yes, delaying things always increases my stress dramatically

yes' date=' delaying things always increases my stress dramatically[/quote']

I delay going to sleep all the time :confused: how about you?

yep - but i just don't like to go to sleep because i am always afraid i will miss something good - i think it is a holdover from my childhood + i don't really require a lot of sleep

....sleep sucks.

why does it seem like something good will always happen at night but during the day you're bored?

indeed, i consider sleep a huge waste of time

why does it seem like something good will always happen at night but during the day you're bored?

 

i think most people have the mentality that the "good stuff" happens at night. hell i don't know what i am talking about - i just know i used to hate it when i was little and my parents made me go to bed...

yeah, I think that when it's dark the world seems a little smaller and there's less to worry about so you feel secluded and a little happier. During the day you see things going on and it's stressful to see people living their lives. I made a poem about this...

have you ever felt like killing yourself, but you know you'd never be able to--so you just punch things and hurt yourself?

have you ever felt like killing yourself' date=' but you know you'd never be able to--so you just punch things and hurt yourself?[/quote']

 

i have been extremely angry at life. i feel like some really unfair things have happened to me. i have a hard time controlling my anger within myself. but i have to put on a happy face for many many reasons. but i do a lot to try and get rid of aggression - i work out like a maniac, i listen to heavy metal, etc. but then i also have things i do that make me feel calm. you have to find something that works for you that is not hurtful to yourself whether it is just talking to us or whatever.

have you ever felt like killing yourself' date=' but you know you'd never be able to--so you just punch things and hurt yourself?[/quote']

 

i have been extremely angry at life. i feel like some really unfair things have happened to me. i have a hard time controlling my anger within myself. but i have to put on a happy face for many many reasons. but i do a lot to try and get rid of aggression - i work out like a maniac, i listen to heavy metal, etc. but then i also have things i do that make me feel calm. you have to find something that works for you that is not hurtful to yourself whether it is just talking to us or whatever.

:cry: I never really felt like killing myself. But I always wish things would go away. The world is a sad place sometimes, but you get through that stuff and then for that one moment on that one day you think life was worth all the pain just to live for that moment. I've felt that way so many times before and I'll never forget.

alyssa wants to pull off an all nighter... :P

ok - don't know if i can hang - i am not overly stimulated at the moment

me neither! I can't really stay with her.

I'm only sleepy when I let myself be...

 

...or when I'm reeallly tired...

i mean i have to lay here in my damn back with ice and heat and drugs... but i don't know how long i can stay awake without some significant environmental stimulation

why can't I help any of my friends?

i mean i have to lay here in my damn back with ice and heat and drugs... but i don't know how long i can stay awake without some significant environmental stimulation

*mind falls in gutter*

i mean i have to lay here in my damn back with ice and heat and drugs... but i don't know how long i can stay awake without some significant environmental stimulation

 

...slap yourself. :)

 

I just tried it...

i mean i have to lay here in my damn back with ice and heat and drugs... but i don't know how long i can stay awake without some significant environmental stimulation

*mind falls in gutter*

 

oh... that's sick.

i mean i have to lay here in my damn back with ice and heat and drugs... but i don't know how long i can stay awake without some significant environmental stimulation

*mind falls in gutter*

 

oh... that's sick.

:embarrased: sorry

man i was going to let my mind deviate into the dark place again, but i will try to control myself....

 

stop slapping yourself alyssa or i will have ot come and do it for you :P

stop slapping yourself alyssa or i will have ot come and do it for you :P

 

uh... okay.

i mean i have to lay here in my damn back with ice and heat and drugs... but i don't know how long i can stay awake without some significant environmental stimulation

*mind falls in gutter*

 

me too - *racing thoughts that i can't share*

alyssa is very unhappy right now