April 21, 200620 yr Sally's back!!:) yeah, i am... welcome back, haven't seen you here for a long time!
April 21, 200620 yr yeah' date=' i am... welcome back, haven't seen you here for a long time![/quote'] Aren't you in England yet??:P
April 21, 200620 yr Grace- That sounds so nice..it's a start and a huge step forward IMO. you're right ... i hope it will last this way ...
April 21, 200620 yr No, not seriously. Just like, "I wonder how things would change if I did," like the same way I wonder, "What if I won the lottery?"
April 21, 200620 yr Aren't you in England yet??:P Nope, I'll go there in July. I'll have my exams in about a month.
April 21, 200620 yr Author No' date=' not seriously. Just like, "I wonder how things would change if I did," like the same way I wonder, "What if I won the lottery?"[/quote'] i think you meant for this to be in your thread.:confused: :wink3:
April 21, 200620 yr Hmm to be honest.. I don't remember having any thoughts about commiting suicide but I do remember having a dream. I never really told this to anyone and some of you probably won't believe me but when I was younger maybe around 15. I had this dream that it was about me waking up in the evening and I was home alone. I went to the kitchen and got a knife and then I got in the bathtub and started playing with the knife on the side of my right leg and then I slid my throat. I woke up after that or at least I thought I woke up and did exactly the same as the dream except I looked at myself in the mirror before getting in the tub and then I guess I knew what I was doing after that and forced myself to wake up. I was sleep walking.. it was scary. I am not sure how you can get rid of it though :huh:
April 21, 200620 yr You mean you were actually about to repeat it in real life?? (Hehe, my post was made specially for this thread. :laugh4: )
April 21, 200620 yr You mean you were actually about to repeat it in real life?? (Hehe, my post was made specially for this thread. :laugh4: ) I know! I wasn't even thinking! But at the time.. it seemed.. natural.. :stunned: :sick: :confused: It was strange.. it was like one of those things you do without thinking but you are still doing it? well it was like that.. I never had any dreams similar like that ever again.
April 21, 200620 yr I know! I wasn't even thinking! But at the time.. it seemed.. natural.. :stunned: :sick: :confused: It was strange.. it was like one of those things you do without thinking but you are still doing it? well it was like that.. I never had any dreams similar like that ever again. you mean that it kinda seemed like brushing your teeth every morning? omg ... that's sooo frightening ...
April 21, 200620 yr I used to think about suicide every day. And I mean really...... I would read the tylenol bottles to see how big a dose it takes to be deadly... eh. I don't so much anymore, at least not in a realistic way. It's more "I can't believe I thought that/almost did that" and how it would have been if I HAD. I've gotten over that.... thankfully!:)
April 21, 200620 yr you mean that it kinda seemed like brushing your teeth every morning? omg ... that's sooo frightening ... yeah kinda but it was more like when you are numb.. you are not really thinking just doing whatever you are supposed to do. Like when you wake up in the mornings but you are still very sleepy and getting dressed or whatever you do in the mornings, well like that.
April 21, 200620 yr yeah it was strange. It did scared me. I haven't had any similiar dreams like ever again. Thank God!
April 22, 200620 yr Hmm to be honest.. I don't remember having any thoughts about commiting suicide but I do remember having a dream. I never really told this to anyone and some of you probably won't believe me but when I was younger maybe around 15. I had this dream that it was about me waking up in the evening and I was home alone. I went to the kitchen and got a knife and then I got in the bathtub and started playing with the knife on the side of my right leg and then I slid my throat. I woke up after that or at least I thought I woke up and did exactly the same as the dream except I looked at myself in the mirror before getting in the tub and then I guess I knew what I was doing after that and forced myself to wake up. I was sleep walking.. it was scary. I am not sure how you can get rid of it though :huh: :stunned: Very, very scarying... Last time I thought about it was like 2 months ago, nowadays I'm pretty normal, even happy. I cant avoid it, there's just some periodic times when I feel like it. I get somehow depressed and start looking a reason to everything...even my existing. But I think I would never dare to do such stupid thing even though I might see everything around me so bad and senseless cause I know it doesn't have to be like I see it in my mind... Like a distortioned view of things... Maybe I did not myself clear but eh, that's it.
April 22, 200620 yr I've thought about it, but not in a serious way like I would actually want to do it... I would never want to kill myself. I think life is worth WAY too much. Even if it is miserable
April 22, 200620 yr :stunned: Very' date=' very scarying...[/i'] Last time I thought about it was like 2 months ago, nowadays I'm pretty normal, even happy. I cant avoid it, there's just some periodic times when I feel like it. I get somehow depressed and start looking a reason to everything...even my existing. But I think I would never dare to do such stupid thing even though I might see everything around me so bad and senseless cause I know it doesn't have to be like I see it in my mind... Like a distortioned view of things... Maybe I did not myself clear but eh, that's it. I think that if you concentrate too much on it then it surely won't help and only get worse on it..
April 22, 200620 yr I've thought about it' date=' but not in a serious way like I would actually want to do it... I would never want to kill myself. I think life is worth WAY too much. Even if it is miserable[/quote'] hehe, that sounds pretty dumb doesn't it? :P actually I'm serious though, you have to make your life worth something to you by working towards a goal.
April 22, 200620 yr hehe' date=' that sounds pretty dumb doesn't it? :P actually I'm serious though, you have to make your life worth something to you by working towards a goal.[/quote'] It doesn't sound dumb to me :)
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