BlissfullyMuse

No joke i started crying when i read that because it relates to me so much right now, beautiful Ari!

lol my arms are still numb from where i had some numbing cream because i had a blood test and i have a phobia about needles :embarrased: so they had to sedate me lol and put this cream on and my arms feel proper weird :dizzy2:

:lol: Ooo make sure hes wearing them sexy sunglasses :o :cool: lol

:D So how be you on this sunny Wednesday moonan

Hey Ali :kiss: Im ok not too bad....Were not friends btw something happened last night(he phoned me) and after my friends having a go at him and his friends having a go at me we're not friends. He is a compleat asshole so im just gonna try and move on with my life now :) How are you?

Its over now so no worries

Welcome Ali to ze madness :P

Aww thank you :kiss: iv had enough, i might go :/

:lol: I hAtE tHe OfFiCiAl BoArD

Its already driving me nuts :/ It just makes me feel sick, i couldnt do anything to stop it becuse he was too far, i couldnt even see it happen. he told me i had nothing to worry about he promised me that he would always love me and no one else. he even said if we split up he would find no one else because he would try and go back out with me You prob thing im a nutter or something, i wish i didnt feel like this, i just feel so strongly about it and its making me crack up

I wish i couldnt torture myself but i cant help it...i always thing its my fault because he dumped me for her.....i cant belive his feelings have changed over night like that. Its seriously fucking me up and i dont care how stupid i look right now I cant stop crying

I wish someone would help me out...i mean yeah people are helping me but i need someone here and all my friends just hate him, he might be confused I really dunno im confused myself :cry:

what do u mean she was trying to do something? but honestly kirst you know he's only there cos of the kid, he doesn't really love her, there was a reason why they broke up the first time round :) namely cos she is a stoopid biatch who needs a slap quite frankly I dont know but it was something rude...Yeah and i know hes only there because of the kid...I wish someone would just tell him!!!!!!! im sorry but im really frustrated i just wish he would fucking wake up

:lol: Yeah i might let her have a go at him, i wish there was something...anything that could make him as depressed as i am so he can come down to my level. hes so selfish and he doesnt give a shit about i feel, i know how horrible he can be obviously when we were together he was sooo nice but now hes just changed. He used to wear my necklace and the other day he told me he only wore it in front of me and not in weymouth, that means he lyed to me because he said he wore it all the time :cry:

Oh yeah and i keep thinking about them two together, the other night while i was trying to speak to him she was trying to do something and it was sickening, i didnt need to hear that and again that killed all my feelings inside, it just compleatly crushed me

Yeah your right, theres like a tiny part of me that thinks he will come back but i have to get rid of that compleatly, i think thats the thing thats worring me so much. A bit of space may do it all good and yeah i'll see how i feel tomorrow, my friend Suzanne might phone him for me because she said she'd love to have a go at him lol but i mean all i want to know is that will he treat me with respect and as a friend and be nice to me. If not he can piss off :idea2:

Good luck hun :)

Yah your right maybe i should just leave it...i mean yeah it is killing me inside and its making me worse everyday, i dont want a repeat of sunday night(i did do something and yeah i dunno if i should say anymore)

I say no but then i answer lol im such a twat lol...what should i say i think i can phone him

Yeah i know hun its ok....well iv tryed but they really dont want to speak to him

Yeah sorry for asking, i dont know shes gone out for the night :/ Just say your my mate from college....ok im just thinking stupid things now

^8 dunno who it is tho hehe

my mum doesnt want anything to do with him, neither do my best mates i dont blame them really Could you talk to him?...Oh my god that was a stupid qestion im sorry :embarrased:

The pain in my heart right now