alyssa

Daylight. :)

^I see some snow... me iz jealouz. :P Lovely art everyone! I was in detention for a couple of hours today (on a Sunday! GR.) and luckily I had a pencil and paper, so I drew my bracelet... sort of unexciting, but it's pretty much the only item that I had to draw that was vaguely interesting. I bought the bracelet yesterday in support of the Invisible Children organization. http://www.invisiblechildren.com/home.php

Well, some of the youth pastors run these vespers sessions at church and the next 6 or so are all apart of a series with each lecture/talk entitled w/ a Coldplay song... first one is "The Scientist", and the whole series is called "Live The Life (Viva la Vida)". Apparently there's going to be live performances of each song at every session, and the pastors are asking for people that know the songs to perform... I just might, since I know every song on the drums (and a few on the piano, guitar, and bass...). Well whaddya think? Think it's kinda weird? Cool? I'm not Christian so you won't be offending me. :P

For the record, I'm not blaming it on a certain person. I haven't regularly frequented this forum in a year or two, lol.

Someone likes the thesaurus. Don't worry, there's nothing wrong with it. It's endearing.

It has been a bit boring here lately, which is why I haven't been here.

No, but I've felt like I've made really good friends online... sometimes better than my "real life" friends.

Yeah I remember reading about that when it happened. Crazy, crazy fucker.

My god, I take back what I said about you not being entertaining. That made no sense at all, and it's hilarious.

I hardly come around these forums, but I've come to the conclusion that you are, indeed, an uninteresting troll. G'day and g'night.

Sorry, there's a lot of text here. You don't have to bother reading. I wouldn't. Well, if you've made it this far, first of all, I hardly have any problems in my life. I have nothing to whine about. I have plenty of food, shelter, good health, a loving family, health insurance, a car, loving friends, not in debt, my parents have secure jobs, etc etc, but lately I haven't been able to escape feeling a bit depressed. I have a really hard time getting myself to do the simplest tasks. Getting up in the morning, being on time to class, doing my homework, doing chores, keeping up with projects, etc etc. I feel like I've dug myself into a deep hole, and now that my final exams and projects are all due, I'm either gonna fall out of the other side of the hole or dig myself out, but just falling even deeper seems like the easiest way out. =/ I might fail one of my classes just because I've been late every day. Also I've missed all state college application deadlines and I've been letting my grades slip like crazy. I'm being selfish and letting everyone down around me, especially my mom. I made a promise to her on her birthday on the 28th of December that I'd be less selfish and help her around the house and do better and school, and now I feel like an outright tw*t for not being even close to fulfilling that promise. Already I'm pissed off about how selfish my tone is right now. Right now I'm up at 1AM because I was supposed to email a paper to my teacher before midnight, but I haven't even started. For some reason, every time I procrastinate it leads to a lot of introspection, which in turn makes me feel a bit sh**ty and I don't get anything done. Every time I have something to do, I think about how hard it's going to be and I distract myself (by, I dunno, going on this site, myspace, just chatting, doing various hobbies) from it as long as possible until all my little tasks and problems snowball and become overwhelming. I've lost my cool a bunch of times in the past 1 or 2 months and I used to never do that at all. I actually used to take pride in how well I was able to control my emotions. =/ Now, I always find myself mad at myself for not getting something done or reaching a goal, or just plain being stupid, and then in that process I get mad at myself for being selfish and I know I'm going to be too lazy to correct whatever problem that caused me to be mad in the first place and it's all just some sort of vicious cycle. Both of my hands are bruised at the knuckles from punching the walls in my room. My right hand has looked a bit swollen and bruised ever since I first screwed it up 2 years ago when I punched something in anger after accidentally crashing into my dad's car. In August & September of last year I remember feeling really, really happy for weeks, and now I just feel quite hopeless. I have vicious mood swings--not on a daily basis but more on a weekly cycle. Also, for the most part, no one notices because I somehow manage to keep the same outside demeanor amongst my friends and family. I know at some later point in my life when I'm happy I'm gonna come across this and say "haha, wow I was unnecessarily depressed... again," which makes me feel stupid as well because I know I have the ability to get over whatever crap I'm in right now, I'm just too self-absorbed and dwell so much. I know why I feel like this right now but the same reason why I'm feeling down is what is keeping me from getting out! Though, if there's anything positive about this post, I have NOT turned to drugs and caused relatively little harm to myself and others, at least physically...

a random painting I never work with paints, so this is quite new to me!

Seconded on the "I don't wanna know" part. IT'S TOO DEPRESSING!

I have no idea. She was battling breast cancer and she came back online after she said she was fine after her operation and stuff. :( Last thing she said was that she was going to wrap presents for her son and would be back the next day... she never signed on since December 20, 2005. We asked Ian for her email and tried contacting her but we got no response. :(

Yay hair! I often end up with insane bedhead for some reason... haha. But on regularly it's pretty tame: Haha my hair looks green in the first pic! My actual hair color is like the color in the bottom pic.

I miss KM! She's been gone a while. And yeah Eric hasn't even been signing on MSN. The bastard!

They used VLV on the Doctor Who Christmas Special confidential. <3

Me. thebestyoucan (eric) andrea Christiana (since 05... :()

ZOMG HDR photos! I tried to do that a few times but I can never managed to take different exposures without letting the camera move, haha. I need a good tripod (I've only got a monopod). Anyway, here's some random stuff. I have a broken 50mm lens that I use combined with a 18-55mm lens to take macro photos...

^^Yeahhhh! Tennant love! It took me forever to warm up to him as well. He has such a good sad puppy look, hahaha. d00d. Watch it, and you'll love them even more! :P Guaranteed! (as long as you don't watch the episodes where The Doctor turns into an ugly old man) :lol: Oh! And Dom! How could I forget youuuu?

^Teehee. I accept! John Simm probably is better looking than David, but I haven't found anyone as lovable as him. <3 I used to HATE DT with a passion until I actually watched Doctor Who. :inquisitive: And from the little I've seen of John Simm as the Master, he's awesome. I just tend not to like the bad guys. :smug: Oh, and are we having a picture battle? The Doctor vs. The Master? :sneaky: here's my concession: and here's David Ten-Inch :wink3:

OH MAH GAWD! I wish it snows again in Socal too! I was just in Houston in Sept. <3

David Tennant. <3 Well, Mr. Tennant is undergoing back surgery in a few hours after having to pull out of a performance of Hamlet in London two days ago and won't be able to perform again until after Christmas. Get well soon, you sexy bastard!

Oh hey! I took that picture! <3

There's never going to be a snow day here in Southern California (at least anywhere near sea level). :(