i think may be is too much placebo listening in few time...

yesterday i had a talk with my dad... he told me about a threory that says that we go to a personal crisis each 7 years... he already had warned me that he had it, when he was on the militia, far from his family... and may be i'm worried about that... i began to feel an emptiness that i can't explain.. i miss my mom... i find that i have a hole now... i told my dad that i still told him lots of thinks, but i feel that something has obviously changed... :( we were like bros and sis. well may be i think too much sometimes. :( i hope this feeling will change soon and i feel good again.

 

well I don´t know if id depends on the music you are listening to....I guess it might be more probable that you miss your mom...I ´m so sorry:(:kiss:....thinking is good bea but sometimes you should just let yourself go and live everyday´s live without thinking too much about ...well everything really..I mean it´s important but (I speak for my experience) when you think too much then you could start having paranoyed thoughts or just making too many problems when actually things may be simple if you just live them as they are without turning too much around them....

I think that speaking and sharing your thoughts with your dad is good since you live together..

and about the 7 year crisis...well it may be but anyway I´m sure you´ll come out of it and feel better in some way!

anyways when i'm a poetry creative mood i end up feeling sad sometimes... it make me think too much on somethings... :confused: although i enjoy a lot to be in a creative mood but seems that my mind got stressed or something like that....

 

actually it happends to me too..I ´ve actually been thinking that most of the stuff I write is actually sad...so since I write them when I am quite focused on my feelings and myself in general that might mean that I am a sad person right now.....?confused:

well I don´t know if id depends on the music you are listening to....I guess it might be more probable that you miss your mom...I ´m so sorry:(:kiss:....thinking is good bea but sometimes you should just let yourself go and live everyday´s live without thinking too much about ...well everything really..I mean it´s important but (I speak for my experience) when you think too much then you could start having paranoyed thoughts or just making too many problems when actually things may be simple if you just live them as they are without turning too much around them....

I think that speaking and sharing your thoughts with your dad is good since you live together..

and about the 7 year crisis...well it may be but anyway I´m sure you´ll come out of it and feel better in some way!

well i don't use to like to talk about it, because that's when i began to think too much about it... but my dad use to tell me that he feels he needs to fill the hole that my mom may had left on me... and i know he feels that that's the good thing, but i think that's just the wrong thing, because that's what makes me began to feel i miss her and end up feeling sad... i'm afraid to told that to him because i think that know that will make him feel bad because he thinks and feels that that's the good thing.... :( i don't want to worry him, i'm always been a good girl, i always obey them (more my mom than him), and sometimes when he advice me something and i don't do what he told me, he says that i'm becoming a rebel girl... he says it on an ironic or joking way but i take it seriously... oh well..

i hope i feel better soon, as i told you think that mainly i've thought too much.... well.

well i don't use to like to talk about it, because that's when i began to think too much about it... but my dad use to tell me that he feels he needs to fill the hole that my mom may had left on me... and i know he feels that that's the good thing, but i think that's just the wrong thing, because that's what makes me began to feel i miss her and end up feeling sad... i'm afraid to told that to him because i think that know that will make him feel bad because he thinks and feels that that's the good thing.... :( i don't want to worry him, i'm always been a good girl, i always obey them (more my mom than him), and sometimes when he advice me something and i don't do what he told me, he says that i'm becoming a rebel girl... he says it on an ironic or joking way but i take it seriously... oh well..

 

well it´s true actually....he trying to fill the hole your mum left in your life will just show how much she´s missin:(...I don´t know...you seem to be...well you are I think extremely mature for your age and I don´t know...I´am dure your dad feels sorry for you but it´s difficult for him too...you´re the only thing left for him too and I think he must take care of you as best as he can...I don´t know if you should tell him about how he makes you feel when he tryes to help you..maybe you should if it makes you feel better...maybe he will understand...

well it´s true actually....he trying to fill the hole your mum left in your life will just show how much she´s missin:(...I don´t know...you seem to be...well you are I think extremely mature for your age and I don´t know...I´am dure your dad feels sorry for you but it´s difficult for him too...you´re the only thing left for him too and I think he must take care of you as best as he can...I don´t know if you should tell him about how he makes you feel when he tryes to help you..maybe you should if it makes you feel better...maybe he will understand...

i always was too mature for my age... i had some problem 'cause of that sometimes... i didn't worried with the things that people used to worry...

i enjoyed when we were 3, my mom bring me happiness, i was mainly a good girl for her, when i felt bad i tried to cheer up myself not to worry her... and with my dad used to have long talks about history, politics, arts... but as we mainly have only talks... i miss the other things, but i don't want him to fill that, at least not to force him to fill them... i think i need to close that hole myself... i don't know how will take it, i tried to let him know that yesterday... but oh well he keeps behaving the same, as i weren't had told him anything... i begining to think he does it because he need to do it, not that he feels that i need it.. well, let's change the topic ok. :)

i always was too mature for my age... i had some problem 'cause of that sometimes... i didn't worried with the things that people used to worry...

i enjoyed when we were 3, my mom bring me happiness, i was mainly a good girl for her, when i felt bad i tried to cheer up myself not to worry her... and with my dad used to have long talks about history, politics, arts... but as we mainly have only talks... i miss the other things, but i don't want him to fill that, at least not to force him to fill them... i think i need to close that hole myself... i don't know how will take it, i tried to let him know that yesterday... but oh well he keeps behaving the same, as i weren't had told him anything... i begining to think he does it because he need to do it, not that he feels that i need it.. well, let's change the topic ok. :)

 

ok let´s do it if you want:)

 

soooo.....I am going to go shopping tomorrow...I must watch for a new schoolbag by "Eastpak" do you know them?...I am still not sure about the coulour,..I wanted something nice a happy color, but I fear It might bother me after a while:confused:

 

lol I feel so stupid changing from a so serious subject to that idiot one:drunk:

ok let´s do it if you want:)

 

soooo.....I am going to go shopping tomorrow...I must watch for a new schoolbag by "Eastpak" do you know them?...I am still not sure about the coulour,..I wanted something nice a happy color, but I fear It might bother me after a while:confused:

 

lol I feel so stupid changing from a so serious subject to that idiot one:drunk:

never heard of that eastpak... :thinking: i loved to buy my new schoolbag each year :nice: but a year i wasn't lucky with it,... i had to buy 3 schoolbags because them got broken in less than a month :confused:

 

if you want to keep talking about the previous topic.... but i don't want to bore you with that...

never heard of that eastpak... :thinking: i loved to buy my new schoolbag each year :nice: but a year i wasn't lucky with it,... i had to buy 3 schoolbags because them got broken in less than a month :confused:

 

if you want to keep talking about the previous topic.... but i don't want to bore you with that...

 

I use to changing it like once every 2 or 3 years...anyway my last one was the one I used more..it´s full of writings...like oasison the front and coldplay = on the upper side:D---it was light brown...

 

here is the site for the bags:

http://www.eastpack.com

 

you can see all the models and color...I was thinking about the rose one but I am not sure:confused:

 

I wasn´t bored avout it but if you prefer not to talk about it it´s ok;)

I use to changing it like once every 2 or 3 years...anyway my last one was the one I used more..it´s full of writings...like oasison the front and coldplay = on the upper side:D---it was light brown...

 

here is the site for the bags:

www.eastpack.com

 

you can see all the models and color...I was thinking about the rose one but I am not sure:confused:

 

I wasn´t bored avout it but if you prefer not to talk about it it´s ok;)

mines got almost broken when i finish each year... my parents told me that i full them with too much things...

oh that's cool. ;) although i never did it on mines... just on my pencilcage, tht my friends wrote their names on them...

 

cool site but takes a bit to load..

 

oh well when i feel sad i prefer not to dig on the thing too much to not feel worse... so i'll worry my mind on other thing easier. don't you think? :)

 

yesterday i looked on how many poems i've posted on BP thread, and i've got more than 40. :) i'm happy for that. :) i'm thinking one more time to send them to get to publish some of them on any mag... there's an online local mag here but the works are in spanish although some writers are foreigners...

mines got almost broken when i finish each year... my parents told me that i full them with too much things...

oh that's cool. ;) although i never did it on mines... just on my pencilcage, tht my friends wrote their names on them...

 

cool site but takes a bit to load..

 

oh well when i feel sad i prefer not to dig on the thing too much to not feel worse... so i'll worry my mind on other thing easier. don't you think? :)

 

yesterday i looked on how many poems i've posted on BP thread, and i've got more than 40. :) i'm happy for that. :) i'm thinking one more time to send them to get to publish some of them on any mag... there's an online local mag here but the works are in spanish although some writers are foreigners...

 

yes maybe you are write...thinking about something else may help you:)

 

wow!more than 40! congrats!

the idea of sending them to get published sounds GREAT!I think you should really give it a go!!!:cheesy:

yes maybe you are write...thinking about something else may help you:)

 

wow!more than 40! congrats!

the idea of sending them to get published sounds GREAT!I think you should really give it a go!!!:cheesy:

yes you are right. :) i hope that baby kid inspire me positive feelings again (i told you that there's a lil kid learning to walk near my home) i enjoy look him learning :nice: i like kids, they always cheer me up :baby: i hope i can see my cousin daugther before i go to Portugal. btw the poem called when the swallows come back is a bit inspired on that lil kid. :nice: there's a verse that makes reference to him.

 

i always think to do that, but i'm not brave too. i don't think i'm good enough. :confused:

 

btw told your cousin that i've listened to blind (you told me is his fave at least now), and i liked it. :)

yes you are right. :) i hope that baby kid inspire me positive feelings again (i told you that there's a lil kid learning to walk near my home) i enjoy look him learning :nice: i like kids, they always cheer me up :baby: i hope i can see my cousin daugther before i go to Portugal. btw the poem called when the swallows come back is a bit inspired on that lil kid. :nice: there's a verse that makes reference to him.

 

i always think to do that, but i'm not brave too. i don't think i'm good enough. :confused:

 

btw told your cousin that i've listened to blind (you told me is his fave at least now), and i liked it. :)

 

nice...I love kids too.....so sweet in everything they do:heart:

 

well you know if you never try you´ll never know!:P*let´s quote coldplay:P....

 

ok I´ll tell him about that:D

nice...I love kids too.....so sweet in everything they do:heart:

 

well you know if you never try you´ll never know!:P*let´s quote coldplay:P....

 

ok I´ll tell him about that:D

yes, but my dad told me that i'm obssesed with that kid lol...

 

hehe... well i published 5 on my high school mag and on eoi mag... but as next year i won't keep on eoi i don't think they'll publish anything more as i won't be a student there... well.. i'll look for some english writing mag. :)

 

now i'm listening them performing at the pinkpop 2006....

 

btw i have to go to prepare the dinner...

 

see you later i hope, if not, nighty night and have a good day tomorrow. ;)

yes, but my dad told me that i'm obssesed with that kid lol...

 

hehe... well i published 5 on my high school mag and on eoi mag... but as next year i won't keep on eoi i don't think they'll publish anything more as i won't be a student there... well.. i'll look for some english writing mag. :)

 

now i'm listening them performing at the pinkpop 2006....

 

btw i have to go to prepare the dinner...

 

see you later i hope, if not, nighty night and have a good day tomorrow. ;)

 

lol so you´re obsessed with both placebo and that kis:P

 

ok I gotta go too so see you tomorrow!

night bea:kiss::kiss:

*Enters thread, seeing that Giuly or Ari are not around exits thread*

*raises hand*

 

hey i'm here again :)

 

you? how r ya 2day?

*Re-enters thread*

 

Hey Ari :)

 

I be good, my day was good, how was your day?

*Re-enters thread*

 

Hey Ari :)

 

I be good, my day was good, how was your day?

my day was.... well i felt sad today... until i talked to giuly. now i'm a bit better. :)

did what i had planned for today, and woke up early, wrote new poem, sad one...

Glad your feeling better :)

 

Have you seen the picture of my nan's new puppy in the pictures thread?

your nan new puppy?... is a pic of you what i see... :thinking: ;)

 

i hope feel better tomorrow. :)

The other picture thread :P

which other one? :huh: ...

http://www.coldplaying.com/forum/showthread.php?t=4711

just found it.. nice piccie :nice: how old is the puppy?

nan=nanny... am i right?