Cyan Kat

message sent. Now I've just got to wait :dizzy:

hi kim and thanks :3

okay so here is what I'm going to write (would love some advice on this)

yeah I know I'm just a little disappointed with myself...

thanks and I know that, my social skills have gotten better in the last year since I got a part time job and I've made some really good friends at work and I do feel better about that, and I feel all ready to ask him out and then I look at him and I get scared.

Well I think It's good to have a guy's opinion too :hug: I know now that I just have to do this, I've had this stomach ache for the past week and I guess it's what you call 'butterflies' it's damn annoying though as I don't feel like eating or sleeping either.

okay well give me a generic message I can send him

I didn't listen to what my mum said it sounded so stupid I waited for him after class and he seemed happy that I waited and Idk why but I chickened out again and instead we just chatted about our lessons and stuff. I'm moving on to plan B now; aka send him a facebook message asking him to hang out/go to cinema without sounding too lame and if he ignores it I'll know he's not interested.

yes anette I believe you are right :heart:

congrats :heart:

I like guys for their personality more than anything and I do agree with the being asked questions because quite a lot of guys just seem to ignore me and I have never had any feelings for them no matter how good looking they are oh and .... basically.

I know and I will ask him and I want to do it soon this week I've had literally no chances to be alone with him and I don't feel confident to just go upto him and ask him.

I Think the laws of love are much like the laws of physics, in that they make little sense the further you look into them...

most of my guy friends wait for me but that's more because we are going to hang out together. sometimes I feel as though I'm just seeing what I want to believe though..

well no I don't enjoy tormenting myself and yes I am afraid of rejection. I've never done this before, I've never liked anyone quite this much and I'm scared that I'll be humiliated and worst of all, people would pity me and also that it would mean feeling extremely awkward. I am a pessimist, always have been so doubting that he likes me is a defense mechanism which comes naturally to me

I'm sure it was you, and well still you are hawt. I asked my mum's advice she told me to ignore him because acting like I wanna be with him drives guys away apparently so last night I was even more confused. Today in assembly he was sat next to my friend and I was stood at the opposite end and he smiled then I felt awk and looked away why is this so freaking hard man WHY? ? ? if I get chance after class tomorrow I shall ask him, but I can't promise that I will...

I agree it would be better face to face, but I can't go on like this forever :/

I've promised myself that if I don't tell him in like a week then I'm just going to facebook message him, because then at least I will know.

I would but it's so much more awkward because my friend is a guy and I don't really feel comfortable asking him that and I'm worried that he'll tell others before I get the chance. Also I get the feeling it was me that he didn't want to walk with and he just wanted to chat with my friend who he is quite good friends with so even if my friend had left maybe he would have followed him out? I feel as though I'm over-analyzing everything :dizzy:

today was pretty cool because he showed me how to play this card game and it was a laugh and in order to win you have to hit the cards and I touched his hand I feel like such a douche feeling like 'omg i touched his hand' and yeah... What annoys me now is that I never seem to get any sort of chance to be alone with him, I wanted to chat with him after class but my other friend was there and I decided to wait to walk down with both of them and he was just like loitering there awkwardly and the teacher was like 'do you want to speak with me?' then he just said no and got all awkward an we walked down but it confused me so much I felt like he was tying to avoid walking with me or something.

Yeah I understand you, I'm also trying not to come off as 'desperate' but at the same time I want to show him and it gets so confusing. Today in English was the worst, we were studying body language and it made me all self conscious as I sit next to him in that lesson.

well I saw your video of you playing Reckoner and I was like omg anette is hawt stuff

:(

Aw bby you know that ain't so :'(

yeah me either I was being sarcastic ...