Sternly

I'm not religios at all! Imean gog...... what's that? I realy don't believe in god, but I do respect people who do. I have a sister who say I believe in god but she doesn't seems to be a very good person... In actitude I mean....... maybe because of that and because I've never met truly religions persons I don't ...............besides I like more existencialism and razoning which are not very into god................. But I do like Jews, I mean the Jewish ( thre religion) but I can't turn myself into Jewish because there's no sinagogas in here, o Jews.... nothing!

Amy hope you have a better day......................... you know I think you're so great!, I love to read your topics....... you should be here, maybe I would have a partner here, for real!........... You're fantastic! Again..... Hope yo have a better day :D

Amy hope you have a better day......................... you know I think you're so great!, I love to read your topics....... you should be here, maybe I would have a partner here, for real!........... You're fantastic! Again..... Hope yo have a better day :D

Punish... what's that? My parents barely know my name , how are they going to punish me?............ No, in fact they punish.... they don't give me money for my cd's and they don't lñet me go to Tai-Chi ..... that's mainly

From my dad Italian, Spanish, Jew From my mom Spanish, Jew and Indi ( I mean from the natives here ( I mean North) I think )

I just can't stop thinking of that........ Is not that I wll do that, I still have some dreams left and I know theres no way back............... btu it's just me, it's the way I am that makes me think that, besides everytime I'm bored is a biggest option.................... I don't care really If it is selfish or not, I have never make "strong" relations with my friends or parents so that wouldn't mind me a lot, but there is somenthing ( afraid maybe) that tell me, Not jet!........ but I think it would be a nice way of dying ............. ( Shouldn't suppose to write for a while )

I'm just like of them but I am a she........... For you might not be like that cuz you know a lot more about what I think but I'm honest with people and I try to be nice and all that but is just I am ( and specially now) so much time in my world that It wouldn't matter If I am a boy or a girl ..... it would probably be the some...... but I'm learning o be more outgoing............. besides I live with my brothers and their male friends and my mates are a girl a 4 guy and it's lke 9 girl anfd 15 guys so guys are my example all the time......

And I just keep talking to you because you're indispensable right now

And the only reason why I continious with this is because I'm not stupid enough - or brave enough- for stop with this in a radicall way ( even tho we have thought about that many times) and for get the thing I want I have to continious with all this, because at this point the people that is around me will decide whether is good for me o go or not, and how I am at this moment for them, I am perfect

And I can't believe I'm writing this......................

Nat shut up...... you're just here cuz I didn't have anyone else to talk with and my "social circle" wasn't satifiying me.................. The media is not either and what you see i only what I want to show you or I want to believe cuz we both have clear that you're not real ............

Is just because you're really stupid sometimes.................. do you think that really is going to work? I mean think about that....... besides you seems to be like a social apart but you really aren't you have friends, you have neighbords you talk to people you have dreams , hopes and all that..........

Nat stop............. you're really unnice sometimes..........

cute isn't it?

And above all I want to stop talking with Nat ( who seems sometimes smarter than I am) and talk with someone real......

And the psicologist ........... I don'0t know If he's colsulting me or I'm colsunlting him................ I have a low profile and ou can see that confuse me a bit sometimes

And I really want to get out of here and learn the thing by my own so it wouldn't help much If they know........

And have clear that is not that I don't want help or somenthing like that, is just that you mght not believe me but you know a lo more about me than ,my parents and friends do.............

I know Bussy and Ti look for everything to be ok, so If for some reason you don't like my comments or you think they are not appropiate just tell me instead of erasing them........

I would not ask for help cuz problably you wouldn't help me but I would like you to stop those noisy comments at least in a place whee I can read.......

I wish people would stop telling I'm weird ( I know there a few who read this)..

I want to stop depending on you......... I wish you'll be real .....

I want to go to the Opera .......

I want to be a revolutionary, fight for a cause........

This might sound to you stupid or what but I also wanna suffer, but suffer a lot lot ........ I wanna go to Palestina or Iran or a place like that and doesn't really matter If I'm someone heats me or treats me bad.............. I want to value thing and have thing to value also