Fml..

I really don't want to get dressed.

 

But if I get dressed, then I can make brownies. :wacky:

Tired. 4 hours sleep, no smokes. *YAWN*

I miss you.

hfiudsfdsagaarsad

Bad thoughts, bad thoughts, bad thoughts,lol.

Uh about your voice....yes... you see.... YOU ARE SOOOO SO SO SO SO QUIET!

I don't need to be hospitalized...

I've got wiring on the mind

Mon cher ami

I wish I could've pressed the pause button just for a second..

I wrote a chord progression 11 years ago after seeing Coldplay for the first time. Tonight, that turned into a song!!!!! Thanks, Guys, for all your inspiration!:D

 

Oh, yeah, and I have Row's lovely Jonny avi back.:D

No VEVO I don't want to watch the shitty Pitbull concert

No Rai I don't want to pay just to see the awful Sanremo festival or some other stupid programs

No weird ad, I don't want to buy a second hand car

how on earth does a 13 year old dude accidentally kiss his dude friend 4 times

how on earth does a 13 year old dude accidentally kiss his dude friend 4 times

 

Don't know why but I find this post disturbing :|

Lordie how I don't want to walk downtown tonight. Oh well, a gig's a gig.

I have no idea what I want them to say when I walk across the stage, and it's due tomorrow!! :bomb:

someone just told me i am the perfect size and they wish every girl was my size :| but they were also drunk :disappointed:

 

i think i'm starting to come to terms with the fact that i really am built like this--broad shoulders, wide hips, wide rib cage--and there are people who will see that, or see past it, or not see it at all, and there are people who will use it to tear me down, like they used to...even at my fittest, i wasn't good enough. that is fucking damaging, to work your ass off, but still be so chubby and called out for it...how do my hip bones stick out when i'm so chubby?

 

i should probably play some soccer to at least strengthen and tone my legs again, even if it is bulky manly muscle...at least it won't be fat. i miss being strong. even though i'm losing the muscle and slimming a little, i want to be strong again. i don't need to impress anyone. i just need to be who i want to be. i don't want to be weak or look weak anymore, because that's not me. not now.

 

everyone thinks there's something wrong with them, but usually, it's just in their heads...maybe it's all in mine, too, and i'm beautiful, or even just adequate, and that would be enough for me...

 

i'm reading pro-ana stuff and feeling bad for the mothers who buy their daughters their favorite foods to get them to eat, and the girls secretly throwing it out and cursing their mothers...when i was young, there was hardly any food...let alone my favorite foods...

 

i tried everything to get myself to feel perfect or good enough, but i'm starting to realize it's not possible...this is something i need to let go.

 

i'm not the victim anymore.

I should have got up earlier.

*deletes everything else typed*.

positive thinking today. do it!

;~;

I'm glad to be out of that hospital..

Please don't.... :(

FOCUS.

Hurry up..

That was some really scary shit last night! Let's try not to let it drive us mad though.