lovebeginswith

home is not here. home is not near.

I'm lonely. cried myself to sleep last night listening to fix you on repeat.

Time to get offline and get packing. the move is underway. hi there new life. (:

I feel like if I try to explain in detail how I feel about this place whoever reads it will think I'm just looking for someone to care about me. I'm not looking for someone to martyr me. I'm really not that type of person.

the funny thing about my family, they were the first ones to disown me. I only have my dad left. I just don't feel happy here. I feel like a burden. I feel like I don't belong and I don't like that. I don't feel safe to open up.

I'm sorry to say that I have been thinking about leaving here for about a month now. I just don't feel like I fit in here at all. I know a lot of people will say that I haven't tried. I feel like I have. I just feel like I'm too late in joining this.. family. I think I'm better off not coming back.

I think its time to leave here.

Its fine -- I'm pretty much done.

okay, sorry.

time

I know it seems really scary, but if you don't go, you will be so annoyed. I think you should do it. I totally believe in taking a chance now and again. (:

If you need to rant. I'm here.

Family is something so important to me. I wish my mum would just say she was proud of me. My dad is the only blood relative who is proud of me right now.

My flat.

Test

We got the flat. So happy. We move out soon. We have our own space. You have no idea the happiness I feel.

Today I was made happy by yesterday's news. We got the flat.

finding the flat of my dreams

Application in place. Fingers crossed. I love this flat. much better than the house. I want it so bad. :(

I get to view a house today

I miss him. a 3 hour visit becomes an over night thing. all the time.

wine

summer

I'm not happy. with myself.