Mojan

I don't really have anyone to talk to, my mama is always working (besides she works on a different side of the UK), my papa doesnt want anything to do with me and my brother is always at work too. What scares me most is that it's been an ever-present feeling throughout my life, just that it's intensified lately. Everyone around my has a pretty clear idea of who they are and, which uni they'll go what they want to do in future but I have gender dysphoria and have no idea of if I should transition or not, I can't afford uni and I have no idea of what i want to do or any real passion.

Has anyone here ever gone through an existential crisis? It didn't sorta come outta nowhere, it's always really been there but I think the fact that I'm about to become an adult and I have so many expectations and responsibilities on my shoulders made it worse. The pressure to balance my education (which is going to be fecking unaffordable), maintaining the household and becoming something is really getting to me. It feels like being intoxicated is my only escape from the pressures of reality. I just feel really scared that I'm being sucked into student debt, getting and office job and dying as a nobody on pension. I don't want to die as a nobody, I want to accomplish things but I can't because neither I nor my mama can afford to help me. Sorry for the weird rant, I feel I can exprss my feelings better when my inhibitions are lower Is it normal at my age? How can it get through it? It's really starting to affect my daily life :/

That's something I've never paid attention to. How has it changed? (not saying that it hasn't but I'm just curious about the change)

Where is this?? It's amazing.

Look at what arrived in the post this morning:bliss:

Hello! Welcome home :drinking:

Automatic? No, unfortunately.

My phone got damaged and repairing it means losing everything on it. My whole collection of Coldplay pictures and buckin gifs :sad2:.

Interesting...any idea how I can change my VPN?

No, I've bought lottery tickets a few times before so who knows, maybe one day i will :bliss:. Have you ever had a runny nose in public but didn't have tissue or a hankie?

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No but I've been close [emoji28] [emoji1] . Have you ever run for your bus but still missed it? Sent from my SM-A300FU using Coldplaying mobile app

What was it? Sent from my SM-A300FU using Coldplaying mobile app

Oh, same one I thought. By road, I meant the roadman type. Sent from my SM-A300FU using Coldplaying mobile app

Wait, which "peng" were you refering to? Sent from my SM-A300FU using Coldplaying mobile app

You're not road enough. Sent from my SM-A300FU using Coldplaying mobile app

Welcome and make yourself at home [emoji16] [emoji4] . Sent from my SM-A300FU using Coldplaying mobile app

Yeah, a few times while I used to live in Nigeria. I eat anything plus I love trying new things[emoji28] Sent from my SM-A300FU using Coldplaying mobile app

Ahaha your spoiler . Sent from my SM-A300FU using Coldplaying mobile app

Only just [emoji28] Let me try again, do you prefer tea or coffee? Sent from my SM-A300FU using Coldplaying mobile app

Not yet but I probably will when I join the army . Have you ever put something in the oven and forgotten about it? Sent from my SM-A300FU using Coldplaying mobile app

I prefer the summer, I hate the cold. (BTW snakes do actually taste good). Do you prefer tea or coffee? Sent from my SM-A300FU using Coldplaying mobile app

How can you tell? Sent from my SM-A300FU using Coldplaying mobile app

Hey guys, I want to buy this Parachutes album that was signed by the guy's while at HMV Oxford Street. The price is £50. Any advice on what I should offer and if it's legit? Sent from my SM-A300FU using Coldplaying mobile app

Erm nope. Thankfully. Have you ever been caught staring at someone by the person you were staring at? Sent from my SM-A300FU using Coldplaying mobile app