December 26, 200619 yr well, i just turn 17 last last week and i start to realise the differences between 16 and 17 ...i mean i used to have fun with life but now i have to worry about things like will i get into university or not. i have to read more books and study hard which is odd because when i was younger i thought being 17 would be really great.
December 27, 200619 yr Being 15, if I look at myself 1 year ago I am about 5 inches shorter, a lot fatter and a lot like I haven't even started puberty yet.
December 27, 200619 yr Pfftt...im 24 and i look like 18 that's great! i'm 17 and people said i looked like i'm in university :(
December 27, 200619 yr Author When your 17 thats a good thing, it doesnt mean that you look a bad kind of old, it means that you look cool and mature. And it helps for getting into party's. But only a few years later, when your 19, its not a good thing to look 28. Not a good thing.
December 27, 200619 yr i've been thinking about this topic since i turned 20 (now i'm 21). i just hate the fact of getting old, it's as if i've missed some of the most important years of my life, i feel as if i didn't take enough advantage of them... specially when i was 16, 17, 18 and so. i don't think there's such a big difference physically, as you said, i suppose it depends on the kind of life you lead, i mean... if you're a "heathy" person that doesn't have bad habits. anyway, there's nothing you can do, only accept it although i don't want to. if i could, i'd be 18 forever.
December 27, 200619 yr I'm 15 and I feel like I've missed out on a lot of things in my childhood. I'm still a kid of Pete's sake!! :laugh3: Growing old I'm not really worried about, because I feel like I'm an old lady in a little girl's body. But change is what scares me. I just don't like change. Recently I've been through lots of change. Close relatives passing away, and my mom's transferring to a new workplace. I've known her workplace and her co-workers for so long, like they kinda grew with me. So change really makes me depressed. I love the life I had in the past. When I found new interests and found new friends. I love that feeling. And now I'm too tired and busy to try to regain that feeling. It's really sad, really. :(
December 27, 200619 yr I've watched this tv-show today... I hate watching tv but I still did this evening. And there was that girl, she's Russian and she's 16 and she's already been to 10 or whatever world capitals, she won some kind of Tennis Cup, I don't remember which one. Anyway, she was talking about her life, how happy she is, how her parents are proud of her and she was talking about her plans and dreams and all this shit. That just made me feel so sad, I don't know. I can understand all those old grannies who look at young kids and want to be young again. I mean, I'm 16, just like that girl, but I haven't achieved anything she has, you know? It's silly to compare your life with the life of any very successful person, I know, but still. I think about my life and realize I have nothing big, nothing to be proud of. I may die tomorrow with nothing really important done. That's not that I want to be famous or whatever, not that I want people to remember me, it's just for me, you know. It makes me feel really sad that I haven't done anything special and maybe won't ever do. Phew.
December 30, 200619 yr Author Sooooooooo you are jealous of a girl who can hit a little green ball with a racket of string. Find someone else to be jealous of. Im serious here, shes a gifted person who has worked hard at her talent, but you need the gifted part to work hard at it (and thats incredibly unlikely, and if you wish, unfortunate), so dont think too hard about it and work hard at something that is actually within your reach. Soon you'll be content with that.
December 30, 200619 yr Sooooooooo you are jealous of a girl who can hit a little green ball with a racket of string. Find someone else to be jealous of. Im serious here, shes a gifted person who has worked hard at her talent, but you need the gifted part to work hard at it (and thats incredibly unlikely, and if you wish, unfortunate), so dont think too hard about it and work hard at something that is actually within your reach. Soon you'll be content with that. Not that I'm jealous of her. I'm just sad about all these people. Or about myself... I don't know, I just wish I'd have something important by the age of 16. And Crystal... I feel that too, but can't help it.
December 30, 200619 yr you don't know what you want, though? I think you are still young. Maybe this girl missed somethings though.... in life. Maybe a lot of her life went the way it went because of parental pressures... that maybe she will look back upon and hate. That goes for many " seemingly" successful people. Who is to say that they are REALLY happy on the inside? SOmetimes I wonder that. I won't tell you what to do, or even what I think you should do. Most people don't take recommendations too seriously on public forums anyway. *shrugs* I think, just check out that syphilis thread and you should be okay. :laugh4:
December 31, 200619 yr mmhh... i'm 15 and well' date=' uhhmm... i kinda feel old.[/color'] it's not that i look old, but ... i cannot wait to start my actual life. i still have to go to school for 3.5 years though. grr... i wish i could just move out and live on my mown. it's not a fucking teenage thought. i'm serious. however... ageing. erm... it's not too bad until you turn 25. i think life ends at the age of 25. lol. if you haven't fulfilled your dreams until you're 25 then your life has pretty much no sense. (what the fuck did i just type?!) can't wait to turn 16 though. i can finally buy beer then. hrhr. less than a month left... shit.. that's going to be me in 3 years and two months:laugh3:... but to be honest... I feel like it already stopped though. I don't even know what the fuck I want anymore or if I even care. I honestly feel like I don't care anymore...like I could go and hang myself at this moment and not care which is scary because then imagine my struggles on my bad days and I can't point fingers because it doesn't change theway I feel......:\
December 31, 200619 yr you don't know what you want, though? I think you are still young. Maybe this girl missed somethings though.... in life. Maybe a lot of her life went the way it went because of parental pressures... that maybe she will look back upon and hate. That goes for many " seemingly" successful people. Who is to say that they are REALLY happy on the inside? SOmetimes I wonder that. I won't tell you what to do, or even what I think you should do. Most people don't take recommendations too seriously on public forums anyway. *shrugs* I think, just check out that syphilis thread and you should be okay. :laugh4: Yeah, maybe all those successful teens aren't happy, I know. But even if they didn't exist I'd want to do something big. I don't even know what... Of course, I'm young and have (well, probably) much time but I don't know... All those 16 years were kinda... kinda the same? Well, quite pointless I'd say. Anyway, that's all stupid. Why do I even bother? I guess I overthought the night I wrote it. So let's not bring all this hullabaloo in new year :tongue: He-hey, and thanks for your help, Crystal ^_^ If I ever go to the mental hospital you'll be my nurse.
January 1, 200719 yr Yeah, maybe all those successful teens aren't happy, I know. But even if they didn't exist I'd want to do something big. I don't even know what... Of course, I'm young and have (well, probably) much time but I don't know... All those 16 years were kinda... kinda the same? Well, quite pointless I'd say. Anyway, that's all stupid. Why do I even bother? I guess I overthought the night I wrote it. So let's not bring all this hullabaloo in new year :tongue: He-hey, and thanks for your help, Crystal ^_^ If I ever go to the mental hospital you'll be my nurse. I would love to be your nurse! Meet Nurse Crystal: :mad: Sucker! you will be stuck here FOR FREAKING EVER! :wreck:
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