The Mad Hatter

oh wait you're not american

gawd what is your problem freaking skinny weirdo

i already did and look where it got me :|

yes it does, and being a little cuddly is fine, but i don't want to get any cuddlier, because i don't want sleep apnoea or gross fattiness. x_x i blame my lady time for making me want to eat all the things. :disappointed:

i'm so tired i hurt so much i must be getting sick my grandfather actually told me a vietnam story today but he never talks about combat or anything serious but he talked about eating moldy pumpkin bread from home even though it was moldy his war stories are rare, but i guess with reason sometimes i wonder how he feels about all of it how am i going to lose this weight physically and emotionally i guess i'll have to do the same thing my dad did and just cut almost everything i like i like bread :( oh well i don't need food why can't you be here i need cuddles i'm pathetic :(

i will give you a present

i'm fat. :O

ham is gross

I've been looking for you. :(

I don't take it as disrespect. I'm trying not to use crutches. I know what happens; it just seems so much easier than actually living, you know? :/ I mean, in the end, it isn't, but it's so tempting. I am and I have. ;P

:dance: is my favorite

permissible, if she is neither singing nor having sex with me.

rihanna, you should have sex with me but not talk or sing and not have sex with me

that is fucking hilarious if there were a fat american emoticon, none of us would care so yeah

that's racist but i guess it doesn't matter since chinese people probably can't access this website anyway :|

/lol asia is frightening to me

Rihanna, you are a bad singer. Stop singing.

Thanks everyone...I've been kind of afraid to come online here for the past day or however long because I was afraid of what I'd written. It's not often one comes online to talk about problems and actually gets encouragement and compassionate listeners, especially when OP is pathetically drunk. :) I admire your strength. <3 For a few months, as low as I felt, I thought I was still getting closer to God, but something broke me. I'm not sure what it was. I suppose I just need to be resilient in my faith, like you. Thanks for your prayers. :3 Eh, I smoked pot like...once. But nothing happened. I think one of my pothead Libertarian friends told me that nothing usually happens the first time because your body isn't acclimated to THC or something. I don't know. I'm no expert. I actually felt so guilty the first time that I cried a little. o_O But I've considered it again lately because of my anxiety...and to be honest, I've felt pretty self-destructive and considered a lot of other things to get into. :/ I use alcohol because it's available and nobody notices if it goes missing. And nobody assumes it's me drinking it when it does.

Good lord, do not ever drink with me. My grandfather is the same way, bt he's an alocholic. I know it's bad to drink and computer, but I feel so upset, and I make these horribly personal threads all the time, but you guys are the only ones who are distant enough to not pass harsh judgemtn on me. I love you guys. You listen even when I hardly reply, which isn't personal, it's just that I never know what to say and I feel really really narcissistic or whatever the word is. I feel really selfish. I'm reall ysorry about it. I'm reall yosrry that I'm so selifhs, even to you guys, and I never say thank you when you guys are encouraging or kind to me. I really wish I had done things dfferenetly. My mom and dad don't love each other, and they never did, and I was bullied, and I hate myself, and I'm in love, but I don't deserve it. Oh my god, I finally spleled "deserve" right. Blahablah balh there are people fucking DYING in this world an dall I'm upset about is how everyone called me fat or some shit and how my dad always made me afraid to ask anyone to help me and now i'm just drowning in fucking vodka (this shit be nasty yo) like some piece of shit, which i am. In comes people telling me I'm attention-seeking. Well, you're goddamn right about that. I need some fucking attention. What else would I make a thread for. What else does anyone make a thread for. I need fucking help and I'm really sorry i'm bother all of you but again i know that you won't be too harsh and if you are, it doesn't matter because you live so far waya. This is totally wrong. Most of you probably know i'm a christian but please DO NOT judge my faith or my god or any other Christians on what I'm doing or what's happened to me. I'm just los tright now and don't think my faith didn't save me because God isn't real, but it's okay if you don't believe God is real, just don't base it one me. I'm just lost and trying to fin dmy way back, and pleee dpont hate me for posting this and being a total wreck about it and looinng for attenion. sometimes i just really feel like you guys are my only freidns, which i sa very lonely existecne, but i really do try, you know? i reall ytry, but i'm quickly losing interest in trying because i get shrugged off so easily. i am a real bore, i suppose. I'm not really like this, I just am right now. inb4 Coldplaying is not your personal blog

Are we going to start this again? Really? I could have used the time with you guys, but once again, I hear NOTHING of your get-together, and I'm not invited. Why am I on the fringe when I used to be part of the group? It's not fair. I had literally nothing to do last night. I was totally free. Why was I not invited?

yes.

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It's okay. I still think you're cool. :cool:

the gun was to my head. you pulled the trigger. you killed me. how do you feel about that?

all my dreamz splintering under my fingernailz