Jiminy Cricket

I don't like who I am. The root of my depression, from which stems all the other that keep me awake at night namely; The fact that my best will never be good enough in anything; The fact that I won't have a job for years after I finish school; The fact that I despise my physical appearance... I could go on you know. Anyways, I'm out. Have a good night, everyone. I won't.

Do you have a supportive family? - I don't think I could ever tell them how I feel, no matter how supportive they are. And have you thought about it being a winter-depression because it's darker... Have you had this before? - Over the last two months especially. It's always been there. But never like this.

I'm fucking going to a therapist already! That's what makes it worse! Not snapping at you or anything, just... oh, what's the point?!

Just to say, my depression's back, and I mean back. Fuck it all anyway. :( I'm starting to wonder if the burden of even existing, living with myself, the things I've become, and the things I've always been, is a load worth carrying... This is not a cry for help, by the way, just thought I'd let you all know I'm suffering.

I might, but I might not. Not sure yet. I'd like to, but I just find this tradition of ringing in the New Year pathetic. 'Yay! Another year! Let's pretend we're even slightly happy for a while!' [/cynic]

I think we may have just found the album of the year 2010 in Romance is Boring. And the year hasn't even begun yet. Fucking hell, it is incredible.

Bai. Merry Christmas / Happy Festivus to all. :D

Clearly :P Laura and Crestzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!!! :dance: I is hyper right now. Merry Chriffmuff!!

Another one for Animal Collective! :D Great band. @william: Grizzly Bear much? :)

FESTIVUS FOR THE RESTIVUS. :D

Sorry I had to bring this up in here, but I find that speaking about it to you and certain other people is the only thing that helps. Maybe I should try keeping a diary or something, 's been a thing I've been thinking about doing. And yes, give it time. Well, that's what my life is: fucking peaks and valleys. I'm tired of everything changing so fast. I hit a run of a few good days, but I can never seem to hold on to what I have and make it last. Plus you really have no idea how concerned I am about my good friend... Hope you all have a good night. Me, I'll just see if I can even sleep.

If I didn't have such a passion for music and other things, I really would just get it over with and do myself in. I really fucking would. I'm so frustrated, angry and angst-ridden. A good friend of mine's situation has really affected me and made things even worse. I just... can't justify going on past a certain point in my life, because I know things are going to plie up, and I'll most likely snap.

I'm so sad at the moment. For lots of reasons that I can't go into. Just... so desperately sad in my own way. :cry:

After it turned out that I couldn't enter that Snow Patrol competition thingy. :P ... *sigh* :cry:

Hi guys. :(

I'm surprised that isn't getting rolled out for this tour, actually. ^

Well, 39 degrees Fahrenheit is something like 3 degrees Celsius. Minus 39 = Around the same in degrees Celsius. Are you sure that wasn't a typo? :P

It's everything else around me that's gotten me into this situation. And it's not me wanting to blame everyone but myself, that really is that way it is. I've just... never felt so powerless...

Holy randomness Batman!

D'you have a house with a cornflake door, Laura? :)

Fausages? :uhoh:

Going through various stages of activity, yes. :P I'm depressed myself now, though... :(

It's nice to know that people do. :)

I hate the fact that things I know won't change are depressing me. It's like... I can't seem to get my mind off them... :(

It's complicated. It's bringing me down too. Add this to a week where I have become acutely aware of how utterly fucked I am as regards getting a job etc., because of this mess our incompetent fucking politicians have gotten us into RIGHT ACROSS THE BOARD, outlook isn't good. Roll on Dec 22 and Christmas break.