yeah, I know how ya feel... kinda sorta...

 

I am medically screwed up, haha. a lil...

anyways....

yeah i think so - could be' date=' docs are acting like it is. i have been feeling really tired for awhile now. then i started having kidney trouble (infections, pain, etc - abnormal test results....), then just lately i have been having some trouble breathing. not able to work out like usual. went to the doc and got a chest x-ray and there is a "suspicious" spot on my left lung. then, just for kicks they did mammogram a couple weeks ago - and there are real problems there. so i am going in the morning to a breast specialist for a repeat mammogram, a diagnostic ultrasound, and an MRI of both breasts and both lungs. so basically i am scared shitless. i hate to feel sorry for myself, but this just sucks!![/quote']

Please don't feel bad feeling sorry for yourself. It doesn't make sense not to. I don't know what to say... But you have to care about yourself.

yeah, I know how ya feel... kinda sorta...

 

I am medically screwed up, haha. a lil...

 

 

sucks, doesn't it? i am not good at being sick... makes me angry.

i know eric, i guess i feel guilty when i get into the thought process "haven't i been given enough to deal with already?" and i try not to do that - but that is my mind set tonight i guess :/

^^yeah...

 

I especially hate feeling helpless. 0_o

i know eric' date=' i guess i feel guilty when i get into the thought process "haven't i been given enough to deal with already?" and i try not to do that - but that is my mind set tonight i guess :/[/quote']

well, uh, I think you need to go to bed so you're not tired tomorrow.

i know - just hard to sleep - and too late to take ambien without being totally hungover in the morning. i'll go try to rest again in a few.

"in a few" :rolleyes:

alright alright i am going....

 

oh christopher started violin lessons :P - apparantly prodigy in one area does not lead to prodigy in all areas. but if effort counts, he will get it... but i need some really good ear plugs :)

alright alright i am going....

wow, this is a proud moment for me... me... making someone else go to bed...

 

oh christopher started violin lessons :P - apparantly prodigy in one area does not lead to prodigy in all areas. but if effort counts' date=' he will get it... but i need some really good ear plugs :)[/quote']

well playing the piano is a lot different than the violin because you have to get the feel of a violin before you can even play a little. But the piano is simple.

well i am going to bed, as ordered (don't let the power go to your head eric). and i hope to be on here some tomorrow evening. take care.

 

goodnight eric

 

goodnight alyssa

^goodnight. :)

 

goodluck too! :)

good night. Have sweet dreams about this le piez de me amor (don't ask what language)

 

o_0

hello...?

hey, sup?

oh... I"m a bit late... :P

 

*wonders if anyone's here*

oh... I"m a bit late... :P

 

*wonders if anyone's here*

I think people r

^'ello.

they're not anymore

oi.

wrong time I guess... :idea2:

allo? :wacky:

man, I am a lazy good for nuthin tall glass o' water but I wonder how christi is doing :(