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haha, whoaz, an eye!

So I started and halfway finished my final drawing assignment today, and my teacher gave me a 10+/10 out of ten even though I hadn't even started on the third guy in the picture. :laugh3: I have no idea who these people are, it's just a random old picture... it was really small, (3x1) so I had to blow it up a little on my computer to even be able to draw it. :laugh3:

Ah, I was Seventh Day Adventist. I actually live in Loma Linda, the city with the highest concentration of SDA people. :uhoh: But yes--no one has no faith at all. (In response to awhisper21 too :)) I don't necessarily believe in God, as in the one of the Bible, but I have not dismissed the fact there could be a creator, hence being agnostic. Eric (thebestyoucan) told me that (I'm paraphrasing) "there were some Christians that would of told you that the Earth is the center of the universe--I believe it's the same thing with evolution." -- which is completely valid! :) Though I feel kind of trapped because my whole family is SDA, and I really don't know if I'll ever tell my parents, my grandparents, or any of my aunts or uncles that I'm not SDA anymore, let alone Christian. They won't understand. :freak: And thanks! (about being a good writer) I don't usually write so much, but I've been ranting a lot lately--it's strange! :laugh3:

http://www.coldplaying.com/forum/showthread.php?t=22371 I think I'm now agnostic, for the record. I've been slowly tearing away from my faith since... well... since I started chatting on the internet when I was 13. I was never properly exposed to the theory of evolution until then. I was born in a Christian household, a Christian town (a very, overly religious town), I was baptized, I still attend a Christian school, I still attend a Christian church, but I am very far from being a Christian now. I guess I can thank the internet for exposing me to views other than Christianity. In my community we are completely shielded from other "heathen" beliefs. We were taught a little bit of evolution in school, but we were taught it's weakest arguments and we were eventually told "it's absurd." I was also told to defend my faith by knowing and quoting the Bible. Well, that didn't go very far--what do you do when they don't believe in the Bible? Now, I can't help but think I've been brainwashed all of my life. I understand that Christian adults want their children to be "saved" and go to heaven, but not exposing children to both religion AND science and the theory of evolution is, I believe, intellectual robbery. Also, why is it that our "God given" gift of human reason tends to take over faith? Since faith is essentially, "to believe without reason"... For instance, try applying reason to the story of Adam and Eve. We'd have to assume that, since there was no "death," that Adam and Eve had no hair or fingernails, vegetation did not grow on dead organic material, Adam and Eve just consumed fruits and vegetables without digesting/decomposing them in their digestive systems... if they had any, and that Adam and Eve came from the breath of life and dust... which dust, well, the dust today, is mainly just dead stuff. Or is the story just a complex metaphor which will might not understand today, but understand in the future? Is reason not a valid application to the Bible? Or should we have a healthy balance of both faith and reason, since we will never know, at least in our lifetimes, the origin of life? In a sense, we use faith to believe in both religion or science. You could argue that it takes faith to use the scientific theory for instance. If you have no faith in your hypothesis, why conduct tests at all? Well this whole balancing thing, that's not particularly easy, since the more you tend to depend on faith, the more you lose reason, and vice versa. I think faith and reason could almost be opposites like good and evil, life and death, positive and negative... but if that's the case, which, faith or reason, is the "positive," and which is the "negative?" Like atoms cannot exist without positive and negative charges, could it be that good cannot exist without evil? What would good be if there was no evil? What would evil be without good? Would it just be the norm? Would life be able to exist without death? Would a perfect, "sinless," "good" human be able to survive in the world? Or is a little bit of evil, greed, burning anger, a bit of grit, or selfishness, needed in every person to survive? I was just lobbing a lot of questions like this at my mom, and eventually she was fed up with it--"hoi, I don't know!"--and she left my room. I think many Christians would rather not hear questions or arguments against their faith, because it makes it harder to have faith. But, a weak faith supposedly is exactly what God doesn't want, as stated in the Bible in Revelation: “I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot; I wish that you were cold or hot. So because you are lukewarm, and neither hot not cold, I will spit you out of My mouth." For now, I am a bit doubtful of the existence of God, at least the omnipotent, omnipresent, omniscient Judeo-Christian God of the Western world. Apparently, I'm lukewarm, and I'll be going to hell. Well, if God keeps good people that are simply skeptics out of heaven, then I don't think I would like to serve him for eternity in heaven. Though, I'd like to end with a quote by Carl Sagan--"absence of evidence is not evidence of absence."

whoo, is that my00ze i see at the top of the page? :) here's a supermassive matt photo! and a somewhat massive matt photo!

I don't like you. :laugh3:

Well, today my older sister brought to my attention that I pretty much have no self-esteem/confidence, and also, I have no idea who I am at all when she asked me what I'd say if I was put on a stage to explain who I am, and I couldn't think of anything--so, I thought it would be a good exercise for anyone just to sort of reflect and define themselves... If you post it here or not it doesn't matter. It's just food for thought, I guess. I was just about to type out that I'm too shy to post it here, but then again, that's one of my negative traits that I'm trying to overcome anyway, so meh. I'll post it. I know no one is probably interested in it, so I'll encase it in spoiler tags, haha.

Want! :freak:

Odd choice. Chris is a decent pianist... Shouldn't be too hard with some musical experience. Chord chord chord.... Sweet tho, hehe. :blush:

From the guestbook of an old Muse fansite...

:freak: :freak: :freak: I heard "Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas" off the Mince Spies CD in H&M today! :freak: I recognized it immediately from the piano in the beginning, but I was doubting myself until I heard Chris's voice... :blush: 'Twas a pleasant surprise! :)

giiivveee meeeee alll the peeeaacceee and jooooyyy in your miiinnddd!!!

:blush:

This picture is awesome! :wideeyed: You can even tell matt's lips are kinda chapped! :laugh3:

Lol, you guys had better step it up! Chris is at 17! :P Matt is still #1, of course!

Holy crap! They played all of the AAC gig (except TaB... too anarchist!) on the radio! KOC right now. :)

Lol, I kicked Johnny Depp off of the charts, just because he's not really an active musician, is he? :laugh3:

Mr. #1 is only about a year younger... :D

EVERYONE, WATCH MUSE RIGHT NOW! 300k: mms://a1867.l4076423866.c40764.g.lm.akamaistream.net/D/1867/40764/v0001/reflector:23866 600k: mms://a1177.l4076439176.c40764.g.lm.akamaistream.net/D/1177/40764/v0001/reflector:39176

Boo! Muse was taken off the ATTBlueroom live broadcast schedule! BOOO!!!!

Ey! You do know, he'll always remain on the top... :laugh3: Believe me, I know. :laugh3:

:laugh3: #2 now! haha. Well whatever you guys do... don't pass up Matt. :laugh3:

Maybe you have to block cookies from nme.com first. O.o It works for me. :uhoh: *points to Matt's score... :laugh3:*

All you have to do is click the link I posted, and refresh it... :)

Haha, well... Chris is up for NME's sexiest male award. http://www.nme.com/index.php?class=rate&ratename=sexiestmale&action=rate&rating=10&id=102 And you can all thank me for putting him in the top 5--but now it's back to voting for Mr. Bellamy for me... hahaha.