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i used to wear a watch, i needed it to know when band practice was over... uggghhh i hated band practice.. marching the same parts OVER and OVER again. but now that the seasons over, i miss it. haha :)

true! the next poster loves rainy days

japanese food! (i take japanese thats why haha) :) ambient music or techno music

hillary duff. shes so, ewwww.

i ran away. oh my gosh i love this song. :smug2:

green eyes. i heard that chris once said that green eyes was a gay love song to jonny. ive never been able to listen to that song ever since.. haha :lol:

yess! tapping of the foot. my nervous habit. i picked it up from marching band. im always tapping parts of our show.

^ heyy im listening to that right now! im starting to kinda like U2. cause like, my friend recomended them to me cause im always like, OMG I JUST HEARD THIS AMAZING COLDPLAY SONG all the time.. he said U2 is kinda like coldplay. theyre okay.. the will never replace my coldplay.. mmmm...

i hate falling down, cause usually where you landed is on the bone, or REALLY hard on the booty. and then you have to laugh and act like it didnt hurt, so i like laugh. and then i look crazy cause when im laughing i have this like, psyco expression on my face, and crying at the same time. never a good thing... :confused:

NO AHH IT ANNOYS ME. like, there was this little indian kid in my bio class, and he was biting his nails. im i was like $U(#@%&($#@_ STOP. and he didnt, and that really ticked me off. and my teacher got mad at him, so he said, cathy, hit him for me. and i hit him a little too hard, and everyone thinks im a little indian kid abuser now.... :confused:

im listening to my head, its singing x&y. its in my head like whoa. AH GET OUT OF MY HEAD.

yeah, my "best friend" is the same way. she went through a depressive state when i met her last year, she couldnt handle moving so well. and like, now, shes completely different. always happy. preppy clothes, attitude, everything. weve almost switched personallities. i used to be like, super preppy, constantly smiling and bursting with energy. now, im like, quiet, calm, always tired, listening to music (i just picked it up last summer, its the onlything that really makes sence in my life anymore), depressed, like the way she was when i first met her. i think shes faking it too. i dont want to see a therapist, just because... im very hidden about whats going on. i know it doesnt seem like it, but thats because this is like, over the internet, its harder for me to say what i mean when vocallizing it. its hard to explain.

aim public chatrooms are creepy, theyre all, LOOK FREE PORN. ew. chatrooms are fun when your just with your friends, the ones who like to actually talk and dont constantly say CHEESENIPPLE. (im thinking of my friend.. haha :lol: )

healthy, ive been nervous about weight. plus, i eat 3 or more green apples a day, I LOVE GREEN APPLES YUM YUM. my friends sometimes call me apple, haha.

whoaaaa suicidal? well yeah, i guess if you let your tasks build up, then you worry that you have so much going on in your life, then you procrastinate so much you cant finish everything, then you freak out..... shall i keep going? nah you get the idea. ive felt like that... honors biology BLOWS.

haha thanks, i dont know, adults say the same thing to me, that im mature and such. my friends are always like, YOUR SO RETARDED AND STUPID, because i have my blonde moments. so im just like, k forget this. and i dont talk cause it really hurts when someone calles me retarded. its like, we forget that retarded actually means mentally challenged because of this pollitical correctness bullshit. and like, to call someone retarded who has no mental handicap, its like saying, haha de really did that? hes so cancer. NO SHUT UP LOSERFACE. okay im good :) "i have those two freinds. they think we're really close and stuff but i think we're not. there's so much stuff they don't know bout me. i'm talking and talking and talking but they're not listening. i feel like i'm talking to a wall. they don't understand me. not at all. it might sound a little stupid but i think i'm a little more marute than they are. it's just like i'm worried bout loadsa things ... . i made some painful experiences in my life and my so-called friends don't know about it. i don't wanna tell them cause everytime i'm talking bout something serious ... they're like"yeah, okay ...whatever ... what do we wanna do?!" and that drags me down. " man. i hear you on this. they dont listen and ignore you. and even if they did listen, they wouldnt understand. woooo time for X&Y, speed of sound, square one, talk. "if you could see it then youd understand" "you just want sombody listening to what you say, it doesnt matter who you are" "is there anybody out there who is lost and hurt and lonely too, are they bleeding all your colors into one? and if you come undone as if youve been run throught some catapult, that fired you, you wonder if your chance will ever come, or if your stuck in square one" "youll tell anyone wholl listen but you feel ignored, nothings really making any sence at all, lets talk, lets ta-a-a-alk".

yeah i tottaly love that. yeah an_cat, that sounds a bit like me, huge dreams. im always taking on too much, every honors class, extra credit assingments, and i tried winterguard (its like, flag spinning and dancing). and i was like, exploding. i couldnt handle it, i sucked at winterguard because i didnt have the time to practice. and when i dropped out of it, i felt like the biggest FAILURE. so much more happened this semester, and i just havent been handling it so well.... i mean, i wouldnt kill myself, but ive always wondered if the world would change even a little if i wasnt here anymore, or if anyone would notice. etc.

procrastination.. ah yes. its how i get things done. i dont have a problem doing the assingment, i have a problem starting, because i usually dont know where too start. kinda like when im drawing, i have no idea how to make the first line, but from there, i can easily finish drawing.

whats that? it sounds like one of those games where you shoot things.. if it is, thats tottaly awesome. i get all my frustration out on those games, im an interesting girl haha :)

suicide : a permanent solution to a temporary problem. my friend and i was talking about suicide. and she said that, and, like, i still think about it, but, i would never kill myself because i heard that. headless chick, you sound alot like me right now, except, mines more about physical apperance. lots has been going on, and i havent been talking to anyone, except last night. my friend listened to some stuff thats been going on. it felt really good, i didnt get it all out though. i want to get a diary to get everything out. headless chick, i really recomend you find a close friend to talk too (sometimes, parents just dont understand ANYTHING, but if your close too them, go to them). it feels really good to get everything out. if you cant find anywhere to go, or if your too nervous too, get a notebook or a diary and write your emotions out, it feels really good to get all of it out of your system. whatever you do, just dont let it bottle up inside you. i did that, and lets say im just not in the best condition right now. oh, an_cat. great post. i feel the same way about those "emo" kids. cutting is serious, and anyone who does it to fit in that label, is a dumbmotherfucker. sorry for the language. http://www.i-am-bored.com/bored_link.cfm?link_id=14388 <funny.

i guess it sucked.

The Postal Service

true! went two nights ago. the next poster does not like the color orange.

mine this year, stop swaring. and dont refer to things as "gay" or "retarded". ive been thinking, it doesnt make sence to call something gay if its not like, homosexual. you know? same thing for retarded. like, with all this political correctness, we have to call things mentally challenged now. and we forget that retarded actually means a mental disablillity. so, it doesnt make sence to call someone retarded if they dont have a mental handicap. its like, oh, he said something stupid, he is so cancer. yeah. ive been sticking to not reffering to things as "gay" or "retarded", but im having a bit of difficulty with swearing, i tend to get quite angry... :confused: