couldnt find it, it wasnt in my subscrubed threads

 

i just remember that will (redundancy) thought i was suicidal and i was gonna hurt myself or something :shocked: I was seriously frustrated and depressed

oh. i'm not that bad. but u know what she said gal. so it definetly has shaken me up over the whole thing.

btw how has the new girl settled in at ur work?

yeah, i know

but the point is that you're probably just really mad now, and i dont think communicating with ppl when you're raged can get u very far. So might as well wait a couple of days, cool down abit, and things will be just fine :)

 

she's settled in ok. My boss asked me if he can test her and if she would pass. And i told him she would pass with high marks :)

but i still need to help her with some stuff (like connecting her to the internet when she's bored)

 

but to be honest, i liked it better when it was just me. It was like being the only child, i got all the attention :p

wow, i just read my other post

 

i wasnt really suicidal, i was just sad

it just came off that way in what i said

yeah.theres a fine line when ur really really sad, and actually being suicidal

yes that's true...

i said some things like

"why does everything always turn out bad, and sometimes u just dont wanna live anymore and deal with things"

that was frustration, not suicidal thoughts

cool... thanks gal...

you are on early for you... normally you dont come on for another couple hours. good to have you on. anyway i have to go for dinner. i will think about this all in the next half hour.

 

 

u were talking to ME???!! :P

 

oh, hey Green Eyes. :)

no, i think he was reffering to me :)

 

what's up Lana?

hahaha. competition for my speaking to...

;)

.. i propose a battle between you two!...

hi lana, my name is josh

haha no battle :)

 

so... what else is new?

nth much green eyes, lol

oh & hi Josh, nice to meet u. i hope we've helped u a bit here .

yeah thanks.

i'm doing some homework now.. so once i've done that i think i'll speak to her. wait she is online now!

 

*gal i was so tired today because stayed up till midnight talking to you about the whole thing. i was practically falling asleep during maths.

hehe... i came to the conclusion that when u get up at 7am, that's when i go to sleep at midnight... :)

hope that didnt cause u any trouble :)

 

im going upstairs now to where i work (right now im in my mom's office). I hope i can log on there, depends on the girls that with me...

we'll know in about 5-10 mins :lol:

ok. have fun!

ok, im back at my mom's office

 

the other worker took over my internet stand :cry:

now im gonna be online less because i feel bad asking her to get off the computer, or i can just stay in my mom's office, but i feel bad doing that too

 

this sucks

theres a quote from a book we studied in english earlier this year, and i think it pretty much sums up what has happened with me and her;

 

'sometimes friendships become too close, and you ignite hidden grievances'

 

or something along those lines. i just hope we can both over come it.

she needs to change her atittude though... and stop using people.

i love her to bits as a friend but there are certain bits of her psyche that totally repulse me, such as that using aspect. until she is aware of that as begins to conciously change it, i don't think i can be friends with her.

its hard to commit to... but its the most unfortunate truth and it has to be done... for her...

are u planning on telling her this?

 

because how will she know u expect her to change if u guys dont talk about it?

 

u love her as a friend, and it would be horrible if things between u 2 will go bad just because u didnt communicate

i think writing a letter is always the best way to go, but give her the letter when you're beside her. It's just that through a letter u will be able to say everything without being disturbed and u can make sure u're not sending out the wrong impression

yorik

 

josh, mocko

 

 

i actually really think that posting this on coldplaying wasnt the worst idea you seem to really know a few of these people.

 

 

You've been given some really good advice, but so far i can't see that you've taken any of it! Either from me, fish or any of these guys.

 

At the start of the thread you said you didnt want to show weakness by approaching her, and you wanted her to come to you and apologize, but from what i can see she has tried to do this and you haven't wanted to talk to her.

 

Yes, i know what she said was mass-arseholish, and i think she knows what she did was wrong, but theres no way either of you are going to know what the other wants unless you talk. so communicate. call her! or let her call you! do something, coz you don't like this, she doesn't like it, and yes you'll both learn from it, but only if you talk about it.

 

ttyl

mwa mocko

 

ps. Liz says hi

alas he joins... yes well i wanted her to read this thread to see how i'm feeling. how did you get the thread?

what?

you're making her read this thread instead of telling her yourself

 

i think that'll only make her mad at u

i don't care... its my 'letter' to her.

i don't want to cut corners when i speak to her. she needs to know everything...

gal, mrockc is my friend casey

gal-casey are introduced....

I was running with liz and popped into hayden for 5 minutes. it was on her screen... So yeh, I think being strong and whatevers really nice, but i think shes got the point, when she tries to speak to you next, just listen and see what she has to say... you don't have to agree or forgive her, but listen to her, and im not sure about the effectiveness of a forum involving third parties as a means of communications between the two of you; I guess it's a good way to start but now you need to listen to what(if anything) she has to say. ie. "it was a joke, i was wrong, i'm sorry"

 

The only way this will resolve and be better for both of you is if you let her talk to you

 

cm

i will.... when she has realised she has to change as a person and to cut the crap...

i will still listen. but you dont tell someone that, even if it is a joke. its just not cool.

morckc >>>

hey r ya the friend that josh that had a fight with?!!!!!!!!!!:thinking:

lol. no he isn't. hes one of my 'guy' friends. the person in the argument is a girl....