I know I've made a thousand threads like this...

 

I am so down..........feeling so bad....so sad....desperate...

 

I don't know when the last time was I felt so damn bad...

 

we have so much trouble in our family,,...and all this because of one person...my big sister....

 

we all know where the problem is......but when we talk to her it is like talking to a wall.....she begins to shout immediately...and after all she says it is all our fault...and she is just the poor victim....but how she treats us....she doesn't see that....or doesn't want to see this....

if she does something wrong she always reverses it in a way that I am the one to blame afterwards....

 

so this evening we had damn big trouble again...I can't even really tell you what my sister is like...in publicity she is totally different....sometimes I think she doesn't have any feelings.....so coldhearted...this can't be true...

 

so we had trouble again.....after all i went to my room and cried.....cried my heart out....I couldn't stop...I don't know when the last time was I cried that much....

because i felt so alone...I wanted someone to share my problem with...to talk to...yeah my mum understands me...but this is something else....

 

I only needed a hug.....and someone who listens to me...

 

ah........damn shit....

 

sometimes i hate this life......

 

 

I only need this thread now to cheer me up a bit...maybe it helps to get rid of all this......damn....

Immerse you soul in love :blank:

In which love?

aww...thanks Nik:kiss:....yeah something like this.....but I want to feel it...

 

Man...actually I think i don't have such a bad life...but sometimes i don't want people to have my life....

 

ah don't know..

Heh Jules to be honest I have such moments or just depressive dark and worring moments every day every 15 minutes. So you may think you're lucky :uhoh2:

Ha....to be honest.....I also have many depressive moments in my life...but today I am at a point I am also desperate...

Oooh desperate :dead:

 

Don't say that. It's not true. If you felt desperate you wouldn't be here, chating and all, if you were desperate you'd be out of control and maybe even in precollaptoid state :freak:

haha...ok maybe not at the moment....maybe some minutes ago I felt like that for some minutes....somehow...

however....I'm away....

Come back, Jules, don't fade out :uhoh:

 

Hell, too much RH for my mind.

god blesses you

too I was in such a period so i understand

support you stranger

pray and medicate for a while

take some little rest

life is for living~

listen to some coldplay~

perhaps fix you^^

aww Julia, I would really like to give u a hug! I dont like when ppl is sad and I cnat do anything for them, its just awful when a friend of mine calls me and I cant do anything alse than say " dont feel sad, everything is gonna be alright"

You might think Im stupid cos Im saying all this things and we dont talk to much here, but I think u r such a nice person!

 

can I do anything for u?? I cna make u laught if u wnat! hehehe

Oh thanks new member...I will remember your advice...

 

aww Ani....thanks for your nice words....

I think if you only say something to me..hehe...that helps...I mean if only is somethnig going on....

I mean...I already feel a bit better...I just need to get rid of things like that...and this makes me feel better....

Hello!

 

I think I had the same problem . I have a brother and he was like your sister I think...well not that bad now but about 1-2 years ago it was..

He was so stupid, he didn't have job, he came home late night everyday and then he was sleeping all day long. When we tried to tell him that's not good he got mad and started arguing. He could ruin our mood in a minute..and then of course my parents got sad and mad too....and I couldn't do anything

 

But it's ok now..my brother has job, and he's quite normal now

 

I hope that everything will be allright in your family and with your sister:)

 

Cheer up!:kiss:

I know what it feels like... maybe not the exact same thing... but I don't feel great...

 

So just remember you're never alone, no matter how bad things get. It's hard to feel better, but there's always someone or something that'll help.

 

^-^

Oh thanks new member...I will remember your advice...

 

aww Ani....thanks for your nice words....

I think if you only say something to me..hehe...that helps...I mean if only is somethnig going on....

I mean...I already feel a bit better...I just need to get rid of things like that...and this makes me feel better....

 

Dont worry, ur sister will realise that she is not being fair with u and ur family...and everything igg gonna be algight! hahaha ( I said this before)

and now Im singing a song for u:

 

Follow the light, by Travis

 

Nobody really knows

Where they're supposed to go

Hiding behind a wall

Afraid that they'll lose it all

But it's alright

Just follow the light

And don't be afraid of the dark

In the moonlight

You'll dance till you fall

And always be here in my heart

But nobody wants to know

'Cos nobody even cares

Everyone's on the make

Yeah and everyone's out for themselves

Me I'm on the longest road

Where everything's overload

But I've got my heart and soul

So don't throw me overboard

'Cos it's alright

Just follow the light

And don't be afraid of the dark

In the moonlight

You'll dance till you fall

And always be here in my heart

'Cos it's alright

Just follow the light

And don't be afraid of the dark

In the moonlight

You'll dance till you fall

And always be here in my heart

'Cos it's alright, alright now

And you're alright

Yeah we're alright now.

 

 

:heart:

You know, it's so weird how easy it is to tell these things to people you don't know... and how much better strangers can make you feel sometimes...

Hello!

 

I think I had the same problem . I have a brother and he was like your sister I think...well not that bad now but about 1-2 years ago it was..

He was so stupid, he didn't have job, he came home late night everyday and then he was sleeping all day long. When we tried to tell him that's not good he got mad and started arguing. He could ruin our mood in a minute..and then of course my parents got sad and mad too....and I couldn't do anything

 

But it's ok now..my brother has job, and he's quite normal now

 

I hope that everything will be allright in your family and with your sister:)

 

Cheer up!:kiss:

 

Oh well....yeah that sounds a bit like my sister...I mean as soon as you say something negative to her..i mean if you criticise her she takes it personal and then the big big trouble begins...(this is how it was again this evening..) it's so sad that you can't say in your house where you live in anymore what you think....

 

I can't just ignore her....or just come to th living room and act towards her as if nothing has happened...she can....

 

 

aw...thanks foralckofbettertitle(uh what's your name...).....

actually I know that there are always people who understand me and stuff.....but somehow never in the moments I really need them....

this would have been a good chance to talk about my problems (actually i have a big problem with talking about my feelings...) but there was not really anyone to talk to...

Dont worry, ur sister will realise that she is not being fair with u and ur family...and everything igg gonna be algight! hahaha ( I said this before)

and now Im singing a song for u:

 

Follow the light, by Travis

 

Nobody really knows

Where they're supposed to go

Hiding behind a wall

Afraid that they'll lose it all

But it's alright

Just follow the light

And don't be afraid of the dark

In the moonlight

You'll dance till you fall

And always be here in my heart

But nobody wants to know

'Cos nobody even cares

Everyone's on the make

Yeah and everyone's out for themselves

Me I'm on the longest road

Where everything's overload

But I've got my heart and soul

So don't throw me overboard

'Cos it's alright

Just follow the light

And don't be afraid of the dark

In the moonlight

You'll dance till you fall

And always be here in my heart

'Cos it's alright

Just follow the light

And don't be afraid of the dark

In the moonlight

You'll dance till you fall

And always be here in my heart

'Cos it's alright, alright now

And you're alright

Yeah we're alright now.

 

 

:love:

 

Awwww...thanks for the song Ani:kiss:

 

I know this song..I haven't listened to it for a while now..hehe....

I used to love it...

 

and as I have said before....I always want to make my sister clear that I don#t want something bad for her...or something like that......I don't know....either she doesn't seem to understand or she doesn't want to understand...shit..

You know' date=' it's so weird how easy it is to tell these things to people you don't know... and how much better strangers can make you feel sometimes...[/quote']

 

 

oh triple post..lala....

 

but you are absolutely right...

 

as I have said before...often i really have a problem to talk about my feelings with my friends....

but if i can come ehre and talk to people who are not my "real" friends....I feel better afterwards..:)

Awwww...thanks for the song Ani:kiss:

 

I know this song..I haven't listened to it for a while now..hehe....

I used to love it...

 

and as I have said before....I always want to make my sister clear that I don#t want something bad for her...or something like that......I don't know....either she doesn't seem to understand or she doesn't want to understand...shit..

 

u r well come dear!! its a beatiful song!:)

 

yeah I know ur ponit, u have to talke to her, but she is the only one who can change her behaviour, and if she dont wanna or she doesnt understand, its so hard... so if u cnat makes her realise, try to find the way to dont get stresed... and take it easy...;) later or now she will see!

 

if u want to talk with me, my msn adress is here, or send me a pm...

 

Iv to go now...:kiss: :kiss:

bye dear!

take care!

Sorry, can't help you...I don't live in Germany...but I could try to get up there and give you one big hug (though, I'm totally non-hugging type :D )...

 

Or maybe...you'd like to imagine it? Close your eyes...(hmm...read this before you do :rolleyes: )...imagine me (Brad Pitt's look-a-like :laugh3: )...so...I'm hugging you...was that helpful?

At all?

Oh thanks a lot Ani...this is cute....bye...:kiss:

Sorry, can't help you...I don't live in Germany...but I could try to get up there and give you one big hug (though, I'm totally non-hugging type :D )...

 

Or maybe...you'd like to imagine it? Close your eyes...(hmm...read this before you do :rolleyes: )...imagine me (Brad Pitt's look-a-like :laugh3: )...so...I'm hugging you...was that helpful?

At all?

 

 

:laugh4:

Yeah...it was definitely helpful...because it made me laugh!haha..

thanks:nice:

You should take a couple days 'rest' from the internet, unplug the modem and just relax to get your life back on track.