That reminds me of the Quantum Theory! (they puted me an example where you had 2 gloves, each one in a box. They suddenly open and it's the left-hand glove, so the open te other one and it's the right-hand glove; then they asked you something like "Did the glove 'change'? "What was it before we open it, etc...)

Often And I did something awful;I tried to run away

Running away is not awful. I believe it is a much better alternative than what some people choose(suicide). Sometimes you just need to get away. If no one gets hurt then its not bad.

or feel the pain?

is that like cutting yourself? *shivers* Thats never a good idea. Its quite pointless too. It makes you weaker and definitely no more happy.

I dont like pain....I want to take the pain away....but thats it.

no pain. pain is bad. aahhh

Pain is desire, to eliminate desire you must follow the eightfold path. (more on that story later)

Have you ever been so F-ed up that

...whatdo you mean?...

Have you ever been so F-ed up that...you know you got a ton of sh*t to do but you're in no mood to do it, other thoughts invade and conqur your mind, you feel useless in life and feel like you're living a nightmare, and you feel like doing something awful just to see you hurt or feel the pain?

all the time, except its angst, not pain :dozey:

for anger i play guitar loud or punch a punching bag

for sadness i watch funny stuff on you tube

for bordom watch anime ^^ or i use my list

and for breakups........ FRIENDS

 

actually friends is best answer for all the above...

 

oh and just ask if u want more details on or a copy of 'the list'