nah, it's not that way.

i'm definitely not only attracted to his looks (right, he's pretty), but also to what he's like.

his attitude and just the things he does. it's hard to explain. but ...we all once had a crush on someone.

 

just hope that he isn't judging you this way:

 

well, first of all i've gotta tell you that i'm not very often attracted to guys.

i hardly ever find a bloke attractive. i dunno why. perhaps my standards are too high. lol. i just don't know.

in other words you think i'm a superficial bitch who does not even deserve a boyfriend because i only care what a guy looks like.

well, this world is so cruel these days... people don't give a fuck about one's heart or one's personality anymore, right.

I think you might be very superficial, that is all. I didn't say what you deserve

oh thanks, but isn't it superficial to judge someone via internet whom you have never even chatted to before?

oh thanks, but isn't it superficial to judge someone via internet whom you have never even chatted to before?

 

I'm not judging by the way you look. Since it's the internet, I can't really be superficial unless I see how you look

being superficial is not neccesarily connected to looks.

being superficial is, being judgemental isn't. I think that's what you mean

oh, i'm sorry i'm no native speaker.

well, I think I am too judgmental many times, maybe all the time. Guys are usually the ones who are more superficial, concerning the way a girl looks. When I saw that you appeared to only care about the way the guy looked it offended me. If I was a girl I would probably get offended at guys all the time who are that way. In fact, I do get offended, but I usually don't say anything because I think many guys are hopeless... maybe I said too much already

ahahahaha. i could burst into tears now because i messed up big time!!!

 

seriously... my chance was handed on a silver platter.

 

so... there's this old class mate of mine who's in my physics course and we were spending our break together... then one of my best girl friends came to join us. we were talking and talking and then my girl friend said,"oh, you got something on your neck." i was asking,"where? where?" when she got that face. lol.

i only said,"oh my god, no!!!" HE stood right behind me talking to my old class mate. my girl friend, that old class mate and daniel (his name...) are together in maths class that's why he came up. and really... he stood there for a few moments and i couldn't even be arsed to say HI!!!!

 

i'm such an idiot bitch, really.

 

the greatest coward in the world.

the dork of the century.

 

i couldn't even look at him and he stood right next to me!!!!! OMFG!!!

 

really... then they went inside cause their lesson started and my girl friend kept telling me,"he was staring at you, you idiot!!! i'll tell you... he expected you to say something!!!"

okay, this was my chance and i blew it.

 

fuck it.

fuck this world.

:(

 

mhh... need to listen to Coldplay's "Shiver" now... :\

Oh, that sucks! You need a hug. *gives hug* I know what that's like. Just try again another time or something, when you've figured out what to say or when you're not so nervous. =) Don't think that it's the end of the world, ok? It'll get better.

Grace you still have time. Don't worry, I'm in somewhat a similar situation, and I've fucked up some good opportunities. But it's no big deal! There's so much more to come, just wait again!

it just scared me. :shocked2:

i never had that sorta feeling before. it was really scary and i've never ben so excited. (not even when it's christmas; hahahaha)

you'll surely get another chance, don't worry :)

Awww Grace! :nice:

 

 

You'll get another chance. And make use of it!

so yeah, i've got a date with him.

wasn't that hard. oh my god, but i feel so damn weird.

 

i planned to just go for a walk. hope the weather's good.

holidays start tomorrow and we planned to go out on monday.

wish me luck... and i got quite a cute pic... lol. hahahaaaa.

it was last wednesday when i just walked up to him and said,"hey" and he said,"well, thatÄs what i've been waiting for!" and ever since we've been chit chatting. hahaaaa.

and today he came running across the school yard calling me GRACIIIEEEE! lol, there's only a few people who are actually allowed to call me like that. hahaaha. that's so funny. and so i walked him back to the other building (i had no classes) and we talked and i was the actual reason why he was late for english class :P yeeeeah!!!!

so yeah, i've got a date with him.

wasn't that hard. oh my god, but i feel so damn weird.

 

i planned to just go for a walk. hope the weather's good.

holidays start tomorrow and we planned to go out on monday.

wish me luck... and i got quite a cute pic... lol. hahahaaaa.

 

it was last wednesday when i just walked up to him and said,"hey" and he said,"well, thatÄs what i've been waiting for!" and ever since we've been chit chatting. hahaaaa.

and today he came running across the school yard calling me GRACIIIEEEE! lol, there's only a few people who are actually allowed to call me like that. hahaaha. that's so funny. and so i walked him back to the other building (i had no classes) and we talked and i was the actual reason why he was late for english class :P yeeeeah!!!!

 

 

Awwwwwwwwwww!!!!! :D Graceee!! I'm so frackin' happy for you!!!! :nice:

 

See, he was wanting you to say hi to him. lol. Once you start the conversations doesn't it just feel natural? It's amazing huh.

 

Well how did he ask you? Where are you guys going? WHERE ARE THE DETAILS, WOMAN! :P

 

And we're gonna need a follow-up of the date, yes. :smug:

 

EEEEE I'm so excited for you Grace. You totally deserve it. You are so lucky to find a guy like him.

oh gosh, Annie...really. this is so fucking surreal.

and ...before when he stood right next to me i was all shaking and couldn't talk and i'm so relaxed now. i stay all cool and i'm pretty normal.

that's progress!

yeha, i just asked him if he had a second last wednesday and he said,"yeah"... and blah~ and i asked if we could go out sometime...just to have a drink or coffee and stuff and he said yes. so... it's a good sign.

this sounds like shit... but it feels like everything's just paying off... the shit that i've gone through and stuff in the past.

it's just a date. we're not a couple or anything serious...

hope there's good news after the date...you know.

i wanna meet him more often during the holidays. it's a great chance... oh man. i cannot expect too much. he's just a bomb and so nice and...

I understand how you feel about it. But you know what. You are so happy in the moment right now. And you really deserve it. Just enjoy things in the moment, and don't stress over the future just yet. Just look forward to the great date on Monday. :)

haha

 

 

awesome graciiiieeeeeeee :P

 

i'm happy for you.

 

 

 

hope you don't mind me calling you graciiiiiiiieeee :P

whaaaaaa...lucky you!:wacko:

 

well I wish you gooooood luck...:D

w00t! good luck and enjoy the date! :D

so yeah, today i went to see the place where i planned to hang out.

it's a nice open air bar nearby the river and a great place to go for a walk and talk and sit down on a bench. the weather's good right now. hope it'll stay that way... til monday.

awww...you guys, i'm not too hyper right now hahaha, but that's so gonna change when i'll see him :laugh3:

sounds like a good place for a date! :nice:

 

yeah... i know how it is right before the actual date .. you're all nervous and excited and can't wait to see him .... :wub:

ahaayaaaa...

okay, cool.

just have to inform him about what we're gonna do.

guess we'll meet somewhere and go there all together.

hehehe. and i won't bring a jacket in case it gets all cold and stuff...want him to warm me. oh god, i'm a perv.

haha well if he's a gentleman he'll offer you his jacket. ;)