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hi

Yo

Time has gone by so fast.

The days have seemed long but the years have been short.

yep

how was your day nick?

Horrible as usual, working out in the 95 degree heat but it feels like it's over 100 and now I'm tired from the heat. I was going to go for a run, but it's about to storm and I don't feel like dodging lightning. BUT overall I'm good, lol.

 

You're off today, right?

I just checked the radar and it's not moving too fast and just looks dark above. I might risk it and go for a run. I'm just paranoid my iphone will get ruined if it starts to rain and i'm a mile away from home. I'll bring a plastic baggy with me, but that may not keep it safe from the water.

yeah i've done nothing again and then ill be back to the manic and hot coffee shop

35 degrees celcius is hot to me idk what that is in faranheit.

35 C is 95 F

 

You work at a coffee shop?

yep mostly washing up, i dread it when i have to get the till and i panic or when i spill the coffee's.

where do you work?

So you don't have to work with many customers. I imagine they're horrible in coffee shops.

 

I work at a car rental place, but since I refuse to rip customers off, they have me working on the trucks/cars and doing odd jobs for them.

 

I'm going to go for a run. If you never hear from me again, I was struck by lightning!

I would never be that lucky, though.

don't say that :(

i love thunder storms though

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why is the rum gone?

Running makes me so sick. My medicine never fully helps.

Is there exercise you could do which wouldn't be as straining? Like I presume going for a cycle would be easier on your system than running? :shrug:

Cycling doesn't bother me at all, but I love running the most. I feel like i'm being stabbed/going to throw up and euphoric at the same time. The odd thing is if I do over 10 miles it's not as bad. Also, I'm tired of not being able to do the things I love in life, so i'm not giving another thing up.

 

How are you Emma?!

You should try to do something to help anyways, it might just get worse. I'm kind of in a similar situation. I have problems with my stomach (hyperacidity is beyong shit craic). I have gotten to the point where there is some days I just don't want food. It is the most un-appetizing shit ever :uhoh: I used to love food and I'm getting to a point where I hate it. I never feel hungry, but I know I need to eat.

I'm trying to find english cook books for my problems... annoying no luck so far.

 

Also, trying to make meal plans and a grocery list for one person with my condition (without any recipes) is so fucking hard? haha.

 

 

 

Other than that, terribly anxious. Why? I have no idea. So many things are making me feel nervous for no reason. I watched this video yesterday

[ame=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ex0URF-hWj4]The Terrifying Truth About Bananas - YouTube[/ame] I felt like my heart was in my mouth for hours afterwards. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY.

WHY DID I WATCH THAT VIDEO AGAIN FUCK.

That's insane, about the Banana.

 

I feel your pain Emma. All food makes me sick, some worse than others, and I have to force myself often to eat. It's hard functioning when obtaining the right food is difficult and the wrong foods make you feel horrible.

I know right! I kept waking up in the middle of the night like "CAN NOT DEAL"

 

This morning wasn't great. I had a scone. It got to half 4 and hadn't had anything else. I didn't even feel it. But seeing as I am supposedly teetering on underweight according to the bmi (which I know is not the best guide, but it helps to give me an idea), I shouldn't be losing weight D:

 

 

Also kind of undecided whether or not to give up alcohol. It always makes me get sick...

 

but the terrible thing is I don't mind getting sick. It is slightly embarrassing. Not to be mank, but it's never messy. I just tell my friends I'm going to the bathroom, I get sick, and then I get water and chewing gum.

 

 

 

And even worse, I like getting sick. I don't purge or anything! And after getting sick is the only time my stomach feels good.