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AWWWWWWWWWWW, kitties....

 

 

 

awwwwwn!!! :blush:

haha

 

my cat does that too!!! lol

well... my mom works at a vets office and we got him when he was already fat and old :/ I really dislike that cat lol

why???? :bigcry:

hey :) talkin bout cats? :)

dogs are better :cool:

No,guinea pigs.... :cool:

our poor thread just gets stranger every day :P :sneaky:

haha, yes it does. :P

well if it didn't get stranger then it would be boring now, wouldn't it? :P

i suppose so :rolleyes:

I guess we could tone down the strangeness a little.... haha

so how did it go yesterday?

Christi?

i don't think it is possible for this group to tone down strangeness... it is inevitable :) . and yesterday was terrific, almost so much so, that i am a little weirded out by it... i don't know.

hmm, well that's a good problem to have......

i don't know eric - like i told you before, i did date one guy for a couple months and have went on several casual "dinner as friends" kind of things... but i cannot shake the feeling that i am cheating on mark. he may not be here, but i am still in love with him... makes it very difficult. and we had the hypothetical discussion before he died, well... if something happens to me, etc... but i still don't feel good about it. ramble ramble ramble :confused:

well, just don't feel like you're being forced to move into anything. I've realized that when I end a close relationship with someone I subconsciously want to jump back into another relationship that is equally as serious. It always feels soo much better just trying to be friendly with someone and avoiding a real relationship until you know that person very very well.

i know - it will be two years in december. he has already met christopher casually at a cookout at a friend's house, but i will not bring anyone into his life until it is really secure. so i don't think i have jumped into anything - i am definitely not a jumper. in fact, i worry that i am getting so set in my lifestyle, i am reluctant to have anyone invade my space. :(

sorry, I was gone for a bit, my dad just got a computer and he's messing with the network...

you don't have to change your lifestyle if you don't want to. You're supposed to do what you want to do. If you don't want to do anything just yet then you don't have to. Just do what makes you feel happiest. :)

thanks eric. of course it is normal to want someone in your life, but i never thought at age 27 i would be widowed with a young child... i don't know how to handle this. i shut so many feeling down that i am sometimes not sure how i feel anymore. bottom line is, i want him back.

well, try not to dwell too much on the relationship and a little more on today. Let God take care of it. Preparing is one thing you can do, but worrying won't make you any more ready.