Detective_Ash

Alllll right Rick my man! Sweet to see you. I know that girlygirl, lots of days I wish I was better looking but then I think, why? would I like myself more, I know I wouldn't, I would rather be who I am and be proud than fake who I am and whore myself to women just because it seems thats what I should be doing. No, never should any of us do that. I enjoy people for being who they are, and we can do that to and we can accept maybe people who we wouldn't normally talk to, it never hurts. :) We can be ourselves and still be beautiful and attractive, when I look and see people who do act likethemselves and not what the world demands, and they enjoy what they want to enjoy and care it is a drawing quality. :)

Mythology, that is very deep, I'm glad to know the origns of your name. :)

I'll say to that it is ok to cry, tears can mean more often than words ever will, you can cry, just cry it all out. :)

Pyschology? That is so very amazing Nigel, I have spent a long time thinking about the way we think I'm sure youve spent that time no doubt to. :)

I'll take the latter Compromise or stand firm on what you believe? Even if your in love?

Girlygirl never feel down, its women like you that make us want to be chivalrous. :)

It is such a pleasure to talk to you now Beatriz, thankyou for coming into this thread, I am so happy to have you as my friend, and I'll say I'm impressed by your status :D if you make it into X&Y that would be so sweet! Girlygirl, it is lovely ladys like you that make it a pleasure to be on this board, and I'm very glad that you are who you are, it is so desperately hard to find people who care and who think and who love other people. Those people are us, the good people of this life and I said onetime why throw all of that away to betray yourself and even your love to just be a good picture? why? That is a regrettable waste, I love people who do care and want to be themselves. :) I'm a big franzferdinand fan and when I feel down because I just don't like myself I listen to this, I think you'll like it to. :smug: http://www.megaupload.com/?d=HX51PP0R

Goodbye Nigel take very good care my friend. :) I like Beatriz, it has a wonderful sound like Eleanor to it. :)

Yeah thanks alot my friend, I'll be taking them with me. :)

Oh and I meant everyword girlygirl you don't have to pretend to be something else, the rest of the world enjoys being phony but there is no beauty in that, when someone decides they want to be who they are even quietly and like what they like love who they want to love and say what they want to say, that is so very beautiful to me. :) Well I had to come back now, let the smoke settle in my soul a little and realize that I can be myself here and enjoy my so many beautiful friends. :) Nigel thankyou for keeping my thread up that is so very kind of you, :D ariadna thankyou so much, though weve only talked briefly your words are very much appreciated by me. :) You all have are worth so much you friends have always given me so much and I thankyou. :)

Thankyou so very much for your kindness girlgirl that is so very sweet, decided that I should come back, just had to let the dust settle in my soul. Nigel I give you my special thanks, you have always been good towards me and so many others and youve been given an undercut from life and it breaks my heart to see this thing happen to you, I would even understand if you couldn't go to college, I would understand completely but I know that you have so much good you can still accomplish and no matter what happens next I want you to know that you are the best there is and you have a lot to offer, your a goodman Nigel and the world has so many little of them. :)

Thanks Michaela for coming by. :)

There are all these philosophies or beliefs, and these little quaint sayings that we can tell each other to feel better, the fact is death is horrible to watch, we weren't meant to wither away like this and then slip off, I can't bring myself to look at it like I try to look at love and life and friends, death is never ever beautiful I could allow to look at it like that, not when we desperately want to live, death is only a lesson about the persons life. My grandmother gave my mother everything and my mother does me the same and now she can rest and people will cry and there's no more breath. Ive had all week to think about this and what it means, only thing I know is to be there and care and love them both. I have to leave now but everyone take special care and cherish everything you have, your friends yourself your family and the love you feel. Goodbye

Yeah I was given a one way ticket, that means I stay as long as my mother needs me to be there, I think I needed this wake up call, I want to see my grandmothers sweet smile just before my heart clouds over at the departure of her. Thats why she wants me to come, my mother wants me to see this, my father and my brother will not come, I'll admitt I have a facination with death, it changes me into someone different every time, I learn about life some more every moment that I'm stuck here in this excistence. My mother needs me to be there and tell her and show her who I akm because for some reason as her son I comfort her, I can always help her walk down the road.

Modest Mouse Bury Me With It

Oh yes I did I thankyou so very much for sending me that, I have been partialy strapped you will have to forgive me for not being so swift. How are you Crystal? :)

Great I let more information about me slip. :lol: She's my beautiful stepsister Jenn :) she came to Canada to ask a friend to marry her, he died in his sleep from liquid seeping into his lungs and since then well we just like our company. :) She's very tough, always has a positive view and says whats on her mind, I miss her alot these days. But I absolutely hate to talk about my life or my familys so a very happy turning of a year for you Crystal. :)

Hey there Crystal its such a pleasure to see you. :)

Oh this is so very wonderful, this is the happiest thing that has happened to me in a good long time, thankyou so much for your generosity. Unfortunately I will not be here till mid next week, my grandmother across the country will die now very soon, my mother has to travel to ontario, out of all the family she asked me to come because I will be able to hack it. I'm leaving tommorrow on a one way ticket at 7:45 I think. I hope to be on here next wednesday. This has been pert of the reason my times been taken up. Oh Crystal I have not seen you for much to long my dear, I am happy to see your presence once more. :)

Goodnight Gail, I appreciate your wishes I have the same wishes for you. :) :kiss: :kiss: With my last breath I curse Rick! :lol: nah goodnight friend. :D

Goodnight Mary you have a goodnights rest to, goodnight Riack and Gail. :)

I actually use glasses though I don't wear them often, I have shades that I have over the lenses. :cool: Goodnight everyone, goodnight Rick and Gail, you both made this a great evening for me, take special care and sleep soundly and have a wonderfuk evening. :)

Couldn't help myself :lol: well I'm off to sleep, thanks for the laughter and friendship Rick, I needed that, thanks for the sharing of video opinions Gail and for your friendship, you both take very good care and have a very good sleep. :)

Rick won't let me live that down :lol:

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