To Ghost and the greater Coldplay community,

I am writing this because my actions were exposed in the "Truth About Coldplay Archive" document, and I need to own up to what I did. I am Nyx (also known as nanaikos, m4racide, and Guy Berryman Hater), and I am deeply ashamed of my behaviour.

Looking back at those screenshots is sickening. I was a bully, plain and simple. I called Ghost a "bumbling taco munching femboy retard," which is just vile, racist, and ableist. Even though I am a trans person myself, I hypocritically made transphobic jokes and used slurs. Worse, when people in the server were telling him to end his life or were sexually harassing him, I didn’t just stand by; I actively participated and added to that horribly toxic environment.

I also need to address my behaviour toward the broader Coldplay Discord server. My cruelty wasn't limited to just one person. I constantly talked shit behind people's backs, spread slander, and publicly shamed members of this community. Editing a photo to play tic-tac-toe on a member's forehead wasn't a harmless joke; it was meant to be humiliating and degrading. I am so sorry for treating people like punchlines and making the server such a hostile place to be.

To all of the members I've directly and indirectly attacked, there is no excuse for what I did to you. None. There are no possible words I could conjure that can make right all of the wrongs I've done to you.

To Ghost: I am so incredibly sorry. You are 14 years old, and no one (especially not a teenager) deserves to be targeted with that level of cruelty. There is no excuse for what I did to you, either. I know my words here don't undo the trauma or damage I've caused. To actually start changing, I am permanently stepping away from these Discord servers and the circles that encouraged this behaviour. I have a lot of personal work to do, and I need to figure out offline why I ever thought acting like this was funny or acceptable.

I am not posting this to ask for ANY of your guys' forgiveness, and I am not expecting to be welcomed back into this community. I am posting this because you deserve a real apology, and I needed to publicly take responsibility for the harm I caused.

I thank you for at least giving me enough of a chance to click onto this post. May God be with you.

Hey there Nyx i really appreciate your apologies not only at me but to everyone i respect that you apologized publicly not everyone has the courage to do it (to the people that apologized in dm i also appreciate so much)

That really hurt me so bad but i accept your apologies and as i did with everyone that apologized i will edit my thread and mention every person that apologized

Again thank you for this apologies have a good day W nanaikos

I've left the server, it was getting bad. The behavior was constantly terrible and toxic, especially coming from llama, so I've just decided to be done, I don't want to be associated with them anymore.