I think I am just having some kind of mental breakdown

 

 

and I am not joking

 

and you will hate me for this thread

 

but please help me

what's wrong? :(

Think about rainbows :nice:

well, I was just having some trouble with my best friend....and we are talking right now...and then we were wondering if there is some sense in this friendship left and suddenly I felt hurt so much and I started crying like hell.....wow

:\ don't cry..

was it something worth fighting over?

i don't think you should stop being friends over something not worth it.. :hug:

then again idk :shame: i just don't want you to be sad.

i know how it feels to lose a friend :hug:

talk it out..

well the quite funny thing is that I am feeling so much better right now...because we've finally talked about something we've never really talked about which is quite stupid...so I guess all this crying and stuff was a good thing

I always feel better after crying, I really do.

 

 

 

Not that I cry much but :uhoh:

it's ok :D we girls cry alot.. :shame:

 

i'm glad you feel better :kiss: be happy.

i sent enrico to the thread :wacky: he saw it ♥

ahahaaa I am glad he saw it:dance:

aw :( do you like each other as friends?

ohh I'm sorry you're feeling that, Jules :hug:

well, I was getting to that point that I wouldn't really care about her anymore....and I was having this a lot with former friends of mine...but we've made it to talk about it, but didn't really find a solution to change it because we are quite different when it comes to expectations of a friendship....so she asked me if there is any sense in it and I started crying like hell...and at the same time I started talking about my problems...that I feel so lonely and stuff (we were talking on icq)....I have never really talked about this with her before I don't even know why...and she finally realised what my main problem in my whole life is haha.-..I think this was a thing that was always between us although it's not a big deal.....so this breakdown was a good thing after all....it showed me that I still really care about her and it made me talk about some important things about myself...

 

and in the background there was "My body is a cage" by Arcade fire:wacky:

how beautiful! I want to listen to that song now ...... What is it like usually with you and friends who you don't care about anymore? I guess I've done similar things but usually there was something that pulled me/us away..... And now you've talked about it to her? Like what did you say?

yes now that I think of this situation haha...I don't know when the last time was that I've cried so much and then this song in the background omg....it was just there...I mean the song wowo...

 

well, usually I got sick of these friends and started acting strange and then I quit the friendship...:\

 

well or main problem was/is that she expect much more from a friendship than I do....she wants to meet me quite a lot and I act as if I don't care about seeing her...and usually she is the one who asks me if we should go out and I just say yes as if I don't care...and this is what was bothering her....and I was bothered by her always cricising me, esp. because of this...so I told her that I am used to be alone and that's why I probably don't care so much...and she said I should change this...and I told her that I can't....and then finally she realised that simple thing that I need a boyfriend so much....and after that it got better haha----:wacky:

 

that sounds so stupid.....but I made it to talk to her about my problems....that I am used to be alone, because I have always hated myself and she couldn't really understand why I do...and she said this feeling about myself will never change when I don't go out often (which is right.....well the feeling has changed actually....).so....yeah

this is so sad but I need to get my booty sleep. Someone kept me awake late last night :disappointed: :censored:

oooh I need to go to sleep, too....damn work tomorrow....:disappointed:

yes now that I think of this situation haha...I don't know when the last time was that I've cried so much and then this song in the background omg....it was just there...I mean the song wowo...

 

well, usually I got sick of these friends and started acting strange and then I quit the friendship...:\

 

well or main problem was/is that she expect much more from a friendship than I do....she wants to meet me quite a lot and I act as if I don't care about seeing her...and usually she is the one who asks me if we should go out and I just say yes as if I don't care...and this is what was bothering her....and I was bothered by her always cricising me, esp. because of this...so I told her that I am used to be alone and that's why I probably don't care so much...and she said I should change this...and I told her that I can't....and then finally she realised that simple thing that I need a boyfriend so much....and after that it got better haha----:wacky:

 

that sounds so stupid.....but I made it to talk to her about my problems....that I am used to be alone, because I have always hated myself and she couldn't really understand why I do...and she said this feeling about myself will never change when I don't go out often (which is right.....well the feeling has changed actually....).so....yeah

 

I really wish I could help you to understand these issues... I think I was going through a similar thing in a way. It was like there's nothing terribly wrong in my life but somehow I felt awful. Every situation is different of course. But it's true that having friends and having a close companion is very important I believe... For a while I was super depressed ...... I remember crying so hard and thinking that NOTHING could ever make me happy in life, even meeting someone perfect or having the perfect job, etc... That was before I was talking to isabel :heart: and everything changed right away.... she's so sweet... and I trust her..... it's important..... And I was so wrong about not being happy....... When something good finally happens..... it will make sense........ I hope....... You're a really important person to me Julia :kiss: goodnight germ :hug:

I really wish I could help you to understand these issues... I think I was going through a similar thing in a way. It was like there's nothing terribly wrong in my life but somehow I felt awful. Every situation is different of course. But it's true that having friends and having a close companion is very important I believe... For a while I was super depressed ...... I remember crying so hard and thinking that NOTHING could ever make me happy in life, even meeting someone perfect or having the perfect job, etc... That was before I was talking to isabel :heart: and everything changed right away.... she's so sweet... and I trust her..... it's important..... And I was so wrong about not being happy....... When something good finally happens..... it will make sense........ I hope....... You're a really important person to me Julia :kiss: goodnight germ :hug:

 

I think this is exactly how I feel. There is nothing terribly wrong but I feel awful....and I guess that's why I kept acting towards her as if I didn't care about her or our friendship which is not true...I will try to change it and she said she wants to help to do so....and I hope we will finally make it

 

I am really happy for you, because I know that you were really depressed:kiss:

 

and seeing people who felt the same way like me finding their happiness gives me hope (btw....I don't know why but I just loved the "be happy" at the end of what you wrote in my card:wacky:)

 

goodnightyco and thank you:hug:

oh shit and I have just realised that I am still feeling quite sad inside, because it feels like I lost her although I didn't...