Cyan Kat

well I'm not entirely sure, I know he likes rock music and some folky stuff and I think he likes David Bowie so we are like obvs meant to be <3

I'm just so confused, two weeks ago I would me hanging with my mate who is also mates with him and he'd come over and we'd have a really good chat and now it's like he doesn't and instead he hangs with his other friends ad only talks to my mate in class and because I've been barely sleeping this week I can't seem to focus on anything somebody says idk maybe it's just me being a douche.

my facebook lies to you annette it tells you im average looking when in fact my face is ugly and I try to delete all pictures which show it

nope he's been hanging out more with his friends I wouldn't say that we are exactly good friends but we chat sometimes and we haven't chatted really so far this week.... it was awk yesterday morning after everyone was talking about the party when we were walking to class and people were walking up to him and saying hi and we barely spoke to each other and I didn't have a clue what to say to him to break the silence and it seems like he always brings lunch with him nowadays so I barely get a chance :/

I think my friend knows, I forget sometimes that she follows my tumblr and although I haven't told anyone his name I think she worked it out and she kept smiling at me in Psychology when he was sat next to me. I felt kinda awk. :blush:

can't you just read back a page?

I don't know exactly what happened at the party, I'm going to give it a few more days and then decide whether to ask or not :/

I don't know if I've ever cried so much in an epsiode but ughh I haven't enjoyed this series so much but I liked this episode If the doctor had rescued them, it would have altered time and it's not worth risking the whole of New York I guess so I can understand that

well I don't know for certain he's with her they were all at a party and all drunk and he was cuddling with her and yeah idk

well seen as my confidence has been rock bottom for a long time that's not a big deal, I just hate feeling alone and like the odd one out. I guess things will get better once I leave and go to Uni this school just seems to drag me down.

I'm not certain, no but I just feel stupid for ever thinking he'd like me, I'm not pretty, I'm incredibly shy and awkward and why should he like me. I was delusional and just wanted to believe every smile means he likes me. I can't help feeling down but I guess I'll get over it in a while I just wish I'd never gone on the internet tonight, then at least I'd go to sleep okay.

it's been the weekend college is only open during weekdays :blank:

nope

I wish I was at my dad's farm actually :P

yeah except I'm never invited to any of the parties or nights at the pub they all go to and I'm not such a great drinker anywayz I'd probably tell him something really dumb.

yeah that's why I want to ask him in person and not just message him.

okay thanks Ren :hug:

well I'm not sure about hard to get I just feel awkward and don't know what to do with myself sometimes and eye contact is weird for me

nope :blank: and you know what it doesn't bother me

I Know the reference I just don't get it's relevance in any way to the song

I never understood that metaphor

I will do I just need to stop being such a coward. next week guyz

but maybe I'm just exaggerating it maybe he's just a nice guy to everyone like somebody else said, because I've never heard him say a bad word about anyone.

I've just been doubting so much today whether he actually likes me and then I was alone at lunch and I could tell people were talking about me and I just felt like crap and it just reinforced my initial doubts. I have got him on facebook but I kind of wanted to see his initial reaction, if I chicken out again next week then it's the only option I guess.