Gitta Rensolo Posted November 17, 2006 Share Posted November 17, 2006 Well....maybe this is more appropriate for people in my age (whose lives change a lot...hope you get what I mean there;)) I was lurking through some old threads some minutes ago and this is what made me think a bit.... my favourite sentence used to be "I'm bored!".......I think I read that in every second post by me! When I think about this now....how depressing it actually was....nothing special happened in my life back then.....that's why I stayed here for so long every day.... If I did this now, one year later, I think I would become mad. How much my life has changed since then.....my way of thinking....my looks..... Most important thing is that I became a whole bunch more self-confident which made me a happier person......definitely! I used to say that everybody here ( where I live...) is not like me.......that I hate going out around here, etc.......my sister still keeps making fun of me because of this.....and now I can understand her.....my view of life was just wayyyyyy too negative.......depressing.... Actually I didn't change much according to my life-style....I just changed something in my mind.....and now yes now I see that I had a totally wrong view eg about people in school.......now that I act different....happier....I get along so well with them......I'm not that shy anymore.... and it feels good.......yeeeeeeeeeeeesssss...... so....why did I create this thread now? Maybe to share my "story"......... But I also want to know if there is anybody out there who feels the same... and an advice: If you don't think too much about things and if you are content with yourself....life is MUCH easier!:D (haha.....great advice...:P) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
*Sarah* Posted November 17, 2006 Share Posted November 17, 2006 gosh, this is my topic, julia :nice: during the last couple of days - or let's say weeks - I very often went trough the "old times" and I realized that I've probably totally changed within one year. last year, I had loads and loads of problems to deal with, most of them had to do with school and there was a time when I thought about just dropping out and leaving everything behind. I was so sure that I wouldn't graduate anyway. ... long story short, I passed my a-levels in june, it was SO much easier than expected that it was almost scary *g* ... I really did much better than anyone could have expected, so I found myself quite happy again. subsequently, I got rid of a lot of my incertainty and felt that I could achieve something - you must know that I never felt anything like that before. and I was right, because this year so far gave me so many new experiences. last year I didn't know what it meant to be responsible for yourself (after I left school my parents haven't supported me quite as much as they did before) or responsible for other things - such as working for a newspaper (where the tiniest mistake can get you into huge trouble) or working in night shifts in a factory that really sucks. *g* plus, since august I also know what it feels like to have the greatest person on earth as my boyfriend. one year ago, I never would have expected that life would be this way one day. last year, maybe 90% of my thoughts concerned school and how everything would turn out and if other people liked me (because many people didn't) - now I simply don't care anymore, got much more self-confidence and therefore simply became totally different. :snore: eehhm... yeah. sorry, I somehow couldn't resist. this was quite personal and quite boring, I s'ppose. forgive me ;D Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Gitta Rensolo Posted November 17, 2006 Author Share Posted November 17, 2006 Nope.....I don't think that this is boring.....I find it interesting how life can change because of experiences and what this can make of others.... I went to the kitchen some minutes ago (lol) and I was thinking about this topic....I felt like eating chocolate....so I did.....nothing special....but maybe a year ago I would have regret it so much afterwards,......and I would have felt bad about everything.... now I do what I feel like doing....and I don't make a problem of everything.... same as the next thing: I have to work tomorrow.....months ago I used to feel depressed at friday evenings when I knew I had to work the next day..... now I'm even a bit looking forward to it haha.... What I like about all this is that I always wanted to change my life.....to become a happier person.......I tried and tried but used to fail...... somehow I accepted this fact........and this change of my mind happened without "planning" it.....it just happened......during one year.....and I like that.....that this change wasn't really an intention but it happened....:D well....maybe it is just a phase of being happy.....and next time I'm depressed I will think like I did before.......but I'm not sure about that and hope it is a CHANGE! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
*Sarah* Posted November 17, 2006 Share Posted November 17, 2006 people who are trying really hard to change often fail ;) at least, that's my own experience. you can compare it with love - the more you want to find someone and fall in love, your chances become less and less. maybe that's a stupid comparison, but I think it has something to do with how desperate you are. and when you're desperate you aren't yourself anymore so the change isn't ... ehm ... honest. :nice: therefore, I think it's much more helpful when these changes only "come along" without really planning it. but of course I could be wrong ;) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Gitta Rensolo Posted November 17, 2006 Author Share Posted November 17, 2006 Well....when I think about it I agree with you.....I mean if you want to change something so hard you are not yourself anymore...and if you change something because of experiences then it just erm....happens!(Oh you said that before...:P) I think in some cases I was almost desperate.....that's why I wanted to change something so much..... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
green eyes88 Posted November 17, 2006 Share Posted November 17, 2006 if i think about me one year ago im definetly not the same person i am now if i think about me a month ago im not the same person either i change all the time, and i know what you mean about age... i think im at an age where many things around me are changing.... leaving home and stuff. It just makes me change very quickly.... i think any change u go through is for the better, because either way u can look back on yourself and realise what kind of person u were and what kind of person u want to be..... i've been feeling pretty good about the person i am lately :smug: and i think im still changing for the better Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Byron369 Posted November 17, 2006 Share Posted November 17, 2006 People never change. Not in the way they want to. Maybe you've changed your haircut, point of view...but You are still You. So, no, I haven't changed. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Gitta Rensolo Posted November 17, 2006 Author Share Posted November 17, 2006 hahaha.....yep I changed my haircut....:P well....I know the "basis" usually stays....but more talking about view of life and stuff like that....;) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mc_squared Posted November 17, 2006 Share Posted November 17, 2006 What's disappointing is when people get more judgmental, critical and "snobby" for no apparent reason, when they used to seem much more open and full of fun. It's a great shame when that happens.;) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Byron369 Posted November 17, 2006 Share Posted November 17, 2006 Well...I guess then yeah. I've changed. A lot. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Gitta Rensolo Posted November 17, 2006 Author Share Posted November 17, 2006 What's disappointing is when people get more judgmental' date=' critical and "snobby" for no apparent reason, when they used to seem much more open and full of fun. It's a great shame when that happens.;)[/quote'] Nice allusion....maybe this happened on here...from your point of view...however.....I'm really happy about how my life is now...really..and I'm glad it is not like it was last year... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mc_squared Posted November 17, 2006 Share Posted November 17, 2006 Nice allusion....maybe this happened on here...from your point of view...however.....I'm really happy about how my life is now...really..and I'm glad it is not like it was last year... Maybe, but that doesn't mean you have to get "stuffy" at the same time.;) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Gitta Rensolo Posted November 17, 2006 Author Share Posted November 17, 2006 Maybe' date=' but that doesn't mean you have to get "stuffy" at the same time.;)[/quote'] I'm no stuffy....only honest.....or do you think I argue with you in one thread and talk to you in a different way in another thread? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
blackchickintheback Posted November 17, 2006 Share Posted November 17, 2006 I seem more irritated nowadays...even though I'm not my friends say I give off this irritated vibe. :confused: But maybe it's because they never seem to grow up and I feel like I'm maturing everyday. And I'm not as boy-crazy as I used to be. I finally figured that boys are just, boys. :dozey: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Starlight Posted November 17, 2006 Share Posted November 17, 2006 I seem more irritated nowadays...even though I'm not my friends say I give off this irritated vibe. :confused: But maybe it's because they never seem to grow up and I feel like I'm maturing everyday. And I'm not as boy-crazy as I used to be. I finally figured that boys are just, boys. :dozey: Amen! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reilly Posted November 17, 2006 Share Posted November 17, 2006 I really dont know where I stand in my life right now, and Im very very insecure and frightened when I think about it. Its a whole new world of ill, its like an impending stress, not a depression, and I dont know what I can do about it. As for Mark focussing on you becoming 'snobby' or whatever, basically once you disagree with that guy on anything he will never forget about it and in his mind you will always be wrong. And I do remember the time you disagreed with him on one particular point. This is why I may as well disagree with him on everything. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mc_squared Posted November 17, 2006 Share Posted November 17, 2006 I really dont know where I stand in my life right now, and Im very very insecure and frightened when I think about it. Its a whole new world of ill, its like an impending stress, not a depression, and I dont know what I can do about it. As for Mark focussing on you becoming 'snobby' or whatever, basically once you disagree with that guy on anything he will never forget about it and in his mind you will always be wrong. And I do remember the time you disagreed with him on one particular point. This is why I may as well disagree with him on everything. Nothing new there, then!;) Anyway, as I've pointed out on countless occasions before, "disagreements" aren't a problem as long as they're not accompanied by blatant insults or blind judgments. They're what I take issue with.;) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mc_squared Posted November 17, 2006 Share Posted November 17, 2006 I'm no stuffy....only honest.....or do you think I argue with you in one thread and talk to you in a different way in another thread? I'm just of the opinion that you've become rather accusatory and judgmental in recent months, which is a great shame.;) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Reilly Posted November 17, 2006 Share Posted November 17, 2006 I'd disagree there, I cant say for sure since I havent been here much but I cant really imagine Julia being malicious or anything. Leave that up to me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tilolas Posted November 18, 2006 Share Posted November 18, 2006 I'd disagree there' date=' I cant say for sure since I havent been here much but I cant really imagine Julia being malicious or anything. Leave that up to me.[/quote'] don't listen to him... his menstruation has been a bit out of control lately... :D Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ryujiki Posted November 18, 2006 Share Posted November 18, 2006 A year ago I discover this thread in a moment in my life I was looking for something that keeps my mind busy of some problems (not a big deal) but I need a place to speak my mind and be listened. During the last year I start to do new things (new job,different schedule,visit old friends,etc) and I learn that I could do more things than I thought. New goals,same person,all in a year. I also experiments new difficulties,new problems and of course new good things,that's why is awesome feel what life give to you,bad and good. Reading all your posts it seems like we did not change or we are stuck. I guess that is true,cause now one year later,I am feeling the same way I felt in last November.Maybe is the weather,maybe is the month,I do not know,but I am feeling melancholy and a little sad,I could say depressed,but depressed in a way you can enjoy it not in a bad way. And I realize that people do not change,people only stop doing things. That's my opinion Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mc_squared Posted November 18, 2006 Share Posted November 18, 2006 don't listen to him... his menstruation has been a bit out of control lately... :D OK - thanks for letting me know. I'll take that into consideration!!;) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RICK8 Posted November 18, 2006 Share Posted November 18, 2006 Sadly..none at all!!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mc_squared Posted November 18, 2006 Share Posted November 18, 2006 Sadly..none at all!!! Well you've moved house a couple of times!!:rolleyes: Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
StarsKay Posted November 18, 2006 Share Posted November 18, 2006 everyone changes. nothing stays the same, even small things in your day can make a huge difference. i've changed a lot in the past year. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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