Christiana

led zeppelin - self-titled - released in 1969 - our grandchildren will still be listening to this music.

oooooo - i see a beatdown in somebody's future... don't mess with the ren-inator!! :stunned:

that is just beautiful eric. how can you not see where you can go on your wave of creativity?

real subtle sam :rolleyes: :lol:

xbox regular or decaf

why do i sit and watch a movie that i KNOW is going to make me cry - what the hell is wrong with me?

oh ok - well i have insomnia - so doesn't this just work out fabulous :D

vegaz - you are on the train to funky town :P and here is a lovely companion for you. :lol:

doing anything creative brings out the hypercritical part in all of us. most of the people in history who said "i am the greatest" weren't (except maybe ali) - anyway... it is that doubt that gives the work it's humanity and vunerability. and that is when people connect with art - when it touches a part of their soul. look at chris martin, there are so many interviews where he feels like he is crap, and he waffles around on what to do, and doesn't make sense half the time... but look at what that insecurity produces and how it makes us feel. it is like looking into another person's soul... i have read your poetry thread and i think you are very gifted. you can communicate angst and the human condition of needing very effectively. not everyone can do that. it would be a damn shame not to try.

i thought you just woke up - is that what you eat for breakfast?? :P

coldplay ac/dc or metallica

chris certainly seems to be doing a lot of toting, moving, hauling... call me crazy, but can't he afford someone to do that for him? :P

yeah - i hate money sometimes. i don't know exactly what your school situation is... but if you want to change direction, just get whatever jobs and work as much as you can and sock away money while you have the advantage of a lower overhead - then go do your thing. there are others just like you who want to pursue art, writing, music - and you could then find a roomie and be a starving artist - but i bet you would be happier than you are now.

nah - we are still here - we just say that once in awhile as a reminder that some people actually do sleep. good morning mr. new zealand!!

the 60's - i would love to have been a real hippie flower child :) and actually have seen jimi hendrix and janis joplin in person.

but the bottom line is - you have to be the one living in your skin. if you live for someone else's idea of what you should do - you are still going to be just as alone as if you took the chance and failed. it is not easy to break from the path you think you are supposed to be on, but sometimes it isn't just a whim, it is survival. you have to live your life and hope that in your finding your happiness and fulfillment, those who you love, will realize it was the right thing to do.

we have now progressed to include: goats, gold, and cheese. this could get a bit tricky ;) :lol:

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good lord - i am continually reminded of why i hated high school :lol: broccoli - no, i don't thnk so - green is not my best color :P

i guess that makes sense... it just seems like you are expecting to cross some kind of life checkpoint (until you are done with what?). and in this interim, when you are young, and don't have the responsiblity of a child, or house payment, or the other "american dream" things... it just seems that there are so many opportunities to chase that happiness.

what happened - how does someone just decide "oh we aren't friends" - that bites!! but it is quite an ecclectic list of items you got there ;)

eric you say these things, but i am never exactly sure what the gist of the problem is :/ . i think you think i share too much of my feelings here and maybe i do, but i don't share them anywhere else with anybody else - i put on the happy face because i HAVE to. and i have found that pretense can often almost trick me into feeling better. i think both happiness and sadness are habits we have some control over. but what do i know? :confused:

holy hell what is that?? :stunned:

wouldn't i be a bit.... bulky?? :confused:

well kids i am going to try to go to bed too - busy day tomorrow. take care.... be good. good night mandy and snuggles :sneaky: :lol: