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eureka - mother mother heh

why do I even try to be happy when it always ends up like this? I thought for sure I'd go to bed smiling though DAMN ITIFGPØÅuyt C

holy shit, I feel happy and I have danced a lot outside with my dog and little sister to Phoenix and Jónsi music. //how long will this last?//

Why can't I get over her. seriously, this is ridiculous and exhausting.

what about making collages? find old newspapers and magazines and start cutting out and putting stuff together. writing stories and poems is nice too. meh, I guess it will get boring after a while since you sit still while doing it. //good music always helps though// But yeah, as other people have said: learn how to play an instrument! oh and knitting yes haha. I wish I knew how to knit(I tried once and ugh no, I'm not patient enough).

I thought that if I didn't talk to you for a while you would come to me, instead of me coming to you. But I see that it's not working. I'm going to send you a letter in the mail, I hope you will understand more. I feel that words written by hand mean more than the ones typed out.

It hurts when you keep telling me how no one will ever fall in love with you and that you will never find someone when I'm right here.

oh you know, being with that one person who lives half the world away from me

Happiness is a fleeting feeling. I feel it often, but it doesn't last. I'm mostly sad but it's because of things I have no control over. I need to find a way to accept it all and try and be positive again. It's almost funny how -one- person can mess you up so much. but right now I'm pretty happy. I'm watching Eragon and drinking coffee, and it's raining outside and I've got my blankie. Oh and Jeremy Irons is in Eragon. Jeremy Irons. Enough said. ok

I keep repeating myself. Why do I need to be reassured all the time, I should know by now. But I can't believe it even if I want to. I know who I am, and so do you, and it baffles me that you are still here. Damn it.

@crests, :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:

walking around town with two of my great friends.

zeigeist dandi wind kira kira caribou bon iver phoenix figurines pond do while the knife

I wish I had the strength to tell her what I feel.

woah, I have never felt this much emotional pain before. I kind of feel like laughing hysterically because I don't know how to deal with this properly.

You know that I need to hear you say it all the time. Just tell me. Once a day. Show me. My emotions get so mixed up when you don't.

second lover - noah and the whale jesus christ, this song makes me cry so much. but then the ending is all happy and shit and I'm left with mixed emotions damn you happy music that makes me cry.

so is that like permanent spraycan paint whatever :blank:

Hide and Seek - Imogen Heap.

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19.08.2009 @ Koengen, Bergen - Norway. what a beautiful day that was.

Your musical compatibility with CookieUtopia is HIGH Music you have in common includes Mumford & Sons, Phoenix, Coldplay, Radiohead and Arcade Fire.

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows p2: 6/10. District 9: 9/10. Lolita (1997): 10/10.

Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov and Night Shift - Stephen King

You know that I love you, I tell you every day. I care for you, I want you to be happy. But I will never be enough, will I? My love will never be enough. My chest hurts from crying last night. I just wish you could see how in love I am with you.