competitiveness and the likes... Anyway good luck on everything, One Love :)

Oh poor baby... But you don't really have to in a way, there is nothing to be sacred of if you remain a child :) and that is exactly what I have done and I have a good time every single day because I don't really care about what the world says, as long as my Heart is happy everything is Irie and that's how I live my life, I am an Poet Painter and Musician so I've had to be very assertive disciplined and even radical in certain choices but that's the price to pay man! So good luck on whatever you decide you want to be when you grow up and remember that as long as you can smile everyuday and even laugh and be at peace in your Heart, then you'll know that you are on the right path. One Love.

That's great! I am sure that if you're doing something that makes your Heart happy you will succeed for sure, that's why it is important to remember what you "wanted to be" as a child because when you are young you are closer to your Heart and then society or peer pressure sometimes makes you feel differently but good luck and I don't know if it will be of any interest to you but I read this book "The Alchemist" by Paolo Coelho, he wrote many books and a lot of them are not so good but this one is and I read it when I was younger and it did inspire me to always seek inside of my Heart and not outside for the choices I would have to make in life :) One Love.

That's wonderful :) who is Fireman Sam? I hope you can be a Fireman, they're great I have great respect for them because I was once in a fire and got rescued by them we had to go down their ladder with a friend from the 8th floor and it was an experience.. I guarantee you :) but he was very reassuring so it was ok and now I laugh about it, but I was also in New York on September 11th 2001 and my Heart goes out to all the Firemen who died there and to those who marched to keep on looking for the bodies of their dead colleagues in the mountains of "rubble" there even though Bloomberg wanted them to stop looking. So MORE POWER TO YOU!!! :) One Love.

LOL sorry you realized you couldn't be a pink bunny but you're still young you can still become one you know I think Cosplay should be in all nations' constitutions it would be great I love Japanese culture and Cosplay is just wonderful then you could be a pink bunny whenever you feel like it :) As long as you are happy so am I. One Love.

Nice and are you either ? Can you tell me how to have my reply appear just underneath yours. And how do you add a mood to your info on ht left? Have a thousand sparkling balloons day One Love :)

good mourning LOL

I wanted to be an architect too but I wasn't good in maths so I am a Poet today and a painter and I make perfect circles and staightestest lines when I draw and I am happy :) One Love.

Hi, my name is Gael and I felt really touched and saddened by your post, I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone. I can relate to what you've been through in a way and are still going through now. I'm a girl and I am from Africa so our experiences are totally different but I was very depressed and lonely and also felt that noone could understand me because my sensibility and maturity make it difficult for me to socialize easily with most people, I am a poet painter and musician I just started playing the Harp a few months ago and it's been one of the most magical artistic experience of my life, I only took one lesson to know the instrument through a professional and now when I feel like playing, the melodies come by themselves like by magic and I can't but be aware that a "muse" is there or it wouldn't be possible because it seems that I hear them, the melodies, in my heart beforehand :) But to return to your experience I also saw a psychiatrist a few years ago and I had to take drugs too but I stopped because it is just the worst thing you could do to yourself, MEMORY is so important to the health of your psyche and your heart in an existential spiritual sense. I meditate a lot, Buddhist meditation, I have been doing so since 2003 on and off but now I do it very regularly and it is during a meditation that my heart told me to learn how to play the Harp and then I made some research and discovered that there is such a thing as "Harp Therapy" so it also fell in line with my will to cure my depression. I also pray and fast and have read many scriptures from various cultures. I understand that my case is different I am probably much older than you too I am 33 but I really hope I'll be able to comfort you and inspire you to take a different route than that of drugs. You should try to return inside of your heart through meditation or art, you sound extremely sensitive and of course intelligent and I was wondering if you write poetry? Poetry is also very therapeutic to clear your emotions and get to know what your heart needs in order to be happy. I will give you the address of my blog in case you want to read some of my poetry http://gaelsgarden.blogspot.com/ I also used to smoke herb, and tried a few drugs with friends here and there but I was never as addicted as you, the only thing I craved sometimes was weed but even that I would stop for long periods of time because I particularly enjoyed sharing it and not so much by myself, but I have stopped even that because now I get high on Art mainly, my own and others' and little things like beautiful weather and birds flying in the sky and such and I love tea and chocolate :) ... I am serious I think that that is what God intended for all of us with the concept of the Garden of Eden, real happiness is in simplicity, and there is so much happiness in all of us, you just need to return inside of your heart. I also love Radiohead I admire them and always will, but I have at times felt that it was better for me not to listen to them too often because Thom Yorke's sensibility and insight are such that I felt a bit overwhelmed during my depression when I would listen to them. But now that I feel better I can understand their Music better and I am so grateful because it gave me lots of clues on how to exorcize my own demons. So I really hope that you'll find a way out of this nightmare, believe me I've been there and maybe worse, in Africa women sometimes are like the property of their families and at least you had your family's respect I guess, in a way, or they left you in peace and gave you space, my family treated me like shit and they called me crazy and all sorts of names and they had me committed to nightmarish clinics where I was drugged during whole nights and put to sleep basically for so long that I couldn't remember, I was in Africa when I got "diagnosed" I now live in Montreal thank Heaven... But I must stress out that I am a Rasta and in Africa we are hunted like witches during the middle ages and my family was trying to destroy me basically. Anyway I am still growing my dreads and very happy today at 33 except that I don't have a job yet but I have dreams and my next dream is to move to New Zealand because I love the Sea so much, I grew up near it and miss it horribly and I figured that NZ would be perfect because it has mountains forests and amazing beaches. I was born in Ivory Coast West Africa but the country in Africa where I grew up is called Senegal and the capital Dakar where I was is a peninsula, it was fun to be near the sea, but the one where I lived the nightmare is called Burkina Faso it is nearer to the Sahara desert and not seeing many trees also was horrible but it is a long story, in a nutshell I had lived in the US and Canada where I went to University beforehand and when I returned to Burkina in 2003 after completing a Master in International Relations in New York, before that I was in Montreal where I did a BA in Political Science and I basically was returning "Home" to do some Humanitarian work with kids... I managed to have wonderful experiences of sharing my love with poor and sick kids there or orphans but the clinic part was so horrible it makes me laugh today it was so ridiculous but I survived and I must tell you that Coldplay's Music helped me a lot when I was there and also my Poetry and Art, I did a lot of abstract art there and it was great to "exteriorize" my negative emotions and see them on paper through form and color, I used pastels for that and then I got into mandalas after I meditated a lot. Anyway, there is Poem I want you to read it is by my favorite Poet, W. B. Yeats. The Stolen Child Where dips the rocky highland Of Sleuth Wood in the lake, There lies a leafy island Where flapping herons wake The drowsy water rats; There we've hid our faery vats, Full of berrys And of reddest stolen cherries. Come away, O human child! To the waters and the wild With a faery, hand in hand. For the world's more full of weeping than you can understand. Where the wave of moonlight glosses The dim gray sands with light, Far off by furthest Rosses We foot it all the night, Weaving olden dances Mingling hands and mingling glances Till the moon has taken flight; To and fro we leap And chase the frothy bubbles, While the world is full of troubles And anxious in its sleep. Come away, O human child! To the waters and the wild With a faery, hand in hand, For the world's more full of weeping than you can understand. Where the wandering water gushes From the hills above Glen-Car, In pools among the rushes That scarce could bathe a star, We seek for slumbering trout And whispering in their ears Give them unquiet dreams; Leaning softly out From ferns that drop their tears Over the young streams. Come away, O human child! To the waters and the wild With a faery, hand in hand, For the world's more full of weeping than you can understand. Away with us he's going, The solemn-eyed - He'll hear no more the lowing Of the calves on the warm hillside Or the kettle on the hob Sing peace into his breast, Or see the brown mice bob Round and round the oatmeal chest For he comes the human child To the waters and the wild With a faery, hand in hand From a world more full of weeping than he can understand. I hope you enjoyed it and you'll come away inside of your heart too, that's what I did and his Poetry was also a great medicine when I was in "Hel"... Have a wonderful day, ONE LOVE, God bless you and don't worry be HAPPY! :) Teddy bear hugs. Gael.

that's wonderful :) I hope you will but what does a special education teacher do exactly I'm not sure? and can you please tell me how to get my replies to appear underneath people's quotes, I haven't posted much and I see people do it and it's easier to understand .... One Love!

Rainbow Love! :)

:) I'm high on Love I guess and you have plenty in your heart like the tinman in the wizard of Oz, you don't need to get some it's already there. One Love!

Yes :) but I made a mistake sorry, his quote is not to be unrealistic but "to be realistic and do the impossible" and it's true that anything is possible when you set your whole heart to it and don't allow outside ideas to discourage you.

Wunderbar :) going to college is a great way to refine your dream anyway but I like your determination, More Power to you! One Love.

:) Great! as long as your inner child is smiling it's wonderful because you know often we forget what we wanted to do when we were kids and most often it kills our inner child and it's sad, but music is great I'm a musician too and it definitely makes my heart smile. One Love.

Not just 3 actually but the whole universe of nothing but LOVE :)