The Mad Hatter

funny how i couldn't wait to come home, and now i wish that i was in morgantown instead i'm going to change my heart and the past can't stop me

hai roadie

^dirk

i think i do love you. i think this is the closest to perfect that my life has ever been. just follow me; i don't know how to follow. what happened to you? you're rougher, but you still aren't a man. you're a boy wearing his father's shoes and tie, playing dress up. i guess you just grew your first patch of facial hair. why can't you just be who you were? why did you change when you were perfect? i guess it's ridiculous that i will always miss you.

i learned in geology that the rocks on the west coast are also not able to transmit waves as well because of their age, whereas the rocks on the east coast are different and better for it or something lol i fell asleep during that lecture lol

yawn

it's so funny how everything felt so hopeless yesterday, and now everything feels absolutely amazing. and my dreams even made me happy. i have something to do now.

Going in the pet store on High Street Making marvelous headway in Cyrillic Realizing I have a future

oh god oh god this saved my day

nobody ever told me it would be this hard or this scary. i feel like i'm just standing in front of the rest of my life, and all i can think about is the immediate in contrast with the future. what do i want. what do i even want. my heart feels like it's breaking every day. i don't know what i've lost, or what i feel like i'm losing...or what i might want to lose. i feel lonely, even when i'm with my friends. i don't want to go home, but i want to go home. everybody else has everything figured out. she wants to be a music teacher. he wants to go to law school. i don't want anything. i mean, i know what i want, i think, but nobody would expect it, and nobody would want me to have it. i don't care about disappointing anybody. i just don't know how to do this. the more i watch this hypocrisy and the more i watch this people fill with people who believe in a doctrine of hatred, the more i want to change this. i'm only one person. sometimes i feel like i'm the only one, but i know that they want to be righteous, they truly believe they are correct, but they don't understand... but how can i say i do? you're hurting me now. you're just hurting me. i'm trying so hard to care. i want to still care. i want everything to work; i don't know what i would do now without you. i guess i'm just like the people that i always hated. before i changed. i don't want to be alone. that's it. except that's not why i want to work. i don't want to miss something that might actually work. i'm going to try. maybe i'm like my dad. i can't make it work if you won't leave me alone when i need you to. maybe nobody can see that this is all falling apart. i know the only escape will be class. am i happy? am i even fucking happy?

lmao, i love this video. --- you really hurt my feelings.

i call it a stronghold because it protects me from earthquakes... :laugh3:

call it what you want.

i was in the business and economics stronghold and felt nothing. apparently, the stupid earthquake set off alarms all over campus and a few buildings got evacuated because of it. nobody who was inside really felt anything. except for my boyfriend, who made a point to tell me he was pooping at the time.

I am.

that picture of them about to kiss is kinda gross. not because i care, but because of their facial expressions. they both look sick. lol

wake me if you're out there

all of my professors so far have been ridiculously attractive what the heck i need to get into geology, fo sho :|

my uterus hurts i have my first class in an hour my hair is wet i hope i don't get all sweaty i hope i'm not bad at russian i have geology like all freakin' day after this class i hate science i want to go home i get to go home on friday i want friday to happen now i can't get my books until next week i want to go home i only want to go home when i get nervous about classes i want to go home

yellow bottle sipping

I wouldn't have good taste in music or cool friends.

that's what i do.

Oh, I did this already and voted "it's awesome". -facepalm-

I think it's okay.

your lives look so perfect through the lens. i believe she's changed for the better, but i don't know if you have...you're still the same, and you still don't love me... i can't fall asleep now. i have to go buy things. i have to pack. i have to leave tomorrow. i don't want to go away.