sorry for the ear pain :( are you taking some medicine or it?

 

i guess then i don't have that many problems, or i try them not to care me. :thinking: until all of a sudden i explode and go into random days when anything makes me cry.

thought recently i get angry so easily, cause i feel frustrated, but that's another story.

 

exercise? i prefer to read or write, although i could better do it in the morning, but as you said night is more quiet so i can concentrate more, if i try to read or write in the morning something disturbs it.

Yeah, I'm getting some meds.

 

I don't have problems right now, but usually I tend to stay up just to relax and forget about them. Lately I've been in such a great mood :nice: You should not really focus on shit.

 

Well, I have to keep myself healthy. I usually read but I got used to reading in crowded, noisy places.

i hope it be better soon :)

 

i see what you mean, you are right and i use to be positive, but uff some days you can't do much even if you try hard.

 

hehe that remind me of a friend at high school, once the teacher didn't came, and we studied another subject and we all were silent, and she randomly said:

'C'MON TALK AND MAKE NOISE, I CAN'T CONCENTRATE AND STUDY IN SO MUCH SILENCE'

we all were like :wtf: you serious? -btw she was one of the best students-

 

me for read i can not mind -depends if i'm reading an essay or simply a novel-, in fact at times i read when tv is on or music is on, or even both :freak: but to write i need to be in a quiet mood and so a bit of silence is appreciated.

Thanks :nice:

Ohh I see. Well yeah, it can get difficult sometimes but I try to remind myself that it's only temporary, I hope you get to feel better fast when you're not going through happy times.

 

LOLOLOL, I can't read with noise, but since I have to study in school sometimes I got used to a crowd or with my iPod, but if I'm home I tend to go for a quiet moment.

What kind of stuff do you write?

well as i said i mainly feel frustrated, i should had finished uni, but i did failed a subject, and this year i didn't went to uni cause i prefered to move city and get a job but that was impossible, so as result i feel my year was a waste and not productive at all, althought i did other great things in the human-family way :nice:

btw i don't mean i'm that frustrated-angry-depressed now, luckily i'm much better now, but last months were so moody at times.

 

yes i can be ok listening to music when reading and so, but definitelly not too noisy nor too quiet, when is too quiet in a room i find it scary :uhoh:

 

i used to write lots of 'poetry', last years moved more to novels, right now is an attempt of sci-fi one, where there are astral travels and so -that's why in the reading thread i asked for a good book of this genre, but no reply at all *imitates genesis song*-

Oh well I wasted a year too. Decided to not study after I finished high school to relax and feel excited about college, but sometimes I regret it so much, but things happen for a reason :nice: It was ok as well cos I got to spend time with people and try other things.

So no worries, just see it as another experience and learn from that :D

 

Are you trying to write a book? Like.. sell it and stuff?

yes i see it that way, most of the times, i see it the good side. problem comes when i look back (or forward) and feel i'm guilty for my situation or something.

 

i've been writing since long ago, only my close friends knew it at first, then my literature teachers and language teachers then, it felt strange to show them, anyways many years after that yeah i'm trying to publish something, but i still think i'm not good enough and i need to improve a lot of things and so :freak:

even thought a publisher contacted me some months ago interested in what i've written, and a friend may adapt a play i wrote years ago to do it on stage, also i finally tried luck in some writing contests here, but i was no lucky. -well is not the first writer that gets their work rejected several times and then make it a hit -

but officially i would not say i'm a writer -yet-, just trying to be one, but is hard and long way.

 

if i'm not wrong, you study medicine, right?

how it went? better than you thought?

Haha but you don't have to feel guilty! It's your life, you make mistakes but that doesn't have to make you feel guilty unless you hurt people you love. Just say "Well, I fucked up.. but it's no one's business and I'm fine with it :dozey:"

 

Oh I see! Well, it's a good sign that a publisher got interested! Maybe you need more inspiration? Or you could take a course or I dunno, practice everyday. You just need to write whatever makes you feel something, or find a story you want to tell.

 

Yes, I'm a medical student starting 2nd year on Monday.

Yes, it's a lot better than I thought. I'm very happy and excited about this!

so right you are. :)

 

yes is a great sign, i'll work with him many years, we'll see.

now i'm reading more and so, and it helps me to improve, and i have many projects and 'plots' just i need time and inspiration to finish them, or i need to get info about stuff i want to mention before i write it.

 

thanks for your wishes :)

 

so early second year?

when you finished, wasn't it few weeks ago? short holidays there i think.

that's great, thing is one does what they like and feel good, isn't it. :D

That's very good, if you ever wanna show some stuff I'd like to read. I think the key about writing comes with inspiration, without it, you're sooo screwed :( I've never tried to write anything, cos I suck at it.

 

I finished first year on May :D I was so happy cos I had trouble early this year with that, I was scared I'd fail and almost got out, but I managed to do a great job so I have no more fear.

Yes it is. My definitive goal now.

yes you are right -well each one their own i guess, i mean different people different motivations/inspirations to write and ways to get motivated, i use mines and that's it-, i take note you be interested in reading them -althought last project is in spanish-.

 

oh, i'm sure if you try you'll do good :) i thought i was really bad at first.

 

May, then that's a good rest 2 months. I thought you finished in late june. althought the more the better for holidays, not?

yes i saw you were a bit scared, -thought i didn't frequent you thread, cause we never got to talk much... i guess today it has changed a bit-.

 

it is a great goal, congrats :D

btw is your country affected by the european change? -here we are going through the bologna process thing right now: all degrees will turn into 4 years and then a master if you want the higher degree-.

Haha no no, I won't write anything :lol: Maybe just a bit of.. poetry-ish crap, but it's mainly done to express myself.

 

I actually got sick of having so much time for myself! But I got to exercise a lot, reduce the amount of cigarettes I smoke and I'm feeling better :nice: I even got to date a few people.

Thanks!

Medical school is different.

well i kinda started that way like 14 years ago :uhoh: -gosh i feel so old now-

 

smoker? didn't knew that. good for exercise and be more healthy :)

yay for dating, good ones?

 

yes i know medical school is different but i think they wanted to do that change even here, :facepalm:

so far last year my school didn't knew how to adapt to the new system but we'll have only 2 or 3 years to adapt. :confused:

How old are you? If you don't mind me asking.

 

Haha, yeah, sadly I'm a smoker.. but not as bad as before.

Most of my dates were awful.. a few were decent but I didn't feel the magic.

 

Haha sorry. Medical school tends to be longer. Also after medical school comes specializing and other shit so it's like a never ending thing :wreck:

i'm 23, but well i had the clear idea i wanted to be a writer since i was around 9 :thinking:

 

sadly i'm a passive smoker myself. you started to smoke recently?

some my friends started to smoke when finishing high school due to the stress of exams, funny thing is one of them, still smokes, only when we go it, she is like 'i can't take a drink and not smoke'. :sick:

 

auch, sorry to hear that :(

may the right one is where you don't expect it to be.

 

yes i know is so long one -some friends study medicine too-, good luck.

you have any idea of in which you want to specialize?

Cool! I didn't wanna be a doctor when I was 9 :uhoh:

 

I started smoking when I was 16 years old cos I felt curious. I tried it, and I liked it. I'm turning 21 on November.

It's rather difficult to be a smoker cos people who hate smoke complain a lot about it, and I have some health issues so I have to stop.

 

It's not like I'm desperate to find someone. Dating is fun. I might find someone soon.

 

The idea is to become a neurologist, but I think that I will become a cardiologist for sure :thinking: not because I want it but because I seem to be very good at things related to the heart.

well my idea was to work in something that will involve writing as a creative thing.

i mean i went in periods when i wanted to be a film director, play writer and so, even songwriter, but as my point of a writer involved any of those...

 

pretty early you started. well around that age i would say i started, my dad gave me a cigarette and i didn't liked it, i'm glad he did, probably if i would had to do so hidden i'll be a smoker today.

 

if you have health issues it'll be better you quit it the sooner you can, i guess.

and yes some people get picky about it, well it can be annoying if they blow the smoke directly or is a crowded room with many smokers.

 

well at times one find out secret gifts we have, i guess. as long as you are happy and good with it is good. :)

anyways is first year, may be neurology part you'll study is better for the upcoming years.

Oh I see, it's like when I wanted to pick a career based on medicine but not medicine itself.

Well, we both seem to be doing what we love, so no worries :D

 

I kept it secret from my dad for 4 years, I told my mom right away when I started cos she's very cool about stuff. But yes, I'm quitting, but it takes time and it's by steps, so I need to be patient. And no, I was never rude to do that, but people look at you.. and it's weird.

 

I'm getting neurology as a subject when I'm in 4th year (haha wow, it's gonna be a long time) but let's just keep fingers crossed!

yes, that's what matters most :)

 

i've seen some people be way rude about that too, i think they are going too crazy about it here, but well is just my opinion, i mean they are banning it but not helping people to quit it or apologize for the damage done and share the huge profit they got from it -here government takes a good part of the profit-

 

long time you hid it. see my cousins were like you, they smoke behind their dad. now they quitted it after getting married or so.

 

*cross fingers*

see i know very few about how your degree is structured :embarrassed:

but at least you have an idea of what you'd you'd like to specialize.

Oh yeah definitely, smoking is being banned a lot. I'm ok with it tbh, but I just dislike when people judge when sometimes they do stuff that's even worse :thinking:

 

Haha, yeeeah, I did.. Last year I just decided to tell him cos I was sick of hiding it. I told him recently I'm quitting, he seems happy <3

 

Haha, it's ok, you don't have to know the structure, but yeah. The point is to graduate :D

that's true, other things are better seeing now. :thinking:

as when students got get drunk here 4 days a week :uhoh: i don't see the point, but well is just serious me i guess. but thing is at least here government -all the ones we had- are hypocrite about it, cause they get profit from it but are not responsible of the illness it cause, isn't it be hypocrite?

 

probably cause you decided to quit, which is a great decition.

 

true that, well the point if graduate and pass all subjects, cause technically i'm graduated but i have that subject yet pending -i'll be all paranoid if i happen to have more subjects than this one-.

LOL, yeah, that's a problem. Yes it is hypocritical to do it and not take necessary measures on dealing with the effects of being addicted to something. Unethical if you ask me.

 

Well, in my school I can't graduate if I don't pass all my subjects, I won't have the right to go for my intern rotation if I don't pass all my subjects, so yeah, I plan to pass everything :P

You should go get rid off that subject.

yes, it's been like that all the time, just to say, it was only warned that it is risky to smoke since 1986... and what about the previous decades? they do reckon to add more crap to it since then? -i think people get illness smoking mostly for the crappy additives the cigarettes contain now-

 

is what i plan, get rid of it this year, even if i need to go to an academy. :bomb:

 

see it should be like that here, my school -whole uni- let you graduate with your 'year' even when you have half the degree subjects pending to pass. :confused:

i think is plently weird, in fact i made a complain about it and everybody was a mix of :freak: & :angry: with me.

Yes, cigarettes are so full of shit. You're right, the chemicals fuck up many things in your body. But somehow, passive smokers are more likely to get sick :thinking: well I've heard.

 

Haha, do it!

It's silly that they got mad at you because of it, they're still lying to themselves if they think they graduate even if they didn't pass :confused:

*panics* i've been a passive smoker like all my life. :sick:

 

that's why i did complain, it made no sense at all, to do that just for the 'social' part of it.

all i know is cause of their :angry: faces i finally graduated last year -one year later than my 'year'- and i was not in the celebration mood at all, in fact once the ceremony finished i came home and didn't went party.