Well...........Nik and Eric!I actually know that...but it is strange to explain....it is always the same problem that comes back everytime.........maybe it is because I don't have a best friend or even a boyfriend........where I am the only one..maybe stupid........but I never had a best friend...maybe that is missing in my life.........I always get along wth almost everybody.....but a best friend?No............I never ha da real one......people used to exploite me............I made bad experiences and that's the point...I was maybe to nice to them!

yeah trust me not Eric :laugh1: he is the most gigantic lying mouth of all time :laugh3:

 

joking :sneaky: trust Eric! ;) he's a cool pimp :pimp2: i like him

I feel' date=' Julia, that you can trust Nik and I because we genuinely care about you.[/quote']

 

You really do?Well........that's another problem of me.........I always think people don't care about me and don't want to talk to me....I know this is stupid but I can't top it!

erm.....stop.not top! :P

:cry: damn, i thaught we are such a family sister :disappointed:

 

we all luv ya :lips:

:cry: damn, i thaught we are such a family sister :disappointed:

 

we all luv ya :lips:

 

Nik....I can't help it.....there is a problem somewhere in myself....and I don't know what it is....if there is just one person who doesn't like me I think the world hates me.......

I feel' date=' Julia, that you can trust Nik and I because we genuinely care about you.[/quote']

 

You really do?Well........that's another problem of me.........I always think people don't care about me and don't want to talk to me....I know this is stupid but I can't top it!

yea, I know what you're talking about. You're not the first person to feel that way (I'm not talking about myself.. although I think I probably have, not to the degree that you feel right now) Sometimes people get a phobia (irrational fear) that nobody genuinely cares. Maybe to some degree you're right. I always felt that way. If I was suddenly a loser then I know what friends would leave me. But then there are people who appreciate me as a person no matter who I am. A lot of times they're kids who look up to me. I really think that if you were somebody's mentor in some way or there was a kid who looked up to you it really would make a difference because kids do genuinely care sometimes.

 

For example, there's a kid I know who's got a studdering problem and he's got tourrette's syndrome (sometimes he might randomly say a cuss word or something) and my brother and his friends make fun of him a lot because he followed them around and it annoyed them because they were too cool.. but this kid knew I defended him at times when everyone was making fun of him and he knew I wouldn't tell him to go away, etc and he's really a good friend of mine. Maybe a best friend.

 

If suddenly I was a loser or I embarrassed myself doing something in front of a lot of people and everyone hated me I know he would still like me because he genuinely felt something from me and he's a genuine person.

:cry: damn, i thaught we are such a family sister :disappointed:

 

we all luv ya :lips:

 

Nik....I can't help it.....there is a problem somewhere in myself....and I don't know what it is....if there is just one person who doesn't like me I think the world hates me.......

 

don't care with those persons...i know that a lot of people here as well hate me,but i don't give a fuck "their hitler hairdos are making me feel ill", it's impossible to be beloved by everybody

I know what you are talking about.........of course there are some people like that here too.............there is a boy in my school for example..........almost everybody makes fun of him except me and my friends.........and sometimes just talked to him and he was nice and was so too..............and through things like that I get a worse view of todays society because I hate nothing more than people who use to make fun of other for no obvious reason.just because they are not looking like their ideal.............and people like this boy i think really like me because of that.......I don't have a friendship with him.......but I'm just nice to him.......and when I'm with those people i feel different!

:cry: damn, i thaught we are such a family sister :disappointed:

 

we all luv ya :lips:

 

Nik....I can't help it.....there is a problem somewhere in myself....and I don't know what it is....if there is just one person who doesn't like me I think the world hates me.......

 

don't care with those persons...i know that a lot of people here as well hate me,but i don't give a fuck "their hitler hairdos are making me feel ill", it's impossible to be beloved by everybody

 

 

I know this Nik...............but as I said I can't help it........this feeling comes always back again!

I know what you are talking about.........of course there are some people like that here too.............there is a boy in my school for example..........almost everybody makes fun of him except me and my friends.........and sometimes just talked to him and he was nice and was so too..............and through things like that I get a worse view of todays society because I hate nothing more than people who use to make fun of other for no obvious reason.just because they are not looking like their ideal.............and people like this boy i think really like me because of that.......I don't have a friendship with him.......but I'm just nice to him.......and when I'm with those people i feel different!

I think you need more people like that to make you feel good-er. but uhh... really I have to go now... I should be going to school :uhoh: like... now... like... I woke up late and skipped a class because I woke up so late (I set my alarm but it was on the radio and I slept right through it cuz it was quiet) now you're making me stay late :P HA! we're even (I guess)

AHA!!!

you skipped a class......shame on you! :P

 

And yes.......no you see how it is being late!Have fn at school!See you later! :)

astalavista Eric :cool2: *what does it mean? :thinking: heh...*

 

well,Jules...we can only give support and advices,i dunno how to help :huh:

Well........Nik...........you really help through just talking to me....really.........and I really appreciate it to know people like you.........don't know..but you and Eric are some of the few persons I really care about on here...and I really care about your opinion........I'm really happy to have you here and that you talk to me.......thanks for that! :)

hasta la vista means see you later :rolleyes: BYE!! AND DON'T POST IN THE SNUGGLES THREAD OR I WILL HATE YOU FOREVER!!!!

:shocked: no,i will once when it will be on page number 132412340 :tongue1:

Well........Nik...........you really help through just talking to me....really.........and I really appreciate it to know people like you.........don't know..but you and Eric are some of the few persons I really care about on here...and I really care about your opinion........I'm really happy to have you here and that you talk to me.......thanks for that! :)

 

and I just want you to see that!

And now I go.............see you later Nik bro! :) :nice:

tschuss :mellow:

I'm sorry to those who don't care about it for me still bringing this back up, but I want to understand Julia and therefore I'm gonna reply again (I would've done it on the page it was written but I wasnt here)

 

Then...........well.......I use to do this with everyone..............really.........I don't do this with people who I think are weak or something like that....I think then they could understand it wrong........I thought you would understand it.........and I'm not incredibly nice to everyone..no......and maybe I act different towards you...........yeah....but maybe that is because most of the people see you (for me it seems like that) as a god....without really knowing you.........they see you and think maybe "Oh his name is reilly......I've heard that....everyone respects him."..........and I don't want to behave like that towards you.........because I don't think so...maybe you make those serious topics etc...........yeah.true.......but for me there is nothing more special about you than about some others here.......but that shouldn't mean I don't like you........

 

I'm a bit lost as to how people view me these days, I used to think I was popular, but now, just look at people's signatures, I'm in like 2 of them, and people like Will are in every sig (And he's a nice guy, dont get me wrong, but surely it would appear he's a lot more popular then me, yet it could be argued). Maybe I have a weird kind of underlying popularity because you never see any obvious signs of people loving me, therefore I dont think they do. I actually thought I was hated by about 80% of people before I won Big Brother (it couldn't help but change my view a little). I still think I'm one of the most hated here.

 

I dont think there is anything more special about me, of course not, and maybe I have mis-judged you in thinking that you dont like me because-- you do mention me a lot in terms of making topics and such, yet you dont say many positive things. I think I focus more on the negative, maybe.

 

And one thing:

 

You think I treat you in a different way!Well..............you also treat me diffrent that's another point!I remember you saying something nice to me once...which was "Good topic Julia" and that's it.....so why should I treat you in another way than you do to me?

 

I really, really disagree with this, and I think you are completely wrong in stating that I haven't been nice to you, because I have.

 

And I mean that, most people I "Be nice to" but for me to be nice doesnt always come off as nice, but for you, I think I've always told you I like your presence on the board etc. Even when we had that fight in the Reilly thread, the entire time I was writing things like "Julia it's nothing personal, I still like you a lot, but ..blah blah fight etc." and I didnt see one sign of getting that back.

 

And like I said, it's fine if you dont want to say positive things about me, I really dont mind, but you do bring up my name a lot in negative terms and it begins to make me feel really, plain and boring.

 

And sometimes I get the impression that you think I'm a bit dumb.............yeah you are a clever guy..........and I get the impression that some people here think I'm not that clever because I have sometimes problems to express myself in english............because I don't think about myself that I'm clever........

 

I'm sorry if you got that impression, but it's not true, I'm not just saying that. I find sometimes your topics and points of views are written in ways that may be seen as a little confusing, but I understand the message at least, and I do think your way of thinking is always interesting and complex. You are clever, and thanks for saying that about me.

OMG THATS A LOTTA POSTS!

why 9027??

yeahhhh... Why 9027? is it some beverly hills code? :huh:

remember my previous nickname,Fockers? :thinking:

yeahhh I do... but please call me Gaylord!!!

 

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