(can you say it like this in english?:wacky:)

 

Although I felt quite lost after I quit uni exactly one year ago....and I even felt rather lost after some months I had started that apprenticeship which I am doing...I had some problems there and thought of quitting again, but I do actually know what I am doing it for. I used to be kinda lost about my future in general, when I went to school as well. But now that I am starting to have visions which I finally want to realise everything feels quite useful....I just have to work on it. Do you know that when you dream of something, but you think it won't work anyways and you don't even try it? I used to be like that a while ago....and this pulls you so down. I never really relaised that you have to work for the things you want. I thought if I don't get it immediately I won't try it....that's too hard for me and at the same time it makes you so super unhappy to be like that, because there is not really a sense in your life. Well, there is, but you do not really see it.

 

So, I feel that I should try something, but I am not sure if it will work (because I probably suck at writing)....I'd love to do an internship at a music magazine after my apprenticeship in this music shop, but I am yet afraid my style of writing will be too bad....well I still have some time left until that (until summer 2011), so I can try to improve it.

 

I've been thinking of doing this for some years now...but rather in a really naive way...like "yes I will write for a music magazine in some years...without doing anything for it" which is a bunch of bullshit.

 

 

 

So, is anybody even interested in this? :wreck:

 

don't know....it just feels good to see some sense again

 

oh and I talk of visions in the title....there are some more....but these are rather unimportant...:wacky:

I often felt it better to have no visions of the future and accept what comes. Worked for me!

yeah well....I thought it would be like that, but I can't say it has worked for me so far...I think if you want to reach something you do also have to work for it a bit...I think it is like that when it comes to "career" stuff....probably not when it comes to emotional stuff like love for example...

(can you say it like this in english?:wacky:)

 

Although I felt quite lost after I quit uni exactly one year ago....and I even felt rather lost after some months I had started that apprenticeship which I am doing...I had some problems there and thought of quitting again, but I do actually know what I am doing it for. I used to be kinda lost about my future in general, when I went to school as well. But now that I am starting to have visions which I finally want to realise everything feels quite useful....I just have to work on it. Do you know that when you dream of something, but you think it won't work anyways and you don't even try it? I used to be like that a while ago....and this pulls you so down. I never really relaised that you have to work for the things you want. I thought if I don't get it immediately I won't try it....that's too hard for me and at the same time it makes you so super unhappy to be like that, because there is not really a sense in your life. Well, there is, but you do not really see it.

 

So, I feel that I should try something, but I am not sure if it will work (because I probably suck at writing)....I'd love to do an internship at a music magazine after my apprenticeship in this music shop, but I am yet afraid my style of writing will be too bad....well I still have some time left until that (until summer 2011), so I can try to improve it.

 

I've been thinking of doing this for some years now...but rather in a really naive way...like "yes I will write for a music magazine in some years...without doing anything for it" which is a bunch of bullshit.

 

 

 

So, is anybody even interested in this? :wreck:

 

don't know....it just feels good to see some sense again

 

oh and I talk of visions in the title....there are some more....but these are rather unimportant...:wacky:

 

I know how you feel.

 

My advice is to be bold and go out and try, don't look down but have confidence.

 

I thought if I don't get it immediately I won't try it....that's too hard for me and at the same time it makes you so super unhappy to be like that,

 

You're saying you want a career, to accomplish something? I've learned life is about doing things, trying things and being bold. L'audace, L'audace, Toujours L'audace.(Audacity, Audacity, Always Audacity). Accomplishing new tasks, solving problems and constantly moving forward.

 

For me the alternative to success is death, thus there is no point in being negative and being pessimistic. I'll give 100% and make it or accept the consequences. I think the fatal flaw for many people is they don't dream big enough and don't work hard enough for it.

 

Does that make any since?

I think it does make sense. And this is the way I am starting to feel...and I feel that it will feel better to think that way. I do not see a sense if you do not really have a vision or let's say a dream you want to make true....at least in these kind of things...

 

and I have the impression that this is what life is about....there are so many people I know who are successful in what they do....and I envy them so much, but don't do anything to be successful and happy as well...

I think you should try to get some work experience. It will improve your CV even if it's just a few hours a month. Voluntary work might be a good option as it's generally easier to get and you probably won't have to do as many hours.

I don't like to think about the future. Whatever good opportunities come my way, I shall take them. :P

Visions of my future have been given up since I joined university last month. At least it's 4 guaranteed years of doing something, unlike the end of school when all I was thinking was "what will September bring" etc. Basically if your handeed a good opportunity which you KNOW is good, but are unsure as to what it will bring, then just TAKE IT. As the saying goes from a particular song "If you've never tried, you'll never know..."

Visions of my future have been given up since I joined university last month. At least it's 4 guaranteed years of doing something, unlike the end of school when all I was thinking was "what will September bring" etc. Basically if your handeed a good opportunity which you KNOW is good, but are unsure as to what it will bring, then just TAKE IT. As the saying goes from a particular song "If you've never tried, you'll never know..."

 

haha this is exactly how I felt when I started uni 2 years ago....but unfortunately it is too expensive to go to an university in Germany nowadays...I seriously hate my country for this

It's ridiculously expensive in the UK (not Scotland though) but everyone can get a loan so you don't have to worry about it while you're at uni.

well, you can get a loan here, too....but it depends on what your parents earn, etc...so you ahve to work anyways....I tried to find a job last year and it seemed to be impossible...

Remain open to what you really want to do. Put positive energy out there and open yourself open to receiving it back. Whatever you want to do Julia, you really can do it, even as cliche as it sounds. Focus on you, focus on what you want, tell yourself you can achieve it and you will:kiss: