And if you start doing the things in which you are good?

 

The same happen with me.I make a total stop in the school and when I try it to return was really hard.

 

The worse thing was that I waste my time and I am still feeling bad about it.

But then I realize that I could do a lot of things,that I could not remember in that moment.

 

Now I made some changes in my life and I am in my way back to the person I should to be,the person I want to be.

 

My friends help me a lot and my family help me too.Not to mention the music:P

Nothing to do with achieving, just living day by day.

 

I always find myself coming home at the end of a day and feeling so empty, like I'm doing nothing with my life.

 

I know how you feel. I feel the exact same way sometimes, like life isn't worth living. Like I don't a LIFE life.:(

Too bad you didn't make it there today but I'm sure you will on Thursday. At least you have it in your mind that you are going to start going back to classes, the next step is actually going. It's hard to get out of certain cycles.

 

Also think of the money you are wasting by not going. :P That in itself should make you want to go.

I guess, but money doesnt worry me, at all. Thats why I keep running out.

 

Yeah, Im going to try hard for Thursday.

I cant just FIND a girlfriend man, I know a lot of girls, and dated and such, finding a girl I completely connect with and feel comfortable with is a very hard thing to do.

 

Yeah Erin, I do that too sometimes.

 

Thanks Julia, all I can say is that I'll try, and I mean that.

 

 

welcome to the club... anyway, the more you search the least you find...

I guess, but money doesnt worry me, at all. Thats why I keep running out.

 

Yeah, Im going to try hard for Thursday.

 

Where does all the money come from. I want to learn your secret. :P

Nope' date=' I mentioned why earlier in this topic.[/quote']

 

 

I should probably have read the other posts like.....

So Reilley did you go this time?

Yes! And you just reminded me that I'm pissed off! ARGH

 

Because it got fucking cancelled or something, God damnit. Do you know this happened the last time I went to class, its like I'm not supposed to go in. These are the kind of knock-backs that throw me off balance and make me want to do nothing with my days.

 

But I did go, even if it wasnt on, I was there, waiting for class.

Well thats a step in the right direction. I'm really glad you got there but that is annoying that the class was cancelled. Not exactly what you needed haha

 

Do you feel better for making the effort to go though?

Funny... When you go to school regularly you'll be thanking the Lord for cancelled days. :P

I didn't go to school today :P

 

But I had to look after my little bro ALL DAY LONG

I always go to school. But I don't really go for the lessons. I mean... I study and everything, but that's not what keeps me going back. It's all about my friends and basketball really. Now I can't play basketball for a few weeks cause I broke my finger. It's gonna be a bloody boring end to March :(

Did u go today at school,Reilly?I hope yes.........

No, I didnt. I feel like shit, because I didnt.

i went to school today, man i am so sick of substitue teachers who cant actually teach. i wasted 4 periods doing nothing when i could have been elsewhere doing other things

No' date=' I didnt. I feel like shit, because I didnt.[/quote']

 

The guilt has begun hahaha.....

 

....well try really hard next week, a new week, a fresh start. You can do it.

home from work

i went to school today' date=' man i am so sick of substitue teachers who cant actually teach. i wasted 4 periods doing nothing when i could have been elsewhere doing other things[/quote']

 

I hear you, I have had so many subs this semester, it is driving me up the walls.

I think about it almost every day.About how many people did or do many important and great things in their lifes.They left something on this planet,the did something really special,and I'm just killing time,and the time is killing me.

The way I think about it, life is all about the memories you have. I believe that memories are all we really have. To me, life is also about the things that make my heart beat increadably fast. It's all about the rush that let's you know your alive.

Is this it?

 

Is this the joys that you get out of life? Because its not good enough.

 

Everytime I look back at a highlight of my day, I realise just how shitty it actually was and how I didnt even appreciate it at the time it happened. Like going out, everytime I go to a club or a pub or a comedy night, I'm left feeling not impressed.

 

I guess it takes a lot to impress me, and thats, crap.

 

A while ago I was really depressed. I was swimming in my pool and I saw a bee struggling in the water so I got it out and tried to dry it and everything. I kept blowing it till it was dry enough then put it on a flower in the sun and came back and it was gone.

 

That made me feel really fulfilled.

Yeah these little things which can really colour our life.One day in the morning I was just walking where I always do and there was an old lady...about 70 years sitting on the bench.I have no idea why, but I sat next to her and we were chatting long time-it was really weird and interesting to chat with person who is 70 when you're 15.I haven't seen her anymore.Maybe she's already dead, maybe not, but that morning I felt myself very unusual, in a good way.

Yeah, that sorta thing makes me feel really nice.