EmmaLouiseSmyth

I would have thought your name was Max too. I really should look at the gender thingy. Hello Anna! :cheesy: nice to meet you.

Only okay? :uhoh: oh I just saw your reply on tumblr about your A level. Oh please don't get yourself too stressed....but do try to pass, haha. I'm great at the moment. I have found the wonders of a music streaming website. I get free use of one because I'm signed up to this broadband company here. I'm like :drunk: so much music!

Oh my god, there's odd new people in here. No offence new people... okay, a little offence intended :| RENNY!

Kat! How have you been? :heart:

Awhh try not to worry! :hug: I'll cross my fingers too for you.

Emma was drinking and missed people on here and was like fuck it! *throws hands in the air* and signed back in. oh hi guys. Anyone on? :uhoh:

Why are so many coldplay fans anti boobs? :|

I'm far too lazy and self conscious to make my own "I'm back, hello and all that jazz" thread. We share names, fuck it we can share a thread! Hello people! :heart: how are you guys? why am I back on here? :bigcry: no seriously, why.

Please stop asking me out on days I can't go out. I look like I'm avoiding you :disappointed:

hahahaha and thank you guys :nice:

When's that bitch going to text me? hurry on boy.

Ughhhh this is too hard :bigcry:

The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe :nod: ummmhmmm

Awhh congrats on the new house and job :hug: What kind of job is it? I'd love to go trick or treating tonight, too old though :sad: haha. That's terrible that they are making you take them, surely you know your own mind better than they do :uhoh: I hope it gets all sorted out.

Today hasn't been too bad, less mopey than yesterday. I keep forgetting that there is a scary side to halloween :uhoh: haha.

Yeah, they're presuming it's hormonal and gave me stuff to make me not hormonal :nod: Awhh cool :wacky: Happy early Birthday!

SAD is a condition? I just hate using the word depressed. Awhh that's great that you got a proper diagnosis. Yeah, being put on tablets that don't work is kind of annoying D: especially if they affected you like that :hug: There's a GP on campus which is free, I might make an appointment there :uhoh: but my friend said you have to wait ages to get one. NPH :heart: Anyone doing anything fun for halloween? :wacko:

Kiame, Awhh that's quite a sweet thought. Yeah I know I should Mike. They came down to me last night because I decided to hide under my bed sheets and ignore everything. They asked me if I was okay and I lied and said I was just tired. I could do with some music right now actually :nice: Ooh cool :wacky: and early happy birthday! I'd love to get one but I have save up first. Also the voice thing doesn't work here :thinking: according to the guys in front of me in my lecture.

The tablets I got for being sad aren't working and I'm scared to tell my parents. Also my tablets for my skin (in the few weeks that I had left coldplaying, I developed a skin condition) aren't working either. So I'm kind of in pain from that too. Anyone have any nice or good news? Hearing about other's fortune thankfully makes me genuinely happy.

true facts. edit: also this is probably only a short visit. reedit: hello.

You shouldn't apply other people's conditions to your own situation, but it something it might be. I'd honestly be scared to look back on what my thoughts were if I wrote them down.

It started back about seven months ago I think. I thought it was a one off thing but it kept coming back again and again. Just 4 or 5 days at a time of being so depressed (I hate using that word, because I don't want to sound dramatic....but all I can think about is killing myself) ... and then back up to being happy. Just terrible mood swings D: My ability to hide it so well isn't help me really. Hopefully the doctor can give me something. I don't think my dad was expecting it either, I couldn't look at him when I told him but he was stuttering and didn't know what to say. Thank you guys for all the support.

Dear Coldplaying comrades I'm going to the doctors on Wednesday for suicidal thoughts. I just get serious lows with like a mental numbness. I'm pretty sure it's hormonal because it doesn't affect me constantly. I don't know how to describe it, I just need to do something about it because it has been eating away at me for a number of months now. Annoyingly it all came out when I was with my dad on my way up to college. So when he went off to work and I had to get the bus, I looked like a holy hot mess. At this point only my dad and my mom know (and I don't plan on telling my siblings anytime soon) we're not talking about it though. But I am going to a doctor and yeahhh. I don't know how to tell my real life friends yet without it being hella awkward ;____; So I'm leaving coldplaying for a while, I need to focus on getting better and college work. LORE, I will write you a lovely pen pal letter asap. :heart: PEACE OFF! :hug:

I put so much effort in my posts.

this.