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:stunned: I just died.

No! :lol: :lol: :huh:

Aw, thanks. I don't think so, but I'm also quite hard on myself :rolleyes:

Whoa, Gwyneth as the lead? Now that'd be something! :lol: :lol: :lol:

I met Edge, from U2 He's signing my thing here!! I've met Billy Preston, Neil Innes, Larry Kane (he's written a couple excellent books on the Beatles) and I came within 2 feet of actually meeting Bono, but it wasn't meant to be on that day. :cry: But I'm very proud of my Edge meeting. HE WINKED AND SMILED AT ME AAAAAAAH *dies* sorry I tell everyone this :lol: :lol:

Suicide has been proven to be "contagious". When one person does it, it often sets off a chain reaction. You would NEVER be forgotten, please don't think that. Please. I'm telling you, it scares me to read this. Because I know how bad it is, honestly I do. I've been on both sides of the tracks here. I think what suicide ties into a bit is the human perception of heaven, and death. No one knows what death is. What if this life is all we've got? What if there's nothing better? So what's the point of dying when you could have nothing when you die. it just doesn't make sense to me. And I've thought about it a lot. I just can't say enough that suicide isn't worth it. It kills more than you. And a lot of times the thoughts saying that there's nothing here for you, there's no life worth living, it's NOT you. There's something wrong beyond what you can comprehend. Really.

Yeah! I always tap my foot to the rhythm of some random song that's playing in my head. It amuses me in math class. :lol:

No. I chew the collar of my shirt (not in public, though). Which I'm doing right now. My public nervous tick is running my hands through my hair and tapping my foot. It's kind of annoying, especially when I'm wearing rings, run my hands through my hair and it gets caught :lol: :lol: :rolleyes: EDIT: And don't stop making threads, Headless Chick, it sort of helps outweigh all the "personal" threads for everybody :lol: I like discussion threads!

I guess I'll share my picture, everybody's doin' it! :lol: *embaressed* :confused:

It's incredible how much you sound like me, Headless Chick. I would never tell my friends about anything I've written in this thread thus far, even. I just would be too uncomfortable. A lot of the interests I have I don't share with people of my own age group. My mom even says that I have the interests of a person in their 20s. You're not alone, don't worry. I'm sure your friends might even feel this way themselves sometimes. It's half the reason why I'm on the internet so much as I am, I can just relate to people here more than I can in my "real life". I'm thankful for it. Talking to my therapist has been excellent, she's given me so many helpful tips about changing my diet, excersize plan, and lots of things. Don't worry, you have plenty of people to relate to and talk to here, and getting a diary or journal would be good.

I think what my problem is (and hopefully this will soon be in past tense) is that I dream really big sometimes. I have huge ambitions to do all these incredible things with my life, like be a photojournalist, travel the world, make poverty history, etc etc. I've been having trouble focusing in school, and indeed caring about it at all. I feel like everything I'm being taught and forced to do each day is just crushing all these dreams I have. So I end up not doing things. Now I'm failing a few of my classes, which I've never done before. I've thought of dropping out often, because I just hate it so much. But I'm terrified of giving up and that ruining my future and all these things I really want to do. After talking to my therapist and psychiatrist about my feelings of indifference, or avoidance, or fear of the future, they showed me that the world's not completely out to get me. Sure, there are lots of fucktards who'll screw you over, but you can't let them grind you down. You just have to take them and use them to make you stronger, and take your failures and do the same thing.

I'm an absolutely idiotic drunk. I mean, you know how getting drunk makes some people funnier, some people hornier, etc etc? It just makes me a complete moron. Over the summer I went to Paris and Spain on a school trip, and I was legal drinking age there. Every meal I'd have a couple big glasses of wine. I turned 17 in Barcelona and we went to the Hard Rock Cafe. My friends and I sat in another part of the restaurant than the chaperone teacher, so I kind of went a bit overboard. I got my own glass, so did my friends, but none of them wanted theirs so I sort of "helped them" finish them off.... Well, I guess one of them told the waitress it was my birthday and all the servers came out with a little cake and candle (I guess they do this all over the world, not just America!) and sang Happy Birthday to me. But they made me get up and stand on the table while they did it....... Which was er.... difficult. Of course it didn't occur to me until later that I was standing on a really high table in a skirt in front of the whole Hard Rock smiling like a fucking moron... I also walked into a pole in Madrid after dinner, where I had a few. In front of a bunch of locals. Who laughed. Oh well.

Oh. The visuals. Too bad Monty Python is done. That'd make such a skit. ...Or was it already?

I heard that 95% of Geography in American schools focuses only on, American geography. I think the actual number is 98.756340466% Give or take a percent point.

I'm going to be frank, since this is a very serious topic. Please don't think those thoughts, whether it be you or someone you know or someone reading this thread. Suicide hurts everyone, not just yourself. It changes peoples lives forever, and not for the better. I've been depressed for almost 2 years now, and only recently sought help when I started to think these same thoughts. I would never do anything serious to myself, I know that, because I personally feel that suicide is incredibly selfish. But a lot of times you can't control the thoughts that go through your head, especially when you already have a chemical imbalance. I know a lot of people openly mock kids who cut their wrists, or bring physical harm to themselves. Like people who cut themselves in the bathroom at school, then everyone laughs at them. It upsets me because I know that it's not something "stupid", it's a cry for help. Doing purposeful harm to yourself, however, for attention or to fit an "emo" stereotype IS dumb. Beyond dumb. It shouldn't be normal to think about killing yourself. In fact, if you have these thoughts you really really need to talk to someone. I'm telling you, it helps a lot (and I'm not talking specifically to you, Headless Chick, but anyone who reads this). A lot of times I would think that I wish I were born someone else, someone different, someone stronger and without all these problems I have to deal with. But that's not going to happen. And if I took my own life, I know that would kill my parents, my innocent brother, my friends, the list goes on and on. I told my parents about how I was feeling, the pressures that I felt I couldn't deal with anymore, and I went to see a therapist, then a psychiatrist. It's helped me more than a lot. I don't talk to people about this, not often at least, just because I'm a private person. But it's GOOD to talk about it, and if I can maybe help someone who's also depressed, I would feel so good (which is an understatement).

I don't have to do that... :confused: Then again, the education system in America sucks the big balls. Maybe that's why we're all so stupid.

I wonder if killing your cloned self would become a contraversy equal to abortion. Hmmm. "When does a clone feel pain?" the next Senate topic!! I can see it now!

Procrastination is my life. My entire world revolves around not getting things done. If I DID do things on time, I'd cease to be me. When my teacher tells me I didn't turn in the lab until a week after the due date, I feel like telling him "I can't help it. I was BORN this way!"

:lol: :lol: :lol: I don't think ANYTHING'S better than doing coke off a hookers back!

You know what would be really creepy? Having sex with yourself. .....Please, don't ask why I just thought of that. :stunned:

LiquidSky, you're my hero. I would have beat the shit out of the kid, too, but I'd be too much of a pussy. :lol: :lol: I've actually never gotten in trouble at school, not even been forced to stay after class. I guess I've just never gotten caught. I can be quite the angel to authority (on the outside) :angel:

don't make me put on george. plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. OH MY GOD YOU JUST MADE ME PUT ON GEORGE. :bigcry:

Oh good lord.... :dead:

I think we should have an entire portion of this forum dedicated to exactly where you can get Coldplay's clothes from, how, and what brands they are.

lmfao, put in the fuckhead part. :lol: :lol: