Prince Myshkin

today i learned that the girl i have a crush ons boyfriend will not be around tomorrow when me, her and a few friends go hang out at the park listening to music. that doesn't change the fact that i'm not going to tell her how i feel, but it will make the day more enjoyable. also she fell asleep listening to the music i put on her mp3 player and wants to give me a present in return.

you should definitely go to the pharmacist and tell them your symptoms. then hopefully by the end of the week it will have passed and you can have more fun with your cousin if he or she is still here. otherwise you could get worse and not be able to do anything. i need to get a shower first. hoping to be out the house for about quarter past three. i can either sit on the grass or by the reservoir. i'm looking forward to it, haven't read in quite a while.

it's afternoon silly

that sucks i think i'm gonna go to the park and read in the sun. it's a really nice day. are you taking any medication to help the sickness?

how are you today?

definitely! it's gonna be an exciting few months when you discover more and more so so much

quiet today

frings

and that was second day

you only learned that today? we get taught that at primary school first day

don't adverts like that sometimes base their content on things you have previously searched for on your computer? just saying...

smug post is smug

i'm gonna head to bed need to make two playlists then i can close my eyes

today i learned that frank sidebottom died last week :(

boooooooo

no, i'm suggesting she should bring him in from the darkness actually, i bet he likes the darkness (the band) doesn't he?

i really don't like your boyfriends taste in music :laugh3: first bon jovi now this? :P your sickness will pass and you will be with him again. the pain of his absence and of your illness are only temporary and you need to cling on to that for the time being. how long will it be till you see him next?

ahhhhhh well good luck with it because it's a wonderful thing

oh, you had an unhappy face in the post

that's the way it goes i'm afraid. but you will be with him again.

is that bad?

you learn a lot though. and i'd much rather be back into the darkness of last september than in this numb unmotivated state. i was especially creative during that period. and it gives you something to fight for when something can move you in such a way.

but nothing else matters other than your happiness. if you are happy through your love for them and are enough control not to screw yourself over by following it beyond a acceptable point things are fine. i'd rather have gone through what i went through than never have met her so i have no regrets in following my heart at the time.

i thought everybody knew that... jk

that isn't necessarily a bad thing. if i wasn't bound by my love for another i'd possibly say something. i would much rather be following my emotions but i haven't really had any for about six or seven months once the pain started to pass. i'm such a fucking emo haha