Carlaatje

oh yeah beah is good! but the weather is not going to be that great tomorow... you live near the beach right? sure F*** coldplay just get here!

Lauren do you feel like getting together tomorow? so I'll have a little bit of adventure...

that's the pic I was looking for remember... it's from tha pool in argentina I think! yeah nikky where did you get that?!? I was looking my ass of for that!

okay don;t do that to me either then! I'm checking my mail every 5 seconds hoping for a miracle, that my boss says you know what you're off on tuesday. I'm still gutted and proably will be untill october 3rd hahah or maybe untill after I finish a couple of beers hahaha. no seriously, I don;t like my descision but i think i have to do it this way

hey Kimchi! I'm good! i've missed you! how are you? too bad cause it looks like you could have gotten in.. :sad: the concert sounded good but not as great as brixton! or the first bbc show... :dance:

i know i feel like this: :bomb: :bigcry: :confused: I was sooo close to actually getting in that car and going untill my bos called, but I don't blame her.. no I feel .... empty.... you shouldn't though Chavi! you're going to see coldplay TOMORROW!!! AHHHH :dance: ooh edit: I wuv you too :kiss: Chavivanna

ps lauren I;m sorry I kept you on this board all day when you could have been outside....

If it were easier for me to just get another job like this one, for instance if I worked in let's say a call centre I wouldn't have as much doubts, but I don't work in a call centre.. this job is actually pretty close to my dream job (if they payed more) So I;m not willing to ruin that with just a day of fun. sometimes i hate rationality... grrrr! :angry: and I just know that chavi and I are meant to stalk together so there will be another, and better opportunity! Paris ouwl maybe even easier, I could just take the train I think... strassbourg is just a far dark corner of france! edit: I am a little sad! (and you'd better be too! :P) but I feel better and I know your going to have an awesome time there! and I know you'll let me know things form over there so that makes me feel better... plus now I have a day off! yay :dance:

:bigcry: for the fun and the thrill I really want to do this... but I decided it can't interfere with my work, that isn't fair. If I could get tuesday off I would soooo do it in an instant i wouldn't doubt anymore!

no....

I'm really sorry! I feel the way you feel about these things, but I have to be mature, there's no way I can be sure and towards the others it's just not fair! It's just one day of fun compared to my life at work and I will lose respect if I do this and then fuck up the next day. I feel really gutted now, and a little nausious... :\

woppps posted at the same time... so your back!

didn't you say you wre going to check it out? didn't get a chance to?

so do I! the pics are just BEAUTIFULLL! and not just guy's all of them are... but 'Guy's are the best off course PLUS they have lyrics! me likey!

Okay i;m back and I;m sad! :bigcry: I think it's best if I didn't do itI'll regret I didn't go, but it'll be fine in a while but ...here's why: I'l regret towards my boyfriend who will let me go but still doesn't agree I'll regret That I'll feel lik hell on tuesday I'll regret towards my collegue that I will fuck up and be shitty that day I'll regret cause I will let my boss down

:kiss: i'll be back soon!

I think I know that blog... is that where they have those great pics? ;)

If I just go and take a quick shower. will you two bith be here when I get back? just so I can think a little

I will let you know antonia! I promise... hmmm flip a coin I could what would you call it? Lauren just called me... she's so nice, she wants to meet me... she's just the sweetest!

He's enjoying paris!!! he will don't worry thank you, you are so the best! I know that's why you offerd, and it probably would be best if I didn't do it alone! which is why I;m so torn! arrgghhh I want you to come but I';m scared i'll just admit, but then again I;m scared for this entire thing! the more I think about it now the weirder it's sounds to me i'm putting myself in a very difficult situation!

and this is already wayyy beyond rational!!! Lauren did you leave? where'd you go?

I was there when he said that :D and there's always october but dangnit I just wanna do this tooo! it's all so coincidental that I feel like I have to be there! I have the day off, there's a ticket! can you believe my boss even tried to get me the next day off? it's so sweet!

Oh then why quote me? hahahaha good to meet you too! now in person i don't know, I just don't know, I can't loos my job over this, and I can't kill myself while driving so I shoudl take Lauren but I would want to meet her first and my boyfriend is like: I don't want a stranger staying in my house, and I can't blame him for that... it's his house too! ohh help me what's the rational thing to do?!

that's it woman paulussen is it! what's yours? hahaha

thank you Lauren, I know I have to decide soon! I don't know what to do now, on hand it would be really great if you could come, on the other it doesn't feel right, I don't want to offend you in anyway so please don't feel that way, but I just don't know you at all, and I know it sounds stupid cause I don't know chavi at all either, but I'll have things in my own hands when I don't trust any of it I can just turn around and go back, plus since the van is from my boss I don't think she would appreciate it if I jus let anyone drive, hell I have trouble letting My boyfriend drive it... Oh god what am I going to do! the descicion is all mine now! :bomb: