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I really liked it.

Hey, Crystal. I wanna go to sleep.

Anyone going anywhere nice? I'm asking cause, I'm going to France for 2 weeks, today. Bye. :)

The Shins - Wincing The Night Away Kelly Jones - Only The Names Have Been Changed Bloc Party - A Weekend in the City and I'm looking forward to most: Stereophonics - Pull The Pin Kanye West - Graduation

That bond i'm specifically talking about is the bond between myself and my mother. Little background story: Since I was 12 I've lived with my mother and my two brothers, after my dad fell on hard times and we lost contact with him, and more recently my mams boyfriend. I say most recently, I mean like... on and off for the past 2 or 3 years. I'm losing that mother - son bond. I'll always appreciate till the end of the Earth what she did for my brothers and me when my dad left, raising 3 sons by herself on a very average wage and giving us the life we live, but I don't like her. I don't want this to sound like some cry story, 'cause I have a very good life, but I'm completely losing the relationship with her. I have two little brothers (16 and 13, 2 and 5 years younger than me respectively) and for the past 2 years now I've felt completely that I'm the least favourite. I know, it's a theme that most older siblings will say they feel, but I genuinely think that's how she sees it. I'm not just talking about the whole "they always side with the younger brother" thing, either. I never get any credit for anything. On the other hand, the smallest achievement from either brother gets a parade. The usual stuff. My 16 year old brother put the wooden flooring down in this room I'm in now. He's that kind of person, he does paintings and stuff. I'm not, I can draw, yeah, but I don't enjoy it, and I'm not the big pratical person. My brothers work experience was working at an electricians, mine was working for my uncle. Any time anyone comes into this house it's like "Oh, yeah, my 16 year old son put this floor down, and painted that picture. Oh, him? Nah he just sits around and does nothing". Him is me. I do nothing for no-one, in her eyes. I mean, not to sound arrogant or proclaim myself as a saint, but that's not true at all. I've spent every Saturday for the past 2 years, most Sundays, and a whole bunch of Tuesday/Wednesday nights going to the local football pitches and helping out running a football team. I've not been paid for any of it, and all I have to show for it is one league championship trophy and a few memories. Fact is, I started out doing that for my brother. When he started out, I went along to watch and show I'm interested, and they asked if I'd help out. I still go to every single one of his home cricket games (away games aren't an option cause I can't get there). Two seasons he's been playing cricket and I've been to about 30 games, my mam? Maybe 2. She's not a sports person, I don't like watching cricket either, but I still go. But of course, I wouldn't demand recognition for it. I just don't like the fact that to everyone outside my family, and even some of my family, who walk through the front door, leave out the same door with an impression of me as some guy who has nothing going for him, while my brother is the perfect person. It's no way my brothers fault, mind. I've even heard it from her herself. I was thinking things like "oh, she definately thinks of me as a least favourite son", but I'd dismiss it, along with all my friends reassuring me saying "oh, every child thinks that". But she's saying it right behind me, knowing I can hear. Things recently including "he needs to grow up and sort himself out and do something for someone", going back to even a year ago where she basically made the statement that she wishes she'd had my cousin for a son instead of me. I'm too boring, apparently. That "boring" word is an actual quote, too. Cause when we spend time with our family, my cousin will sit with the adults drinking and talking, while I'll be with my cousins and brothers playing football and laughing. I'm not the perfect son by no stretch of the imagination, but she makes it out like I've never achieved anything and I never will. I mean, I have good grades in school, I'm completely out of trouble, I'm in good shape physically, and there's still probably only a handful of people that have ever met me that wouldn't say a nice thing about me (said at the risk of sounding arrogant, but it's what I believe). The most I ever get is a "well done" or a quiet "thanks". I mean, I got 10 GCSEs, "well done". I got A's in ICT and Media last year... I don't even think I got a well done. I can't remember her saying a nice thing about me to someone else, like a stranger. Of course, Matt could be right in saying to me "you probably can, you're just frustrated", but I asked my brother and he couldn't either. Her personality is one I don't think I'd get along with if it was in a random person. Put her personality in a girl in my school and I don't think I'd like that person. I mean, of course, she has characteristics that I admire her for, and has done things for me that I'll be grateful for all my life, but there's gaping things about her that I can't stand. Personally, I think if you sent her back some 19 years ago, and gave her the choice of being a parent again, with her knowledge of what it'd be like, I don't think she'd even have kids the second time around. Read it if you will, I need a neutral outlet to say this in. I'd have used myspace but there's people there that know my family more than you guys do.

oh? :smug:

My cousin Paul was born in Perth, Australia on 1st October, 1988.

Gervais plainly was losing it at the end :P And, Kanye West was the best all night, no doubt. He was 7 mins of greatness.

My prom was last night so that was it for me. The end of school as I know it. Weeeeeeeeeird.

That doesn't mean if you have something to post that's relevant to another topic, you can just throw it in here and let the moderators move it.

Hey, we have a thread for introductions like this :) Hm, I say thread, I mean, forum. Entire forum.

Prom night last night. I'm the one that's in all 3 pictures :P There's a couple more on my Myspace. (look just below this line) \/

I think I read you say in a uni based conversation that you were sad that you'd probably lose your gran before you got to Uni. I guess that you were right ;( Death is a horrible but prominent part of life. Hope you and your family's ok. I lost my gran 3 days before Christmas in 99, so 9 days before the Millenium as well. That was a bit rubbish, and my grandad Alan died 8 days after my brother was born in 91, while my other grandad died 2 weeks before I turned 15. Not much you can do about it though, just try to get back to normal.

Uhhh.... I have prom on Thursday and sign off on Friday, and that's it, for me. I'm not even excited about prom at all, I don't even know if I'll go. I've never been a big fan of occasions and celebrations and stuff, but urh, I just don't like things like that. I'm at Northum. Uni in September, even though I don't really want to go. I just don't find any alternatives that appeal to me. I originally planned to move to Middlesborough and go to Teesside, but I had a huge explosion that went off in my head that showed me that it wasn't somewhere I wanted to be, so I'm staying local so I can stay at home and not end up stuck in Teesside £6000 down if I hate it. It's really odd to think that I'll not sit in a high school classroom with my friends again. It's amazing how quick it all goes by.

Uhhhh. Wow. David I just looked at that thread and realised I did an Independance Day styled reply in there as well as in this thread. Argh. o.O;

Slow Sunday. ;(

Man, this thread. Someone told me a dead baby joke before and it reminded me of this thread. Oh joy. I wouldn't read it if you don't like dead baby jokes.

They're like aliens. And we're like the people who stand in circles with signs with things like "WELCOME TO OUR BOARD" or "WE ARE PEACE" on top of skyscrapers. They're gonna shoot a lazer beam at us though, and destroy us. It'll happen. And that day we will fight back.

I'm on it again now.

Oh my God I just can't believe it!

everyone should use a tennis racket as a guitar. although, everyone has done that.

Hmm, wonder if I can change my photo on there xD

i'm on there. singing. ;(

Everyone should score the most amazing goal of their life and remember it forever. :D

It'd be pretty cool to have an identical twin. He could play basketball against me :wacko: