alyssa

crystal--why'd you bump this :laugh3:

I haven't. Too scared.

yeah but they could not be telling the truth. "everybody lies." lmao sorry... stupid House MD reference... haha.

no, i don't know coldplay personally and there's no way to really know. lol.

i guess i'm in love. love is just the unselfish want for the best for another person, so... yeah... i love someone.

double postage :dance:

well uh, i've been thinking about random stuff and i just need a place to put all my thoughts, haha. i'm in an analytical mood (mostly analyzing myself, haha). it's almost like... a journal, haha. sorry for the spammation, but... yeah... i'm really bored. this probbabblly isn't really worth reading. if you're really interested in me and my thought processes, go ahead, haha. - the bigheaded stuff. - so today someone told me I was "freaking amazing". i always feel sorta bad whenever someone tells me that, and good at the same time. "someone thinks i'm really cool--cool! haha, but i'm really not. there's a whole load of people that are better than i am. meh." i think i'm a pretty well-rounded person. i have a lot of talents but i'm pretty mediocre with all of them. sure, i can play the drums, guitar, bass, take nice photos, sing a little, but it's nothing special really. the only thing i think is special is that i have a good handful of talents. i know a lot of people that draw a lot better, play bass a lot better, take better pictures, or play drums a lot better than i do, but I don't know many people that can do all of those. and, i don't know what my problem is trying to be the best at everything. it's really stupid, but... i'm never satisfied with anything i do. sometimes i am, but usually it's... temporary. i guess it's good to not be satisfied so you can keep trying to be the best blah blah blah, but it's kinda... depressing, heh. i show people some of my stuff and i'm not happy when they say it really rocks, and i'm hurt when they say "oh, it's not that good." -- I don't know what the hell i want, or why i even show people what i can do when i'm never going to be satisfied with their response. i keep thinking "oh, if i'm not the best, i'm not really worth much", but if everyone thought that, we'd all be damned. i guess we all have a place, blah blah blah, but i still feel really insignificant. :/ and a lot of people take me the wrong way--it's nothing i can change, but it gets annoying sometimes. "oh, you just want pity." "you say you suck, just because you know you don't, and you want people to say you don't! for the ego boost!" -- actually, maybe they're right. i don't know myself, really... god, my self-esteem is so freaking low. - the mushy stuff. - so, my friend came over today while i was home alone, and we played texas hold 'em' poker and played some video games... then we called the guy I liked over, and he came over, then my other friend had to leave, leaving me alone with the guy i like at my house :laugh3: i think most parents would think that's a no-no, but my parents trust me enough to know that i won't do anything stupid. all we did was watch some stuff, play video games, watch tv, eat stuff, just basically hang out... and i loved it, honestly, hehe. i love his company--loads better than staying home alone all day. i was going to ask him about, but... i think that would be a stupid move. i mean, i really like him, but i'm pretty sure he doesn't like me back. he'd just say "yes" because he wouldn't want to be mean... and all that crap that teen relationships usually have. they suck. i think i'm just going to enjoy our friendship while it lasts, and it has lasted for a pretty long time, haha. (7 years!) i can hug him, or put my head on his shoulder, usual friend stuff (i think :uhoh:), so that's good enough for me. - the annoyin' - okay. tv sucks. before my friend came over i was watching some tv at around 11 AM. i have... what... 400 tv channels? but there's nothing to freaking watch! some intellectual chats on CSPAN and CNN that i won't freaking understand, the news (filled with unessecary stories about dogs that can do cool tricks and shit!), old movies, mindless cartoons--bleh! tv sucks! ('cept for FOX at 8 and 9 PM on tuesdays. ;)) haha, i think i'm gonna make this thread my place to complain and shiz. nice.

er, ^random bumpage yeah anyways i'd be kicked out for being so boring. when my friends tell me about "juicy gossip" i'm just like... "I don't give a shit."

heh, ditto! I used to not care what i looked like, and i looked like friggin' shit. O.o i hated going shopping with my parents and my sis, but now i like to tag along and buy stuff. i just bought something from aeropostale a week ago--i never thought I would buy something from there. haha. but i think that thing that changed me was something called "adolesence," heh.

why not? it'd be cool. heh. something like see you soon would rock. :stunned:

hey! glad to see another drummer on the forums. :) if you can, get an instructor--he'll teach you some rudiments and some basics that can get you started. :D and Coldplay is a great band to start playing a long with. most Coldplay songs have very simple drum beats which are easy to pick up, imo. if you have any trouble with a coldplay (or any song for that matter), i'll tab out the beat for you. :)

that... was the stupidest thing I've read today... anyways...

lmao, that tele has tape all over it--ghetto! :P

god, he sweats all the time, doesn't he? :laugh3:

heh, i did something else yesterday too that's not me singing of course :laugh3: i'm in the back playing the drums

oo, i agree. i'm 15, and I should be stupid fuck. i don't think i am... honestly... heh. and my friends bore me also. i always talk about things they don't care about. meh. but i haven't really gone through anything that made me lose my childhood innocense (wow, i can't spell today)... i'm just different from everyone else my age, and i always have been, heh. actually when i was 12, i think that's when i really started maturing... i don't know. anyways, enough rambling for me... heh.

was that directed at me? because I accidently copied and pasted alfredo's traits instead of mine at first :laugh3:

that bugs me, lol. and all of this crap because it's all true and kinda sad, :laugh3:

wow thanks! :) it's not too hard of a riff, actually. :P and uh, I've had a guitar for 2 years or something, and i would always learn songs on it without instruction... and i just started lessons a few weeks ago or something. i've known that riff for about a year, hehe. but i just got my bass at the end of April this year... but anyways, thanks! :)

ooooooooo :stunned:

everyone just loves giving you a hard time just returning the favor. :thumbsup:

I don't like friggin' anime shiz! god, you're thick.