I finally get to find out what the awards are :surprised:

Oh yes.

ALEXA!!!!

Hi there Crest :nice:

How you been? :nice:

Stressed as hell. I cried like crazy this Wednesday.

What about you?

Same here, so much going on.

Sorry to hear that.. wanna talk about it :wacko: ?

I had an accident today at the morgue.

I'll talk about some of it, some I'd rather keep to myself.

but first, what is this accident? :(

Well, after my turn to describe the hands' muscles ended, I went to some corner to check this picture of all the arteries, and the doctor called me to turn off this ventilator that extracts the strong smell or formalin, so I went there to turn it off, and my labcoat got stuck with a heavy metal thing, and I didn't notice, so when I started to walk away it fell off and it hit my leg, it hurts a lot and it was bleeding so they took me to the hospital which is a few meters away :P but I'm ok now :nice:

 

WOOO it's long, so what's up?

Well first of all I'm always afraid to leave my house this week. Not very many people know this, not even my best friends but I'm actually autistic. And the past week I realized how bad I really was and I have to go to a whole new place with people, and the ones I met already think I'm weird except for this one girl who is my new friend named Jacqueline. And seriously, I fail at talking to people and being normal. And I don't want 500 more people thinking I'm a freak. So I've been trying to be as normal as I can, which is succesful alot but by doing that I'm under so much stuff that everything around me freaks me out more. If you know anything about autism you know that we all have sensoory issues or whatever and we can go into panic attacks from even just a single sound. And Thers so many things around and I'm seriously trying not to crawl into a ball or flip out at anyone so I come here and listen to music. And there's alot of other things bugging me, not all of them have to do with that. But I'm afraid if I say some of them I'll stumble across them in the future zand be reminded again of the things I was trying so hard to forget.

 

Oh, and sorry about the long reply.

And also, I'm not retarted, I'm actually the opposite somehow. Just not with everything.

 

:uhoh:

I can't contact my buddies :disappointed:

well there's still plenty of weekend tomorrow :dance:

There's always tomorrow :dance:

yup, I understand you crests, I'm different too in many ways, not as you are but I feel like

 

 

I wish that they'd swoop down in a country lane

Late at night when I'm driving

Take me on board their beautiful ship

Show me the world as I'd love to see it

 

I'd tell all my friends

But they'd never believe

They'd think that I'd finally lost it completely

 

I'd show them the stars

And the meaning of life

They'd shut me away

But I'd be all right

All right..

It's ok :)

I seriously didn't know about it, and I'm really sorry.

But you seem so different here :/, I have a hard time believing that you could seem like a weird one with people.

I know you have that condition, but at least, in school they won't do anything bad to you, maybe just be mean sometimes, but it won't be worse than that. And you're not weird, or different.

All I can say is: be yourself. You can't pretend, cause it's a plus on all the things that can stress you.

I'm sure you'll do fine, you just need to adjust a little.

And if I'm being a little stupid about this whole thing tell me :stunned:

It's ok :)

I seriously didn't know about it, and I'm really sorry.

But you seem so different here :/, I have a hard time believing that you could seem like a weird one with people.

I know you have that condition, but at least, in school they won't do anything bad to you, maybe just be mean sometimes, but it won't be worse than that. And you're not weird, or different.

All I can say is: be yourself. You can't pretend, cause it's a plus on all the things that can stress you.

I'm sure you'll do fine, you just need to adjust a little.

And if I'm being a little stupid about this whole thing tell me :stunned:

 

seriously, somehow nobody can tell even in real life :confused:

I guess it's most noticable from the inside.

I'm only sometimes a weird one though.

:blush:

What do you want to know? :wacko:

I think Alexerz gave you a nice advice, be yourself

*listens to music and relaxes*

It's because you look so much like the person I should be :P

But seriously, is it that bad?

I think that would be alot easier :nice:

 

I am that person though, I just fail at talking to people sometimes, but then other times I can't shut up :P

 

I really don't know if it's that bad.

It probably isn't.

I think Alexerz gave you a nice advice, be yourself

*listens to music and relaxes*

 

Thanks Richard :wacky:

I know it's stupid but I'm trying to think like a doctor :confused:

I think that would be alot easier :nice:

 

I am that person though, I just fail at talking to people sometimes, but then other times I can't shut up :P

 

I really don't know if it's that bad.

It probably isn't.

 

But that's normal.

Look, I'm not a very talkative person. But sometimes I just never shut up.

That isn't weird, it can be a good thing.

Thanks Richard :wacky:

I know it's stupid but I'm trying to think as a doctor :confused:

Why would it be stupid?

oui.

 

But thats only a small part of whats bugging me :uhoh:

you think like a doctor well :P

Why would it be stupid?

 

Cause I'm still a lame med student who is more likely to repeat anatomy and embryology? :P

oui.

 

But thats only a small part of whats bugging me :uhoh:

you think like a doctor well :P

 

Thanks :wacky:

Well Crestie, if you need to talk I'm here for some more hours :wacky:

I'm glad I came here :D