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^^Schweet! OMG. Speaking of Muse... I was watching TV, and the 'Children of Men' commercial was on...and they played 'Map of the Problematique' in the background. That was the first time ever I heard Muse on TV! :D

a-MEN!!! :D :laugh3: *quickly goes to sexy men thread*

Can I get an AMEN for MEN?!?!?!?!?!?

^^Oh I know! Have you seen Hayden Christensen in Life as a House???? OMG SOO HOT! He has like a chin piercing and blue hair and stuff. And he eyeliner. Oh My. So hott! I don't usually go for guys like that...but he was...gah!

Hello Darrrrling. :D I don't feel like doing homework. Too hyper!

Hello.

I like men.

Heh...that was nice.

Wow Rolle, that's late! :stunned:

Bah! I don't wanna do homework...

Yeah it was amazing! And it's HUGE too! It stetches out for miles and miles..... We didn't get to see the whole thing! :lol: But when you look out....you don't feel like it's real. Because it's so magnificent. I couldn't believe it wasn't CGI! :P

Okay soooo behold: THE GRAND CANYON!! :D When I first saw I couldn't believe my eyes.....so gorgeous!! It's like a mirage... I went last April with my family.

Our hopes and expectaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaationssss...

Woahhh so beautiful Martín! :nice:

I've seen the 'Imagine' one...So lovely Central Park. Although when I ate lunch on the park bench these squirrels kept trying to steal my food...and a bird attacked me from behind for my sandwich. :laugh3: :dozey:

Haha that his hair is cute! :D But recently I've been missing his old AROBTTH hair. The short buzz cut. It was soooooooooo cute! Reminds me of 2003. God what a year. :smiley:

I just slept! Hahaha I stayed up til 5 that morning, and didn't wake up til one. But I had a really bad headache, so I took a nap from 3 to 6:30. And yeah my day was pretty much just sleeping. :P How was yours?

Aww Nik you look so cute! Fondue is yummmmmmmmy! Kara hahaha looks like you all had fun! :P

Hahaha fine by me, Byron! :P:D

And how we win, if fools can be kings?

2006 for me was confusion. I couldn't understand myself, why I act the way I do. I didn't know how I should dress. I didn't know what to like. God, I almost wanted to be like everyone else. I didn't know where my comfort zone was, and in the end it hurt me. I felt like I had no where to go. The didn't know who my real friends were, and I felt like people just didn't care at all. That they purposely did things just so they can look good. The year was just horrible and meaningless. I could have gone without it. In 2005 I've learned sooo much about myself. But all the confidence and self-esteem I've gained then was crushed last year. It really sucked. Even in the beginning of this school year, I don't think I've hated school so much. People still don't give a shit, and I still feel lonely. Even though I understand now who my real friends are, I just still feel like they don't care. And I don't know why. I keep thinking to myself, "Do they really care for me? Or do they just act like that just to be polite?" Things were still not that great, however I sort of began to realize how I am as a person. I know my character now. I am opinionated, obnoxious at times, and stubborn sometimes. But of course I can be polite and caring and understanding, and that side of me I try to open up more toward everyone. But I can't help if I don't agree with someone about something. Or that I don't think they are a good person. Not necessarily disliking them, but just knowing they don't have good character. Fake, ignorant, prejudice, cruel. I have different views than everyone else. Sue me. I don't give two shits about what people think of me now. I just see them as crowd followers, so do I really give a fuck what they think? No. Because real human-beings would admire the fact that I actually have a personality. Might not be the best personality, but it's not fake like their tans. That's what I learned at the end of 2006. That I am the way I am, and no one can change it. I now know a rule to live by: If they like me, cool. If they don't, just fuck them. Like they mean anything. I have friends, I just need to learn how to open up to them more. Now that I think about it, maybe that's why I feel so lonely, because I don't try to connect with them on another level. I'm just so scared of that. I'm scared of getting hurt as well. Well school is still gonna suck like hell. But that I can't change. I guess school was always hell, I was just too ignorant to know before. But I'll try to make things better. Well this is supposed to be the thread to say what 2006 meant to you. Well....it didn't mean much, like I said. Just confusion. But I used this as my way to reflect on that year. This is the first time I ever really deeply thought about what happened last year. So yeah...this is more like a rant than anything. :laugh3: But now typing all this shit, I now know how to start off 2007, how to work on things, and how to just give a nice 'fuck you' to anything that brings me down. Nice ole' cup of fuck you.

Bury it, I won't let you bury it, I won't let you smother it.....

^^I make myself miserable. :\

No, not you Nic. :smiley: Just the world. That's all.

You know what I wanna do??? I want the whole world to turn on the TV for just one fucking second and watch as I flip the bird. That's all. One second. And one message. FUCK YOU.