kinda

sometimes I wonder why people can't take it serious when you say I hate my life....ok it's a strong word....but somehow I do....and when I try to talk about it with friends nobody understands it...damn it...

Maybe you could try getting away from the people around you and the place you live? It could be hard, but a fresh start is what a lot of people need.

 

hehe... thanks... I don't know.... I feel like if I can't be with the people I've been with so long, then I am not being true to myself. But there are some hurtful things that happened in the past for me. Sometimes I also think the same thing that you said, I need to get away.

 

I am also sure that some people here depend on me for a few things. blahhh it's a difficult decision, and I need someone to make it for me :wacky:

sometimes I wonder why people can't take it serious when you say I hate my life....ok it's a strong word....but somehow I do....and when I try to talk about it with friends nobody understands it...damn it...

 

well it depends on the hate. if you hate it, but you try to make it better, that is ok. i agree with that, and I feel the same in some ways

well it depends on the hate. if you hate it, but you try to make it better, that is ok. i agree with that, and I feel the same in some ways

 

well, according to the things I have I don't hate it....I have a job, I have friends, etc...but there is something missing and something is totally fucked up in my mind since some years...and I don't get rid of it...and this is killing me

I'm not anyone to you, but I say do it. Get away if you can and if you feel you'll better yourself. I know you don't want to be selfish and leave behind the people who are depending on you, but you can't always live to make others happy, especially to the neglect of your own needs. It's then you realize who your true friends are, or at least that was how it felt for me. :nice:

no i am not

... i dunno...i an in a confused teenage stage... the one where i don't give a f*ck about half the stuff... It's gonna be a long summer.

well, according to the things I have I don't hate it....I have a job, I have friends, etc...but there is something missing and something is totally fucked up in my mind since some years...and I don't get rid of it...and this is killing me

 

I wish I could help with this :( It makes sense, but there must be something you want to change...

 

I'm not anyone to you, but I say do it. Get away if you can and if you feel you'll better yourself. I know you don't want to be selfish and leave behind the people who are depending on you, but you can't always live to make others happy, especially to the neglect of your own needs. It's then you realize who your true friends are, or at least that was how it felt for me. :nice:

 

Oh, this makes me really want to know what you've done :D Maybe this is why you moved to Canada, or somewhere...

I wish I could help with this :( It makes sense, but there must be something you want to change...

 

 

 

Oh, this makes me really want to know what you've done :D Maybe this is why you moved to Canada, or somewhere...

 

there is....at first: My mind about myself. It works, sometimes....but then there are factors that put me faaaaar backwards...like some fucking people I shouldn't give a damn to...

hmm, maybe not.

hmm. I want to be in a mental institution with you jules. we could smoke pot and watch movies :wacky:

 

..... apparently they watch vampire movies and listen to radiohead in the institution here :uhoh:

yes smoking pot and watching movies sound like fun...and listen to Radiohead afterwards would fuck my mind totally up...(and holy shit....I can't sleep and the sun is rising....ahh)

All I can say my life changed a lot since last year, in some ways very good in some ways bad :\

I'm not who I want to be.

I wish I could help with this :( It makes sense, but there must be something you want to change...

 

 

 

Oh, this makes me really want to know what you've done :D Maybe this is why you moved to Canada, or somewhere...

Oh yes I moved to Canada, "the land of the north and free" or whatever the motto is haha.

 

No, I've always lived here, never moved, just got away from some people. But what have I done? To be blunt, I just figured out some things for the worst and for the better. By what means, ohh I'll never tell....... :sneaky::laugh3:

yes smoking pot and watching movies sound like fun...and listen to Radiohead afterwards would fuck my mind totally up...(and holy shit....I can't sleep and the sun is rising....ahh)

 

ooh hehe... that is a fun feeling. haven't done that in years :wreck: that's great julia :wacky:

ot's obviously time for doing it again...:smoking:

... i dunno...i an in a confused teenage stage... the one where i don't give a f*ck about half the stuff... It's gonna be a long summer.

THIS

 

I'm not who I want to be.

AND THIS

Well if you're not happy with who you are, you've got serious problems, as there isn't much you can do about it.:rolleyes:

YES.

not really, I hate the way I look and the fact I am not comfortable with my body. I don't make friends easily and come across as abit ice-queenie. I also hate that I carn't let myself go and enjoy myself, I feel like I have to be reserved all the time and I just carn't seem to relax, esp. at concerts, yet I will more than likely never see those people around me ever again, I just carn't be myself, you all must think I am prime for the funny farm! I see the rainbow coloured van with bouncy wheels coming for me.

surprisingly for the most part yes. if you would have asked me this a year ago i would have been hell no. but i have to work on not looking serious lol. because everyone misinterprets it as being mean.

not really, I hate the way I look and the fact I am not comfortable with my body. I don't make friends easily and come across as abit ice-queenie. I also hate that I carn't let myself go and enjoy myself, I feel like I have to be reserved all the time and I just carn't seem to relax, esp. at concerts, yet I will more than likely never see those people around me ever again, I just carn't be myself, you all must think I am prime for the funny farm! I see the rainbow coloured van with bouncy wheels coming for me.

 

And apart from all that??:rolleyes:

For the most part I'm happy about who I am but recently I've been wondering if who I am is good enough...and I'm not quite sure...'Tis sad.