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Lizziebear <3 Happy birthday :nice: :heart: You know I wuv you, and you've been an amazing friend these past few months. I kinda dislike inserting weird pics of cakes and piccies of people you like, since I know you must have them all :P But my best wishes to you, and I hope you have a fantastic day. And the best part of this is that in 10 years you'll be 30 :awesome: Love ya :cool2:

It's not all about medicine Crests, just come here and be yourself :wacky: I have to go buy something :mean: See ya in a while ;D And do that homework :whip:

Not your first. I guess.. but you're always welcome here :D Even though it's spring break, today I'm studying lung anatomy :mean: I'm also running and using my dad's little gym lolz.. Such an irrelevant life.

Sorry, I was watching this german movie again.. had breakfast.. felt the physical need of someone's beautiful smell, went crazy after realizing that person doesn't want to be with me.. OH SHIT. Hi Crests :heart:

Do you have some kind of childhood trauma that made you become so obsessed with "if I'm not smart I'm nothing and my life will be miserable"? You're a fucking prick. Unfunny. Not smart to me. Just plain arrogant. /monster.

Not you, that U2 weirdo sucker.

He should just shut the fuck up. Seriously dude, you don't look good.

That's the only reason why I liked your post. No, I'm not on anti-depressants, and yes, I pretty much think the way you do, but sometimes it's just too exhausting.. I'll spend my day watching Dexter..

Very fucking funny.

Ok, since this is the only place I feel comfortable enough to post in, I'll say this: I'm a mess right now. Life was good a month ago. Like.. Good. Even with a tiny bit of happiness. I was healed. My heart was ok. It was beating again, I felt excitement again.. Now it's gone again. It vanished.. And I can't control my fucking monster right now, I even hurt a dear friend, I was rude, annoying, a cünt and a bitch. School isn't exciting, medicine isn't exciting, seeing the one I like isn't exciting, seeing my so called friends from college isn't exciting, eating is forced, sleeping isn't helpful, trying to relax doesn't work and living is just exhausting, I feel forced, trapped and doomed to live this... thing. Gonna judge me and say I'm overreacting and say that other people are worse than I feel? Maybe, but that's their business, so I don't give a fuck either way. Having a decent life and still feeling miserable is BAD. /shh.

HAI NICK

Congrats Nathan. I finished my biochemistry lab papers so I'm free the rest of the semester <3 Now, reading..

Maybe I'm dark, cold, depressing and miserable. That's why I love it.

Wooow, congrats Eddie <3

I completely agree with the winter thing :heart:

Yeah, I want to establish a serious relationship with someone who happens to have many qualities I like. I'm depressed, but there are many reasons why I'm depressed, not just that. Great to see another Dexter lover :heart:

Obviously, we're both amazing :cool2: Wait, just you :heart:

I'm getting married this week to Harper's Biochemistry, Netter's Anatomy and Guyton's Physiology. How sad..

Relaxed, no school for one week. But makes me think "I'll study anyway for my exams when I go back" so I get stressed again. I also want someone to say "yes" and be with me.. Not gonna happen. My life is everything I don't want it to be.

I hate spring & summer. I like fall. I LOVE WINTER.

I'm not against it. You can't change the fact that they like people of the same gender, so why not let them be happy and get married?

My love for science, and other stuff just makes me yawn, i.e. engineering, economy, etc. I do want to help people, but not for the reasons most doctors do it or they claim they have to help them, such as "I love helping people, so many helpless and looking like puppies <3" nah.. I dunno, I just like the feeling of studying that, it's beautiful in every single way.

Well, I'm studying on spring break, what a blast. It's gonna be like that since I'm.. well.. A fucking joke. I'll be alone so I'd better invest my time doing that. Genetics went well, got a 92. I would've done better if it wasn't cause I confused albinism with xeroderma. I know, kill me. I bet it's interesting, but in my school it's one of those infamous subjects, and people claim that it's one of the hardest, so it's kinda scary, specially since I saw that book.. can't remember the name. Make a Thirteen sig <3 I love her, she's my lesbo crush :( Good luck with that ****. Come tell when you're done. Same as Perrine. I can't say much, since I'm not familiar to those methods, but everytime I think about it sounds like a good placebo to me. Yes, she is <3 You edited that post.

Haha.

HAI